- 01 :: stayed home, not working for once. meeko & meili don't like berries or clementines. posted on main for the first time in forever. new thrifted sweater.
- 02 :: home again. gave up shift - only two & a half hours. more fruit, papaya this time. homework feels impossible. feel kind of okay about myself, just empty. lots of empty.
- 03 :: worked. ate more than needed i think. good mood for the most part.
- 04 :: deep talk with fav coworker/best friend, double shift, drove for the first time since the accident. walked to dollar tree with him too. trash bags & cheesecake. 20k steps. tf2 parody vids.
- 05 :: $18,500 scholarship from j&w! renewable for 4 years. still don't know if i should go. nine hr shift. 23k steps.
- 06 :: ten hr shift. bf still doesn't have wifi. overate, too much sugar in yogurt i tried :( forgot laptop at work. wanna quit.
- 07 :: day off. faked a stomachache to avoid church again. got laptop from work. feeling empty.
- 08 :: took pix, brought kitties outside. * in the woods. day off again, lax bloat.
- 09 :: started & finished orange, anime. 8.2/10, mc is painfully socially inept at times for no reason. argument(?), talked abt my feelings. praying we get better, i have never loved anyone the way i love him.
- 10 :: 7 hr shift, dreamed fbi was trying to steal my cat. fake nails.
- 13 :: lots and lots of cod mobile. worked, manager is quitting next week.. don't know if i should stay.
- 15 :: spent hours on making up late work; failing 3 classes. everything is due in 48 hrs. can't graduate if i fail.
- 16 :: passing 3/4 previously failing classes! worried ab cc grade, hasn't graded my assignments yet. manager & fav shift lead resigned.
- 21 :: chose to college to enroll in. nervous but excited. bad stomachache. passed all classes.
- 26 :: feeling absolutely nothing. em asked if i'm okay & healthy, said yes, i am not.
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