• tummy aches
  • my stupid phone charger
  • I can' go a day w/o putting myself down... It's really awful because I feel content with life right now and I honestly do love myself but for some reason every time I open my mouth all my insecurities pour out. I think it's because I'm around people all the time and I don't have momo or my mom. That's silly because I'm a full grown adult and I am capable of being more level headed about these sort of things. If you always put yourself second then other people will always put you second, or not think of you at all. I don't expect people to put me first but sometimes it's nice when they surprise you like that. Honestly I just need to be more chill. That's it.

When it comes to boys and relationships and crap like that I have two lines of thought.. One is that anyone that would consider dating me must be crazy because I'm not worth the time and effort and I'm just weird and the most awkward person alive and that makes me not want to date those people because I realize they must not be very logical if they picked me.. and the second idea is that I'm pretty awesome and when I am in a relationship I actually am a pretty good girlfriend.. I think of fun things to do and I take my boyfriends out on dates too so they don't feel like I just wanna take alflan;dlfnad;slfnskd I don't wanna talk about this anymore. I will be forever alone and that is perfectly acceptable to me at this point in my life. I can visualize myself being alone when I'm like 50 and being bummed out about it but my cats will never leave me so life won't ever be that bad. This list turned out to be me puking out feelings. ew.

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