⠀⠀ ⠀☽ .. " i myself am a mystery even i don't understand. "

there are energies and happenings too strange for anyone to comprehend. the atmosphere is what holds all of this energy, and it flows through us in waves incomprehensible. before this all turns into "science", such a human-centric concept, it is what i believe to be part of everything.

𝒾. — worship

• currently - hades/pluto, persephone
• i consider myself a chaos worshipper... lol its everywhere
• in terms of general witchcraft i'd like to someday become a water witch. i don't yet have the resources.
• i don't worship many deities, not unless they call to me.
• as a child i looked to venus, and she guides me to this day. she gives and gives. kind venus... i feel a strong connection.
• a haphazard venus altar sits on my dresser, not obvious enough to be one but still enough to show appreciation. sometimes i sit with it and think towards her.
• perhaps the fish tank is part of it... it sits beside it.
• early september i made a simple pluto and persephone altar with offerings laid under a cloth. i also keep a candle and bracelet overtop of the cloth and offerings. i take the bracelet with me when i leave the house.

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• links
  • working with persephone

𝒾𝒾. — rituals

• banging on ground repeatedly when worshipping underworld spirits/deities (pluto, persephone, dead ancestors, etc.)
• uncrossing
  • rubbing energy off physically
  • shouting "go away" "leave me alone"
  • indian hand positioning ritual
  • essential guide to spiritual bathing
  • removing hexes

𝒾𝒾𝒾. — happenings

• i hardly grieved my little sister's death because i felt she was with me all the time as a spirit guide. i rarely feel it now, but sometimes i feel her presence. she is always welcome.
  • 2006 - present
• at 5 years old, when we were just being shown around the house for the first time, i went into the yard to explore. there's a path down to the backyard, but it was blocked off so the dogs that still lived there didn't escape. there was a woman back there with them. just standing, watching. i later found out a woman had died in the house a few generations back. i wonder sometimes, when i feel a presence near, if she's still here.
  • summer 2010
• on my second vacation this summer i decided to go into a spiritual shop while i waited for food. everything in this small scrawny town closes at the crack of 5pm, i caught it right before it shut down. i like to look at pretty and scammy rocks, what can i say? i guess i was taking too long, because i could feel this negative energy coming towards me, and sure enough as i got closer to the front i could hear the shop owner chanting under her breath. it wasn't quite muttering, otherwise i wouldn't have suspected anything out of it. it was patterned in a way i couldn't understand... but i knew somehow it was directed at me. it was confirmed when she actually came up right beside me, far too close for comfort, and told me to leave. i work in retail and when i'm tired and want to go, i just shout from the counter. this was a direct attack. i left instantly. that night, when i got home, i woke up sweating and shivering. not sick, just... panicked, anxious? i wasn't sure, but i felt awful. it only continued throughout the next few days. i felt foggy, anxious, unwell. my sweet partner did a pendulum reading for me, sensing something was off. it was confirmed then that it was the woman in the store who had given me the hex of Fuck off, i don't want you here. literally why? anyways, i talked to a couple other spiritual friends about it and they told me some ways i could cleanse myself. which i'll list in the list.
  • august 2025
• tonight i decided to let my shower be spiritual. i washed myself from head to toe full of intention, and while i washed i thought of persephone. why persephone? i suppose she has been calling to me lately. i simply asked for warmth and joy coming into fall, as colder months usually come with darkness and chill to the bone, and that turns into sleepy unmotivation. i got reading on persephone and remembered her journey to the underworld, and wondered if it could be a symbolic calling. i prayed for her to guide me in these drafty autumn months. perhaps an offering would be wise...
  • september 2nd, 2025
• I got a tarot reading: "You got judgment, strength, and six of swords. I would say that you're on the right track with judgment being about clarity and moving forward, you cant change the past but you can alter the future and move forward with integrity (the booklet says its connected to pluto). Strength speaks for itself but six of swords it about moving on (but peacefully compared to the other cards about change). The vibes im getting from my cards is that you are growing up (in spirit) and persephone will be with you through that, you haven't been doing anything wrong from what I can gather."
• connected to pluto eh..? and i've already been thinking about pluto... along with persephone of course, only natural. i wonder if she's guiding me on the same path as she was going down... literally right down into the underworld. pluto, can you hear me??
  • september 10th, 2025
• I got another tarot reading: (paraphrased) "you got the hierophant. connected to tradition, and more specifically, religion. it's also associated with pluto. this card urges you to remember traditional forms of connection and problem solving. for example, joining a club, or religion... (etc...) the vibes i'm getting from this is... basically find yourself a community to connect with and let them help solve your problems."
• this is another one of those things that's almost confirming that he's reaching out to me, or at least persephone is trying to guide me towards him. what part of me are they trying to unlock?? lol
  • september 11th, 2025
• had a talk with stone. mentioned how i asked persephone to guide me and she clearly was taking me to her husband? looked up what pluto is supposed to symbolize... figured that was fair enough. they're kind of a package deal. decided these were clear signs and that i should probably make a floor altar. i made it on a record trunk with the idea that i could probably put offerings inside of it if i find anything. i put a fall themed scarf over it... i'll find a better one later since i still want to wear that lol, but i felt like this fit for now. a salt circle rests on the bottom. there's a bowl with selenite in it and also some lavender for persephone. i put my jewel box and a few coins for pluto. i kneeled right to the floor and prayed. i could really hear them this time. they said "we hear you" really clearly... what a cool experience.
  • september 12th, 2025