- april 1st: "jen you're so emo. like the ultimate emo there is, do you need a hug kid? yes i dress in color unlike you, you dress in the color of your soul! you know i mean that with loving respect." (c.g)
- april 2nd: "why do you always wait for me, it seems unnecessary? but dont leave me, what makes you think ill let you leave babe?" (d.h)
- april 3rd: "cant call you princess because jen is already my princess." (c.g)
- april 4th: "SHUT UP JEN U R AMAZING IN MY EYES N DONT DOWNGRADE URSELF LIKE THAT BC U R SUCH A GREAT PERSON!!!!" (t.t) &"jen I don't know if you want to talk right now but I'll always be here for you and I love you and I really hope you're okay you're beautiful inside and out and I care about you" (n.b)
- april 5th:"in the meantime, i hope you’ll feel better and don’t forget that you’re a lovely person who is really important!! you’re a lovely person that deserves all the love in the world!! ♡♡♡" (usu-han) & "You are loved, jenjen :)" (anon) & "I am so sorry that you are feeling this way and wish that I could help you in a bigger way, but all I can do is silently support you right now. I hope things look up for you soon. I'm so sorry my words aren't enough to mend your pain." (anon) & "it's okay, you're okay. you're going to be fine as long as you don't let the darkness surrounding u consume u. please take care of yourself; i know you feel like shit and its fucking normal to feel like it after losing someone. you need to stay strong ok i love you there are people who love you, even though they don't tell you often. please don't try cutting again please don't there's so much to life for you don't hurt yourself jen please. don't shut yourself out ok. be sad, he was your grandpa, jen. he was a relative that you cared for its ok" (c.s)
- april 6th: "i know how much it hurts to lose someone and i hope you'll feel better soon! until then please do something nice to make yourself feel better instead of hurting yourself again" (anon) & "oh darling i'm glad you're okay and it's okay you relapsed bc you're still working towards your recovery, it's okay to take a break from yourself sometimes" (t.m)
- april 7th: "you are so sweet and wonderful and i wish i could come over and comfort you and i understand my love things like that are very hard to deal with and its okay to be said you can be sad for as long as you need okay" (n.b) & "just dont fucking kill yourself because i am here and you can call me whenever you feel scared, i know loss i know how it feels i care about you" (k.c)
- april 8th: "i really, really do hope you'll be feeling much much better soon. it makes me sad, honestly, to hear that you're hurting yourself when it's not your fault. i know we've never really talked before but hey now we're partners in crime so ; )" (haz) & "AW you're so cute jennifer i love you you're the greatest ily ily a lot" (q.t)
- april 9th: "it doesnt matter, what matters is that before he started forgetting his memories he loved you and he cared for you and that he'll be here with you in spirit" (t.t) & "I believe in you. You're a lovely human being and deserve the best in this world" (anon)
- april 10th: "Jen Jen, if he says thing like that, please don't hurt yourself more by letting him to do so,,, you are one strong baby doll, and I'm so so proud of you okay, if he isn't supportive you've got to let him know that you won't stand for his fuckboy attitude,, put the pooper scooper in his place" (g) & "i’m sorry that it happened and i wish i could make things alright for you but i can’t. i love you, please dont think that i dont care about you because i always will darling!" (s.m)
- april 11th: "i think ur p cool too!! i love much more than 10 things about u btw" (twinpeaks) & "tbh you're too good for most people" (k.c)
- april 12th: "im so sorry, keep being strong" (twinpeaks) & "but in all seriousness love yourself and you will shine with the light of a thousand suns or at least you will think that bc u love yourself" (anu) & "people like you deserve the best okay!!" (g)
- april 13th: "follow the light sweetheart you dont deserve to shut yourself in a dark room" (random lady) & "hey princess work to be perfect" (c.g) & "you know, theres more than what you are feeling right now and there's more to you than depression" (leon) & "i love you and i hope all is well for you" (frankie) & "I don't want to sound insensitive from that, but I know that even after goodbyes, you will become stronger!" (w.l) & "Im so sorry about all of that and honestly youre not bothering me at all! I sincerely wish i could help more though" (m.b)
