• i think i am stuck in my mind
• i worry i hurt people
• i've given up hope on a future with some people
• sometimes I worry that all I am is the art I create
• i am selfish
• i am dazed
• i need to get away

• each tiny mistake
• each little thing people do for one another
• each moment possesses the infinite capability for either
• the hurt that I cause people each day
• the things I would have liked to tell others
• why am I so tired? why am I so fucked?
• CONVERSATION=perhaps the greatest art (see: Ian Wilson)
• CONVERSATION= something I am not so great at
• too many cigarettes makes me sick
• I think my eyes are too close together
• I think I love people I've never seen before
• voodoo
• funerals
• pentagrams
• WHY THE FUCK DO PEOPLE NOT E-MAIL YOU BAC...

• those gold and velvet couches
• conac/brandy....any gold-colored liquor in a sparkling glass
• gramaphone and lots of jazz records
• closets of silk dancing slippers
• typewriter...a big black one
• red bike with a basket
• dozens of gold chandeliers
• balcony to smoke on
• gold cigarette holder
• zippo lighter
• 16mm camera
• oriental carpets
• scruffy cats
• beat up couches

• Mid twenties guy comes up behind me and says: "Excuse me, sorry, but I'm new here in the city and I'm just looking for friends and people to meet. What school do you go to?"

Me: Oh, I'm in high school. Man: Do you know what you want to do in life? Me: I think I want to go to art school. Man: You should, that's what I do. Okay, good bye. This was probably the cutest encounter I've had. I was pleasantly surprised that this guy had the guts to walk up to people and basically say, I'm lonely will you be my friend?

• Setting:

Me: drawing and smoking in park Man: thirtysomething with kid Man: Oh, so you like to draw? Me: well, yeah, I come here sometimes just to doodle and, you know... Man: So are you on your lunch break right now? Me: I'm on spring break. Man: Oh, so you go to art school...

• unicorns
• old people
  • old people holding hands
• pancakes
• beds
  • sheets
• feet touching
• hair in the wind
• giggles
• writing on arms
• whispering in people's ear
• letters
• eskimo kisses
• OLD PEOPLE, DID I SAY OLD PEOPLE?
• nerdy men
  • men in general
• glasses
• people who don't care at all/people who c...

• keys
• love
• minds
• teeth
• hair
• limbs
• money
• warmth
• blood
• time
• location
• "YOU ARE HERE" on a map
• where you are in society
• where are your feet?
• personal identity
• the things buried deepest in one's heart
• external features (masks can cause us to lose who we are)
• childhood
• innocence

• cemetaries
• coffins
• those little tin boxes used for tea
• trash bins
• estate sales
• IN YOUR SOUP CANS
• stuck to your cat
• floating in the wind
• attic
• basement
• no other floors than an attic or basement, duh
• suitcase
• inside a music box

• Grandmother:
  • Is convinced that Al Gore bribed his way into recieving a Nobel Peace Prize so that he could successfully trick the general population into believing in global warming (something she calls "phooey").
  • Dyes her hair blonde and is convinced that everyone in the family hates her.
  • Is losing her memory, which frustrates everyone, which makes her believe that we hate her even more.
• Grandfather:
  • Insists on affectionately clapping me on the back and calling me "Murgatroid" (the origin of which I am uncertain).
  • The veins on his cheeks are deep and red and sunken
• 14 year old cousin

• GLASS JAR PROJECT components:
  • I have started to collect late 19th century portraits and would like to:
    • write short stories/poems about the people. or create back-stories about their lives in general
    • obtain glass jars and create miniature worlds that these people would have lived in OR
      • things that represent a common theme throughout their lives (i.e. a glass jar filled with battered dolls)
• LOST THINGS
  • still trying to wrap my head around exactly what this would entail, but an abstract idea like "things that are lost" always helps get the ol' brain juices flowing. ...

• trees
• branches
• thorns
• tangles
  • tangled wire
  • tangled string
• bullets
• bullet smoke
• guns
• flowers
• weeds
• spiky grass
• children
• cemetaries
  • tombstones
  • crosses
  • flowers left at gravesites
• hands
• underwear