hello, world! this is yssa.

i didn't really plan on making an entry today. i was customizing my cursor when i suddenly had the urge to.

while i'm at it, let me write about my decisions regarding my college dillema when i was last came here.

i graduated from senior high school as a valedictorian—something i did not quite expect, as i was quite relaxed and felt i did not give my very best in most of the activities during the year. i received a senate gold medal of excellence, which i now consider my most prized possession. i also obtained a scholarship with a 100% discount on tuition fees in one of the most prestigious universities around our area.

the start of my summer vacation consisted of sleepless nights as i was preparing to take the entrance exam of my dream university. "ace the entrance exam, and you'll be worry-free regarding your school expenses." for some reason, i wasn't able to focus during my self-studying session. this was my routine for two weeks: sleep, eat, watch one episode of reply 1988, start the review session, get distracted, realize it's late at night, and then go to bed.

in those days, i also took an online entrance exam in one of the local colleges here and the qualifying exam for the sm foundation scholarship. spoiler alert: i failed the qualifying exam, even though i felt confident with my answers.

during this period, i was still hesitant regarding my chosen program. i was asking the universe to give me a clear sign of which one to pursue as all sounds interesting to me.

so, may 15th was the day we were supposed to submit our application in one of the universities in our area. not my first choice, but it's still an opportunity so why not? however, my friend whom i was supposed to go with, cancelled for the day to get a new copy of his requirements.

may 15 at 6 p.m., the local college released the results, and i was among the eight passers from our school. my schoolmates expressed their dismay towards the results, and so i felt like i'd be missing a great opportunity if i didn't accept the slot.

so, a response to my past self: no, you did not take any of the college programs you listed. you are to take library and information science. i never imagined myself in this field before, and it was just an impulse to choose it during my application. i never even thought that i'd pass that exam. though after finding out that it's highly related to research, i felt like that's the best field for me.

i'd still (probably) pursue a career as an educator, but i'd like to not be stuck doing one thing my entire life. this is probably the best decision for me.

07/30/25 | 08:07 a.m.