- writing about you again, because i haven't seen you recently. a lot of ideas have been floating in my head for sometime now. i wonder if you are a singular person. i wonder if perhaps, you are a lost sibling that i have never encountered. if so, i wonder if this person dreams of me as well? many ideas, many mysteries. i remember seeing you in my last meditation, but you were cold to me. i can't bring myself to dedicate time to getting to know you, i hate living in capitalism. i promise you that we will engage in conversation. i know you are either living, another half of me, or a spirit that has clutched to me. perhaps you are the god of me. either way, i think about you a lot.
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- on another topic, my legs have grown hair. it is good. i am trying to be more excited about my progress rather than compare myself to what i could be. i feel like a ghost, but i find the time to engage in this life. its a very odd feeling.
- another note is i've been on xanex again, it's fine and i'm keeping myself in control, but it's been a month or so and i now feel some alarming side effects. i'll be fine, been through it before, right?
- it's the way i perceive. i don't think i'm different from anyone else in any other way, but i do believe most people will never live a life i have. it's egotistical but i do think it's cool.
- i need to write more poetry.
- all i can think of for now.
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