• buy an entirely new wardrobe
• or better yet buy anything
• choose sugar over sustenance
• party (you'll overdo it, I swear)
• cut, dye, or fuck with your hair
• or let any needles near your skin
• eat just to "feel better"
• freak when your face goes from 'goddess' to 'meth addict' (you look exactly the same, hon)
• hookup with a guy you just met who seems decent
• tell someone how you really feel (you can't take it back)

• mid-afternoon naps
• watching movies
• a warm cup of tea
• shouting along to my favorite songs
• reciting poetry
• unexpected adventures
• boys that fancy me
• telling someone to fuck off
• neglecting inhibitions
• finishing something

• always accept a compliment
• and, dear alice, you look beautiful today
• be refined, polite and well-spoken
• cover up (because it's better if you do )
• do everything you do with passion
• do what you want when you want
• don't complain unless you can change something
• dress like you're going to see your worst enemy
• exaggerate your emotions immensely
• keep in mind that saying, "No," feels good
• learn to finish what you start
• listen firstly, secondly, and speak only thirdly
• love everything you can
• never be bored
• never close your eyes; you might miss something

• forty minutes of stretching
• ten minutes of posture
• run twice a week
• tea for breakfast
• eat half portions
• make art
• fall sometimes

big budget

• lasik eye surgery, $3000
• laser hair removal, $5000

cosmetics

• smooth operator (tarte cosmetics), $36
• rejuvelash (tarte cosmetics), $16
• medieval (lipstick queen), $20
• saint in nude (lipstick queen), $18
• reincarnate solid shampoo (lush), $8
• irresistible bliss solid shampoo (lush), $10
• jungle solid conditioner (lush), $6
• american cream conditioner (lush), $30
• vanilla in the mist soap (lush), $7
• vanillary solid perfume (lush), $10
• marilyn hair treatment (lush), $20
• vanilla puff dusting powder (lush), $12
• sympathy for the skin body lotion (lush), $24
• buffy body butter (lush), $23

nails

• buy a burner phone
• call agencies (about requirements)
• don't touch your face
• start waxing
• lose fifty pounds
• buy cute underwear
• bleach skin + teeth
• get lasik eye surgery

• throw a sheet over the mirror
• splash cold water on my face
• make a warm cup of tea
• go for a walk
• take a long bubble bath with a book
• scream along to a song loudly + off key
• watch a movie staring someone I'd rather be
• write my feelings all across my skin
• find something that I like about myself

physically

• wavy, brown, shoulder length hair
• brown hair with piercing blue eyes
• tall, blond-haired beauties

emotionally

• listen to what I have to say
• dance with me sporadically
• keep me warm at night
• make an effort to be with me