• flow
• it was just an accident
• bitter rice
• distant (uzak)
• vagabond (sans toit ni loit)
• last summer (L'Été dernier)
• the odyssey
• cam perde
• power ballad

• ottoman turkish
• films
• tv shows
• art galleries
• national museums with mom
• cinema
• walking
• pleasure + professional reading
• friends
• treat family and friends

• kdrama
• theory reading
• early modern reading
• walks
• spanish
• nyc
• baking
• wintersession
• tv shows: queen's gambit, the bear, succession
• philadelphia
• cinema / films - guadagnino, eggers
• special collections
• postcard/ letter writing
• dillon gym group fitness classes
• public library magazine sessions
• moma, guggenheim, met, noguchi, manuscript library (museum pass)
• cfps

• the banshees of inisherin
• the painted veil
• gentlemen prefer blondes
• hereditary
• the quiet girl
• three billboards outside ebbing, missouri
• examined life
• together
• empire of light
• grizzly man
• cronaca di un amore (story of a love affair)
• man on wire
• drive-away dolls
• les amours d'anaïs(anaïs in love)
• ghostbusters (1984)
• the garfield movie
• hauru no ugoku shiro (howl's moving castle)
• climax

• faces places (visages villages)
• tár
• taming of the shrew (1976, william ball stage production)
• taming of the shrew (1929)
• the man who killed don quixote
• twelfth night (Globe on Screen 2012)
• hamlet: the drama of vengeance (1921)
• to be hamlet (tv movie)
• hamlet (1948)
• throne of blood
• hollow crown: henry V
• henry V (1989)
• the tragedy of macbeth
• 4 months, 3 weeks and 2 days (4 luni, 3 saptamâni si 2 zile)
• the silence of the lambs
• I, tonya
• malena
• cleo from 5 to 7 (Cléo de 5 à 7)
• fargo (1996)

• lady bird
• the birds
• the witch
• citizen kane
• Z
• legend
• nightmare alley
• lost highway
• queen nanny: legendary maroon chieftainess
• descendant
• the worst person in the world
• slogan (1969)
• the favorite

• north by northwest
• freaks (1932)
• frankie and johnny
• rope (1948)
• fallen angels
• into the abyss
• legally blonde
• taxi driver
• battal gazi'nin intikamı
• I cannot believe this but 365 dni
• drive
• lo and behold: reveries of the connected world
• labyrinth
• gurbet artık bir ev
• the blob (1958)
• the county
• grand budapest hotel
• casablanca

• doing aerial silks
• doing scorpion pose in yoga
• bdsm/fetish club
• titania costume on halloween if I manage to find an ass
• learn how to play the piano
• present a paper at a non-virtual conference
• classical music concerts - orchestral
• scottish highlands
• public sex
• be at a place in my life where I don't use teabags, and instead have loose leaf tea types to brew with a beloved french press
• wake up next to the same person for a long time
• ballet lessons
• go to a cannons concert

• Anti-Oedipus, Deleuze and Guattari
• Renaissance Self-fashioning, Stephen Greenblatt
• The Poetics of Reverie, Bachelard
• catullus poems, in latin and english
• Norton's Annotated Arabian Nights, tr. Yasmine Seale https://wwnorton.com/books/9781631493638...
• subject and object in renaissance culture, de grazia - quilligan - stallybrass
• Dünya sahnelerinde bir türk piyanisti: İdil Biret, Dominique Xardel
• a companion to renaissance poetry ed. catherine bates
• handbook to shakespeare ed. arthur kinney
• ovid - metamorphoses (golding translation)

• http://www.victorianweb.org/science/scie...
• susan sontag - pain of others and against interpretation
• victoria kahn - marvellian rhetoric
• freud - civilization and its discontents
• peter weiss - marat/sade
• ranciere - the emancipated spectator
• berger - ways of seeing
• sarah kane plays
• philoctetes - sophocles
• in defense of the poor image
• the body in pieces - linda nochlin
• walter benjamin - illuminations

