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  • my father ever being proud of me.
  • finding the end of a rainbow.
jul 1 2009 ∞
jul 1 2009 +
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my mother:

  • has stiff, vein-y feet.
  • does not like to celebrate herself.
  • has trouble walking after getting out of her chair.

my father:

  • has skin that sags, especially on his cheek bones.
  • makes me feel like not speaking.
  • is loud, even with a cigarette in his mouth.

i stopped calling my father Daddy much sooner than Mommy was mom.

may 6 2009 ∞
may 14 2009 +
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  • because we are in love and getting married and i already know what my wedding dress is & you will love it & i have your ring picked out & you will love it.
  • not only are we getting married, we are getting married on the rooftop of a skyscraper. everyone's hair will be so windblown!
  • i am writing a crown of sonnets for you.
    • i only discuss my purest intentions, sailing down snowy hills in just our underwear and socks.
  • i will see you in less than one month.
  • i am going to live with you for seven weeks in the winter.
  • we are growing older every day, growing closer to being understood as a mature couple. i hate waiting to get married to you. it will happen soon, but not soon enough.
  • i love you.
oct 27 2009 ∞
jan 13 2010 +
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  • i still cannot believe that you are mine. sometimes when i call you, while the phone is ringing, i think you might be a complete stranger. it makes me uneasy. you are so far from me .
    • if this were true, you'd be the best fucking stranger on the earth.
    • also sometimes when i look at your photographs, i cannot comprehend your image; i have studied them too often and cannot see you as a whole anymore.
  • i pass chandeliers and track lights in dinnerware'd, modern art'd loft apartments every night. i love peering into peoples' homes, thinking "that could be our track lighting" and "what if that was our dinnerware and modern art?".
  • i cannot fathom the joy of sharing everything with you, including sofas and coffeetables and a microwave. i want to wear your shirts and my slippers, sipping tea wi...
may 7 2009 ∞
may 14 2009 +
  • we never really cuddle after sex.
    • i think that time floods in after we catch our breath and we realize that we live in bed ((or maybe for bed)) and are ashamed, maybe.
    • i ask you if you will live in michigan with me in a studio apartment this summer so that i can work at the theatre out there; my dream job.
      • you say that you need to stay home for your family. they need you now more than ever.
      • we are always very selfish when it comes to families.
      • i am always very selfish when it comes to families.
may 14 2009 ∞
may 14 2009 +