• How much do I worry about what others think of me?
  • I don't worry about what others think of me. One of the things I worry about is being someone that makes a situation harder for a person. If people gets bothered by what I do with my life that doesn't really need to bother them, then they better stay away from me because I won't be changing just to impress what they think is right. If my presence bothers you, then you leave.
• Do I reach out for help when I need it?
  • I want to, but I feel like they think I did not do my best. I know that asking for help is not a bad thing, but I just find that they think I want an easier way to achieve something. Before I even consider trying to reach out for help, I do try to find altervatives. If I can't find an alternative, I just don't get to do what I want then. I have also tried to ask for help and assistance, but it ends up not helping me.
• Do I feel run down?
  • I do feel run down. I try different activities to not feel run down.
• When do I feel happier?
  • I feel happier when I am able to be creative. I have felt happier when I started painting. Though, these days, I haven't done any creative activities which kind of makes me feel... I don't know.
• How do I define success?
  • I would call it a success if I feel happy and had fun while doing it. I will call it a success if I don't feel forced while doing it.
• I want to make {blank} proud.
  • I want to make myself proud. I want to look back in maybe months or years and be happy with what and who I have become. It would make me proud of myself if I become truly happy. It would make me proud to put my thoughts in words and to organize them.
• Who is at the top of my support system?
  • I am the one supporting myself.
• What will people say about me at my funeral?
  • Why do I find questions like these? Anyway, I don't think they'd have much to say about me. If they would have something to say about me, then it would probably be something outdated. I have changed a lot throughout this pandemic. I haven't talked to many of my colleagues, neither have I catched up. I have talked to about four of them and I don't think they'd have anything to say about me.
• Is anxiety something that dampens most of my days?
  • I have not had experienced anxiety in quite a while and I am so happy about it. I do my best to avoid feeling down. I make sure that if something upsets me, then I would recover quickly. If you are suffering from anxiety, then I hope you find peace in life. I got away from it, so can you.
• Am I comfortable in my own skin?
  • Definitely. Early 2020, I have had many insecurities. It includes scars on my legs, acnes, unaligned teeth and many more. I am happy now that I was able to be comfortable in my own skin.
• What do I do for fun?
  • Said earlier. I have been doing paintings and I felt happy. Though, I haven't been doing the said activity these days. I won't force myself to do it when I don't feel like doing it. I almost forgot something. I also do these blogs and it makes me happy. Practicing self-introspection is fun to me and helps me understand myself.
• Am I controlling?
  • I don't think that I am. If someone wants to do something, then I'd encourage them to do it unless it'll harm someone.

02/23/22 | 11:16 PM