i've been asked quite frequently what are my reasons for wanting to move out of my house and, well, i never know where to start

  • my mother doesn't wash her hands after using the bathroom (at least when i'm home, idk if she NEVER does it) - ew
  • neither do my brother or my mother respect my sleep and they think it's good that they listen to music (that i hate) really loud while i'm trying to get some sleep because i'll eventually get used to the noise. it's basically hell.
  • this apartment is very aesthetically annoying. i don't know how to put this, but my mother has absolutely no sense of what looks good and that's enough to make me feel like an outsider when i'm in my own home, but she also won't let me do what i want to my room. i really dislike my room and it feels like a chore whenever i have to go in there. it's really weird to me.
  • i believe that moving out would be the perfect "realty bite" for me. i don't leave the house very frequently and i would start working and possibly sharing bills with other people and personally i think i would do fine after some time.
  • i hate people touching my stuff and i have repeatedly said to my mother "please do not clean my room and let me do it instead" but she just assumes i would never do it and keeps on doing it herself and i think it's just because she wants to piss me off. i don't see any other reason. i would totally clean my room (that i don't even like) myself because i know where things are supposed to be and i don't like other people making a disorganized mess out of it.
  • again about my room... i don't like how it's shaped/the way things are placed/how the bed is agaisnt the window so that i have to wake up with the sun on my fucking face every morning/how the wardrobe doesnt get any sun and instead the sun damages my books/cds/dvds/stuffed animals/things i bought with my own money... so, yeah.
  • i dont really like curtains + my mother wants the ugliest kind of curtains instead of the ones i want + it makes no sense for me to allow her to waste money on curtains for my room if i plan on moving out as soon as possible + she wouldn't really let me pull down the curtains because she's on menopause and like, even if it's freezing cold she will feel hot and sweat a lot and the only way for air to get in her room is if i open my room's window really wide, which leads to me getting freaking cold and having a terrible night of sleep as usual. sad.
  • my mother likes to control what i eat and as a human being i would like to be able to eat when i want and what i want - which aren't even unhealthy or abnormal, my eating habits are actually average, she is just that paranoid - without having to listen to comments about it all the time.
  • my mother doesn't like cats and often says things like "why did you bring this cat home" about our cat, we've had it for 2 years now. but there are also times when she pretends to LOVE our cat, only because she's a very lonely person and it makes her feel better i guess, and she will say "sometimes i think i love her more than you do..." to piss me off, since that's absolutely not true and i don't think anyone loves her more than i do. she's also very clueless about preventing accidents from happening even though i have told her several times before not to: leave the windows open when she leaves, leave boiling water in the kitchen with no supervision, leave knives and other dangerous stuff very close to the edge of a table, for example.
  • i really want to move out. i'm a very lazy person but i think i can really put myself into it because i want it so much. i will wash clothes and wash the dishes and clean the house and make food (i really like to make my own food, and i CAN cook, not only ramen or whatever), i'm very careful when it comes to my possessions, i'm not needy and i'm not a people person and i won't have a mental breakdown just because i'm on my own. i'll admit i don't get along with many people but once i find a roommate who i judge to be a nice person, we'll get along just fine.
may 12 2012 ∞
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