–lines/phrases/wtvr for future use; for journal entries, fleeting thoughts, a future novel that'll never be written... unknown to all except me

• i never remember our last kisses as much as i want to. as much as i plan to, really. when i know i won't see you for a while, i kiss you hard saying goodbye. trying to imprint it in my mind just in case it's the last time i'll ever get to. i never remember them well. i remember the morning kisses, cautious and soft, us both avoiding morning breath. i remember quick kisses in the kitchen, stealing them before someone walks in. red light kisses, ad breaks on hulu kisses, top-of-the-head kisses when the other one is busy. but never the goodbye kisses. the ones i want to remember the most. i often wonder if there's something meaning behind it whether it be i'm trying too hard, the other types of kisses are more memorable and thus, more meaningful to me than the goodbye ones, or some other excuse people will try to make up.