- april 14th: "you don't need fuck boy or w when you have me??? you're so cute and i'm extra cute and together we'd be the power couple of the century!! why would anyone ever want to be mean to you they'd have to deal w me" (q.t) & "you are super admirable and i’m so lucky to have even known you in this lifetime!! it’s okay to lose people even though it hurts, it toughens you up. you’re a warrior, kiddo. scars all over you but still standing. :^) i hope all goes well for you as well, you deserve the very best." (s.m) & "ur venus is leo BYE! ur ascendant is scorpio which is so so true i thought u were a scorpio AND SEX ALL THE TIME but you are a little baby cancer and that's cute!!! and of course everyone missed you HE WAS GOING TO PICK ON YOU AND then he saw your empty seat and he's like "oh she's not here...." (q.t)
- april 15th: "harry potter, really? you're a slytherin, i know it jen" (c.g) & "you listen to really cool music" (b.l) & "Its so great that you feel at peace and relieved. Youre a really strong person to be able to make it through all of this. i wish i could help more or be there with you" (m.b) & "the brain came up with the sistine chapel and all the wonders of the earth. your brain can do the same, you are capable of landing the mars rover on mars, you can shoot things into space because of your brain. it's not what they are doing, it's what we are doing." (e.b)
- april 16th: "dont self harm, you are so beautiful, and im proud of you no matter what, you are SO worth it and beautiful inside and out, please see that, you have to be confident!! i'm here for you, please don't hurt yourself" (anon) & "it isnt until you get out of high school that you realize how unimportant grades were. they dont define you" (anon)
- april 17th: "you dont need false eyelashes youre already beautiful" (n.m) & "THE WAY YOU FALL IN LOVE i can write a story about you jennifer. its fine. you were under stress and its kinda like the same thing when gorsage asks us about periods and we can't answer bc we're freaked out by the sudden question. in a week, is she going to remember this? that you can't divide a fraction by a fraction on the spot? does that make you worth any less? no, it doesn't. you are still a great person. jennifer jennifer jennifer i love you okay and i know how to spell your name i swear!! jENI NEFIEIRN S TO P YOU'RE SO NICE TO ME IT'S UNBELIEVABLE i wish you weren't so sad you deserve all the happiness in the world and if you can't love yourself, i will love you for you with all of my heart and my lungs and my veins and arteries and every fiber of my being okay. i don't ever want to see you in a hospital with an ugly hospital gown and iv tubes stuck up your nose and bandages wrapped all around your arms because i believe that you are much much better than that!! when we meet up in the future you're going to be a successful model/writer/psychologist and you're going to invite me to all your lavish reading/poetry jam sessions and we'll go to museums and aquariums and MOMA and we're going to be the two happiest people on earth okay!!! i love you more than sojin and thats saying something!!" (q.t)
- april 18th: "jennifer take the black one there are black calculators" (e.b) & "if you're trash can i take you out? your're the mvp in my heart even if you do trip over air it's okay" (q.t)
- april 19th: "ily jen i hope you're doing well at whatever you're doing right now and keep your chin up!! smile more and try to think positive. if theres anyone trying to bring you down, remember that whatever they say doesn't define you!! you're better than what they think. ily and i miss talking to you properly :( stay healthy & strong jenjen" (haz) & "yah u should be a psychologist bc ur deep afffff (its good)" (a.g)
- april 20th: "idk how d isn't in love with you you're so pretty i've been staring at you for a good two minutes now" (t.t) & "you're literally the skull emoji as well as the sparkle emoji like you're goth and glitter" (b.h) & "You are a great person and I wish for you to succeed in all of your endeavors. It is a pity we can't meet and I can't say this to you face to face, but I wanted you to know that I'm proud of you and one day hope you can gain your well deserved happiness. I hope some of my love can mend those cracks in your heart. You are great and lovely; please don't ever forget it. Fight on!" (anon) & "i can't believe that [you watched so many movies] omg you are living the life. i'd still like you irl you seem amazing. You wouldn't Be in those classes in the first place if you sucked at school. Jen you're amazing and I'm the exact same way with math" (c.b)