• gaston bachelard - poetics of space
• parajanov
• white devil - webster
• auden's light verse book
• Hayalet ev : yeni Türk sinemasında aidiyet, kimlik ve bellek
• walter ong - orality and literacy
• the architectural uncanny
• benedict anderson - imagined communities
• proust - kayıp zamanın izinde

• catherine deneuve
• isabella rossellini
• irène jacob
• vincent cassel
• christina ricci
• alain delon
• burt lancaster
• yves montand
• jane birkin
• serge gainsbourg
• claudia cardinale
• romy schneider
• ediz hun
• david duchovny
• gregory peck
• louis garrel
• lea séydoux
• cary grant
• glenn howerton
• monica bellucci
• yes, adam driver

• honey pistachio twist & lemon poppyseed olive oil pastry from dominique ansel workshop (seasonal)
• pickled pb & j bar from red gate bakery
• pandan honeycomb cake from banh by lauren
• taiyaki from delimanjoo
• affogato at il corallo trattoria
• caffe panna ice cream
• hani's chocolate chip cookie
• tahini coffee cake from noa, a bakery
• goat cheese, pecan, hot honey croissant from tall poppy (sep 26 exclusive)

• true detective season 1
• twin peaks
• schitt's creek
• euphoria
• parks and rec
• el tiempo entre costuras
• mozart in the jungle
• only murders in the building

• american psycho
• saltburn
• the wild robot
• anora
• garden state
• la la land
• umberto d.
• sorry, wrong number
• nightmare on elm street
• aalto: architecture of emotions
• mccabe & mrs. miller

• 8x8 and 9x9 glass pans
• cake pan
• loaf pan
• bigger umbrella
• food processor
• cutlery
• washing bowl
• lingua latina per se illustrata
• cutting board
• mugs
• vacuum cleaner
• banker's lamp

• kitty watt
• bourdieu - the rules of art
• demonic grounds: katherine mckittrick
• june jordan
• angela davis
• george morrison
• elizabeth bishop - the imaginary iceberg
• sianne ngai - ugly feelings (trilogy) emotions, aesthetics, capitalism
• george chapman - byron & bussy
• natalie zemon davis
• lorna hutson - feminism in early modern studies
• rene girard - mimetic desire - theatre of envy
• Mermaids and the Production of Knowledge in Early Modern England
• maik goth - Monsters and the poetic imagination in The Faerie Queene: 'Most ugly shapes, and horrible aspects'
• the renaissance computer

• seven-year itch
• charade (1963)
• my favorite cake
• mountains
• beau is afraid
• midsommar
• conclave
• 8 1/2 fellini
• the seventh seal
• the expression of hands, harun farocki
• voci nel tempo
• uncle yanco
• uptown girls
• king in new york
• boys in the boat
• sally chainsaw
• cinema paradiso
• gary hustwit
• antonioni
• one fine morning
• somewhere

• good headphones (beyerdynamic dt 770 / audio-technica ath m50x)
• floral gilded cup
• ashtray (something malachite)
• Spanish children's book / light books
• silver, red, gold mary janes
• glitter socks
• white eyeliner

• ice pack in the freezer
• good knives
• big cutting board(s)
• onion-only cutting board, small (I know, extravagant)
• nice plates and bowls
• giant bowl for salad or bake mixing and stuff
• plastic bowls for washing fruit and stuff
• small lamp
• personal library
• chairs, no cushions. wood. four legs
• laundry basket
• table, simple, wood
• V GOOD headphones for classical music

• wallpaper.com
• aeon
• perasinema
• artspace
• artrabbit
• themissingslate
• perspecta journal
• cinephiliabeyond.org
• viraverita.org
• journalonarts
• https://aseriesofrooms.com/#/tags
• newstatesman
• laphams quarterly
• interestingliterature.com
• medievalist.net
• quillette
• https://www.e-flux.com/journal/
• domus: https://www.domusweb.it/en.html
• manifold press
• textz
• https://www.theatticoneighth.com/

• the secret garden (1993)
• beauty and the beast 1946
• 36 fillette
• ever after: a cinderella story
• jules et jim
• woodshock
• the aftermath
• la dolce vita
• simon schama documentaries
• kozmos, reha erdem
• Boy on a Dolphin
• loves of a blonde
• taking off
• endless poetry
• jaws
• the act of killing
• amadeus
• white crow
• fireman's ball
• cuckoo's nest
• radio days

