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• . . . ships that changed the trajectory of my life
  • chanbaek — probably the gateway to almost everything i've ever loved. if i had to trace who i am and what i have loved today, somehow all roads lead back to them. but beyond that, this ship sparked the most creativity in me, especially in writing. i discovered parts of myself i might never have found otherwise through these two. they were with me through a huge stretch of my teenage years and i think i wouldn't have it any other way.
  • sakuatsu — quite literally derailed my life and i’m not even exaggerating. i flunked statistics because i spent most of the lectures i should’ve been attending buried in fanfics instead. i didn’t qualify for my dream university because my grade sheet was absolutely abysmal.
  • satosugu — comes back like a toxic ex every time. most of the ships i’ve fixated on were short-lived, lasting at least half a year in my mind palace before banishing themselves for a new occupant. but this… these are the landlords. and they haunt the halls. i can never listen to music normally without clutching my head thinking about how the lyrics are so fuckass satosugu, or see anything black and white without doubling over thinking that is so fuckass satosugu. and anything remotely similar to the dynamic of a defected criminal and the loved one they left behind makes me hurl and think that is so fuckass satosugu.