- maybe if i write enough everything will hurt less.
- i want to be a fuck up. i want to scream, and get so fucking wasted and so high and just deny all my fears and forget who i am and be somebody else, be a wild stallion, just for one night. but i know i'd just hate myself in the morning.
- i wish i knew what it felt like to be desperately in love.
- i wish i had a good example of love to follow. maybe then everything would make more sense.
- we make eye contact sometimes. it depends on the day, but normally i feel sad. i don't recognize you anymore.
- i would very much one day like to be the winner.
- my thoughts are all skeletons and sadness.
- the warmth of the air is not comforting. it's suffocating.
- i can still feel you test the curls of my hair between your electric fingertips. i can still hear you tell me how lovely they are, i can still see the look on your face when you'd look at me and how i felt like i was actually something worth looking at.
- i feel that sensation of falling backwards all the time.
- sometimes if i concentrate hard enough and close my eyes i can feel the ghost of your body next to mine, the lingering of your stomach, your chest beneath my fingers, and what your thin lips felt like against mine.
- i remember former crushes fondly but the reality is that i don't miss them, i just miss what it felt like to have someone there. i think that's called loneliness.
- you're like that feeling you get when you're holding your breath underwater and you maybe wonder if you might just drown any second. you're exactly like a chance of death.
- " you're full of life. " maybe you meant it.
- this distance between us and the few words that pass us are killing me slowly. i miss you.
- your face is tattooed on the back of my eyelids.
- we just need to scream till our voices grow weak and we forget what we were yelling about. then things can shift back into focus like they were and should be.
- i'll keep the window wide open and hope one night when the sky is dark and the crickets are singing that i'll hear you climb through.
- your name feels like razors on the back of my throat.
- i could feel the warmth from your smile today, the sunshine that shone from your laugh, the sparkling gold that dripped from your shining eyes hiding behind those clear lenses. it was wonderful.
- we'll have our fireworks someday.
- i wish i could hear your heart beating like mine.
- my heart feels like a balloon. i really hope it doesn't pop. it might. it'd be okay though. because i'm not sad anymore.
- you are light. you're beautiful. but so quickly you shield yourself and so easily you falter. i really wish i was strong again so i could pick you up.
- i wish i hadn't spent so much time lost that you'd had enough time to build up those horrid lines on your poor, small wrists.
- i wish my love was enough to make them sparkle and float away like magic.
- it's amazing how darkness can make those who are blind even more blind. how it puts a veil between a crying daughter and her mother and makes each assume everything is okay.
- it's amazing how tears can fall from my tired eyes and you don't take care to notice.
- god, i wish you'd notice.
- we're fading some days. i wish someone would just blow us out before we make a mess.
- i wish, i wish, i wish.
- just rain already.
- the way my heart feels heavy and how everyone looks so tiny from back here just makes everything sting so much. why was i the one to be left behind?
- and why am i even letting it happen?
- i don't remember what you said after i told you i don't think i believe in good karma anymore. i wish i could.
- we're slow dancing in my mind but when i open my eyes you're with her and i wish it was me.
- you're just so wonderful and lovely and i hardly even know you but i would really like to and i hope that's okay.
- we're strangers and i adore it because i can try on faces like hats and you wouldn't even know.
- so this is what happiness feels like. what a total soundness and comfort in my heart is.
- you're so right and i never want this to end.
aug 8 2010 ∞
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