- my introverted-ness.
- I wish I was more forthcoming with my emotions. I hold myself back, and even if I genuinely try to express my emotions, I feel like it seems faked.
- awkwardness
- taking life too seriously. Seriously, replaying each mistake over and over in my mind doesn't help my self esteem. Of course learning from mistakes is important and I feel like I do, but sometimes I just over-do it. And analyzing, over analyzing each detail, each persons actions.
- Which brings my next issue: low self-esteem.
- I spend a lot of time trying to avoid failing at things and preventing failure instead of achieving success..
- being avoidant. Avoiding problems and confrontations hoping they'll disappear, but they don't.
- being too gullible
- inclined to feel that I'm a failure
- internet and facebook addiction
- That I can't take compliments by face value
- My lazy procrastinating self.
- My anti-social self
- I tend to try to avoid some social interactions, but later complain about my lack of a social life.
- Not being able to dance like no one is watching.
- Not being able to be outside and act as if no one is watching. Feeling that someone is judging me, being worried of other's views on me.
- Holding myself back when I can be so much more.
- My ineloquent-ness. I can write down my thoughts on paper, but cannot formulate my whole thoughts in speech. I always want to hit myself after talking to someone, I really suck at putting my thoughts into speech.
- Which brings up my other insecurity- my accent
- I still have an accent and also stutter, despite being in the US for most of my life. People who came to the US in high school have better english than me. And its not like my Japanese makes up for it because it doesnt- I stutter way more in Japanese.
- maybe I'm just ineloquent in any language
- Thinking my grades define my worth.
- How I expect too much sometimes, and other times I try to expect the worst, hope for the best which leads me to underestimate, undervalue myself.
- Seeing things in black or white.
- Wanting to do certain things perfectly to the point where if it's not perfect, I don't even try at all and just give up.
- I procrastinate like no other. like now.
feb 3 2011 ∞
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