• slings and arrows
• the gentlemen
• succession
• severance
• raised by wolves
• the white lotus
• nathan fielder - the rehearsal
• unorthodox
• carnivale
• the sinner
• touch your heart
• feel good
• 7 yüz
• IASIP S13E1
• girlfriend project
• hotel room - lynch
• black mirror
• ripper street
• engrenages
• the newsroom
• rome

• valens su kemeri
• yerebatan sarnıcı
• yıldız sarayı
• yıldız camii
• kariye müzesi
• borusan contemporary / perili köşk

• ben jonson
• lyall watson, heaven's breath: a natural history of the wind
• paradise lost
• seneca - tragedies (https://press.uchicago.edu/ucp/books/boo...)
• sidney - old arcadia
• spenser - amoretti, muiopotmos, vewe of ireland
• john lyly
• middleton - a game at chess, mad world
• thomas more, utopia
• george puttenham, the art of poesie

feminist and queer reading

• moon charania, archives of tongues
• "Quare" studies, or (almost) everything I know about queer studies I learned from my grandmother, e. patrick johnson
• sissies at the picnic, roderick ferguson
• castration or decapitation?, helene cixous
• mama's baby, papa's maybe, hortense j. spillers
• "All the Things You Could Be by Now If Sigmund Freud's Wife Was Your Mother": Psychoanalysis and Race, hortense j. spillers

phenomenology, materialism, politics

• gaston bachelard, the poetics of space
• gaston bachelard, the poetics of reverie
• marx, the german ideology
• adorno

• cook rare book recipes
• go back to my old academic writing

• psychoacoustics
• gesta romanorum
• techno-fascism
• dictionnaire infernal
• rob nixon - slow violence
• doo-wop, soul, gospel, r&b, blues
• unsymbolized thinking
• timothy morton - foreground/background
• rene girard
• profilicity
• cambridge neoplatonists

• bach
• rachmaninoff
• tchaikovsky
• mendelssohn
• debussy
• ravel

• green
• lemongrass, spearmint, peppermint
• chamomile
• linden
• passion flower - valerian root combo because it temporarily kills my negativity. otherwise it smells + tastes like I would prefer eating my own hand
• vanilla chamomile
• chai
• ginger green
• earl grey

• little joe
• a short film about killing (decalogue 5)
• the archivettes
• Reminiszenzen aus Deutschland
• parasite
• accident (joseph losey)
• cave of forgotten dreams
• the pruitt-igoe myth
• in the mouth of madness
• badlands
• cries and whispers
• paterson

• the man from earth
• fille (girl)
• tabutta rövaşata
• ashik kerib
• play it again, sam
• beoning (burning)
• capernaum
• roma
• andriesh
• children of men
• sayat nova (the color of pomegranates)
• les maîtres fous (mad masters)
• the king's speech
• sibel
• fifty shades darker
• the guernsey literary and potato peel society
• into the inferno
• fata morgana
• encounters at the end of the world
• güvercin hırsızları

• England is mine
• djam
• cafe lumiere (Kōhī Jikō)
• daha
• cathedrals of culture I
• memory exercises (ejercicios de memoria)
• call me by your name
• arabia
• the killing of a sacred deer
• have a nice day (hao jile)
• rebecca
• gaslight (1944)
• spellbound (1945)
• suspicion
• how to talk to girls at parties
• four weddings and a funeral
• annie hall
• sim sala bim (ne sihirdir ne keramet)
• read my lips (sur mes levres)
• inside paris (dans paris)
• you've got mail

• picnic at hanging rock
• a good year
• suzanne's career (la carrière de suzanne)
• damage (fatale)
• chicago the movie
• yaşamın kıyısında (auf der anderen Seite)
• louis ck: hilarious
• pretty baby
• in the last days of the city (Akher ayam el madina)
• Simon Schama's 'David'
• the umbrellas of cherbourg (Les parapluies de Cherbourg)
• window horses
• the stopover (Voir du pays)
• C-blok
• masumiyet
• on the milky road
• the royal tenenbaums