so just a few minutes ago, i googled "enneagram 4 doing repressed" and i found the right wording for what i was doing since december. i don't know, but i just feel shocked because it was just worded perfectly here. ever since december, i have only been doing tasks that i feel happy with... like painting with watercolors and sorting my emotions by writing it down. i guess this is why i haven't been able to properly do my schoolworks. it's because i don't feel good while doing it and i don't feel passionate about doing what i'm supposed to do. however though, i really want to get my schoolworks finished. i just don't find it accomplishing and i feel like i'm forcing myself to do something i don't feel happy doing, because most of the schoolworks that are given to us are just like stuffs where you need great knowledge to get it done, some needs good storytelling ability and i am not a good storyteller. anyways, i am just happy that i am able to get an answer perfectly worded out about what i am actually doing and why i am doing this. and yes, a lot of words are repetitive here. i am working on being able to sort my words out in a non-repetitive and more understandable way than this.

01/17/22 | 09:07 PM