- (12/18/20)
- ive waited to think about what i should get on my arm but now i know it'll be you and the cicada
- it will say a lot about life and death, i think
- i got into another argument with someone about life and death again -
- i just don't understand the ego we feel, i struggle to get it. other people's especially, because everybody's is different. is it a separate version of us .. maybe a shift of instinct and personality forming together. it's like the egg of those two things. what opinions and ideas do we have about ourselves that is built by the ego, that ultimately forms us to have shitty relationships with others, and most importantly: you know everything.
- this is a discussion with religion as the subject, so of course this scenario is subjective too.
- when you can, with certainty , express there is absolutely Nothing after this,
- that just seems a little .... Boring? i mean sure yeah, there's no god, we live in a godless world, there could be nothing holding our souls in it's hand. But these Elements? Like, Earth? Water? Air? Fire?
- this place that we live in is especially spiritual. take account for the rain -
- there's a scientific explanation that tells us why it rains. a cycle, it continues. it never stops, there's never more rain than what is given. our water is one. and within that one, there is many. everything drinks and grows from this. why do we never tell the water thank you ....
- i recognize now that it's because of colonization and the western u.s idea that monogamy is the way we must live. one God, one spouse, one family, one way. black and white thinking; capitalist.
- anyways, that's my journal entry for today.
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