Like most people, it's also a dream of mine to have a family with the person who loves me as much as I do, and to have a happy and faithful marriage. However, there's this recurring thought that I won't be able to find someone decent in this day and age. Especially in our country, there's this belief that if a guy isn't faithful to their partner, his first daughter will be unlucky with her relationships. Well, I'm the only daughter. Middle child too. I am also too afraid to choose the wrong person and just realize after having a child. I don't want my future child(ren) to have a broken family like I did.

It's hard for me to trust. Falling in love is very difficult. Add to that the fact that I keep on getting surrounded by people who commits infidelity in their relationships. Deep within me, I actually feel that I'd be unlucky with romantic relationships. For someone who claims to want to stay single for the rest of their lives, I sure do fantasize a lot about having a happy marriage and family.

I know that I am still in my teenage years. I am afraid to make mistakes when I become an adult. I feel like if let someone breaks my peace by letting them be with me, then I won't be able to regain that again. I'd just be very confused and lost.

05/20/22 | 01:11 a.m.