with years of therapy and medication

• I can go outside, alone! (ˆ▽ˆ)
• ok, so "hearing" voices is not normal... I don't know why nobody told me this (???? now I (almost) don't hear anything, but I feel so alone... it's weird ￣ω￣
• My obsessive thoughts are gone (??) I don't think too much lately, I can focus a lot more, so that's good. I thought that I would die (I was SO afraid) but I'm alive and well. I can't believe that I can live like this, without playing a record in my head 24/7. It's soooo weird. I really can't believe that normal people live like this. There's so much silence now.
• I'm not harming myself too much. I don't hit my head, or scratch my face, legs and etc in general, I don't even apply alcohol down there anymore. Even if I'm sleeping, I don't hurt myself! ᕙ(`▽´)ᕗ I still make really small cuts/hurt my lips, but I'll work hard(?) to stop it.
• I can look at some things without feeling that I'll cry or be eaten (w t f)
• I'm doing so much better overall, I don't want to kill myself anymore. And my skin looks great too lol