⠀⠀ 💌 .. FEBRUARY — FEVRIER

“If January is the month of change, February is the month of lasting change. January is for dreamers… February is for doers.” — Marc Parent

it's only the 11th as i'm writing this and i feel like i've gone through 50 separate metamorphosises. metamorphosies? who knows the plural when it usually happens once in awhile. i might be going insane but at least i'm out of those narcissistic ass friend groups and into a beautiful queer paradise of love and life and beautiful people. i love my life and i love my partner and i love my friends. great god grove saved my ass.

𝒾. — important dates

• 13 — ✧ reading week starts
• 14 — ✧ valentine's day + concert w/ dad
• 14 — ✧ 4 yr + 3 mo anniversary w/ babe
• 16 — ✧ family day

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"i need to lock the fuck in." – me

this is going well actually. there was one rough week but i'm already almost caught up. i think the burnout is over. as long as i keep healing... heal heal heal... i love having the study sessions with r + m. that's been really fun. we've been doing those every wednesday and it's really been keeping me on track. i missed them too.

𝒾𝒾. — academics

• current stats
• spring semester courses
• homework

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recently my partner and i dropped a bunch of people who were eating our mental health, and soon after joined the healthiest friend group i've ever met in my entire life. everyone is happy to be there and hang out and play games with eachother. everyone cares for eachother. and most importantly... there is so much healthy communication. ohhh my gods. THANK YOU GODS! i didn't understand why i was going through so much pain and suffering until i realized this is where i was meant to be actually.

part of me is scared that this will end up like the rest of them. like one day they're just gonna turn out to be shit people and everything is going to go south. but my little baby heart is telling me to trust in the gods. and i'm so scared, but i will. i love these guys and i'm willing to believe that this is the right way to go.

i had a reading recently telling me to let go of what's holding me in the past. that's the only way i'll be able to move forward. yeah. i'm going to trust in the cards.

𝒾𝒾𝒾. — spirituality

• connecting with aphrodite