so these last two months have been... interesting. I'm going to start off with the australian. holy smokes. the accent. let me repeat: holy fucking smokes. moving on there have been several weird first dates -- but that's okay, it's all apart of growing up, right? A lot of the guys I've met recently are really cool and funny and smart, but I just haven't felt that spark with someone yet. I'm not really looking for anything serious at this point but I just want someone that vibes with me.. the submarine guy was cool, more aloof, super tall and strong.. but I just needed more than that. I'm glad I was chill and said something sooner rather than later since I don't want to waste his time. other than that I think I'll just keep doing what I'm doing -- so much to do but that's the best way to be because being busy means I have no time to worry about stupid things that don't really matter. I've got a lot going for me. confidence has never been my strong suit but I won't ever give up.. Well I probably will honestly but that's besides the point. I have issues and I'm fucked up in certain ways but that doesn't take away the from the fact that I've been the best thing that's ever happened to someone or that I've accomplished things that I never dreamed I could. this whole post has been me rambling. Ram bling would be a cool band name.