- april 21th: "its going to be okay i promise! as hard as it is to hear its gonna get easier okay? just hang in there, he's in heaven watching you" (savannah)
- april 22th: "honestly watching so many movies is a feat in itself and i think thats much more interesting than getting perfect grades. keep watching more movies." (j.n)
- april 23rd: "Also you seem very smart, like with your ap classes and how much you read you can't not be smart. Just talking to you I can tell you're not dumb haha. Aww that's sad, you're great and I hate that you feel inadequate because of someone else" (c.b)
- april 24th: "i'm so glad you're doing better! you deserve it. i'm so so so so proud of you for not self harming in a while, it makes me so happy that you're doing better." (s.m)
- april 25th: "i am proud of you for passing!!!" (a.g) & "you passed by three questions, i am proud of you kid" (c.g) & "who could miss you jenjen, you're absolutely adorable!! dont be so hard on yourself, youre so pretty now stop that!" (g)
- april 26th: "tbh i have this game and its really dumb but i made you like a character in it and you need to date someone so im making him a dancer" (k.c)
- april 27th: "you see this punk right here? she isnt sweet shes salty" (c.g) & "girl are you a library book because i'd check you out and never return you!! honestly i feel like it's such an honor to have you in my life.... idk why anyone would hate you like???? it astounds me that people would hate someone as amazing and genuine and beautiful as you idk that's just weird?? anal kicking and bean clits and assboobs that is literally our friendship summed up in a few words. accurate af though you are the biggest hoe i've ever met, next to me obv- shy asian girl externally, big booty hoe internally. WE'LL NEVER GO OUT OF STYLE JEN! aw thanks you're such a babe, jen you're so romantic kiss me already?? i swear when you're an aunt you're going to be the drunk vodka aunt with 3 cigarettes in each hand and a wad of cash rolling down your stomach as you recline on the leather loveseat" (q.t)
- april 28th: "I don't think you are stupid at all! Your teacher probabaly doesn't teach it well. Or you are just not good at math, but it doesnt mean you are stupid!!" (jun) & "Well 75% is a fine and safe place to be at, especially of your trying to raise you grade. I'm confident in you being able to bring it back!!" (c.b) & "i was literally talking abt hardcore sex with my friend and she got so freaked out from me and i'm like "???? this is normal with my friend jennifer idgi why are u scared of me"!! because trash associates with trash and ur better than any other boy out there honestly!! i just noticed that your eyes are really mesmerizing?? like i was just staring at you the whole time in apwh.. i think you're a great person overall.,, like it wouldn't matter if you were all sweet and bubbly and had the pale aesthetic, i would still love you just because you are jennifer le; the tall shy hoe book nerd beautiful work of art that you are" (q.t)
- april 29th: "youre like a baddie baddie on the outside but a goodie goodie on the inside i love it" (k.c)
- april 30th: "you are really smart, shut up! you'll make it into ocad and whatever you want" (v.l) & "you are extremely blessed to be born here and i am proud of you, but you must work hard in order to reach your potential" (grandma)
- may 1st: "i know its dark in here but i can still see you bc you're the light of my life" (t.t) & "high end paper, this is the paper that got to the point accurately and hit it on the nose. very concise and to the point. these are the a papers" (mrs a) & "good job on your paper, good girl!" (dad)
- may 2nd: "omg you are so cute it was so nice meeting you" (k)
- may 3rd: "post concert depression but it was worth it with you" (t.t)
- may 4th: "jen you are addicted to black just stop jen stop now" (c.g) & "also you'll most likely find someone, you're nice, funny, pretty, and smart! like it's almost unfair to have all those qualities" (c.b) & "tru homie af jen" (d.p)
- may 5th: "you're so cute you hide your scariness well" (ky) & "ok so she's scared of you and she tells me she tries to glare at you when she sees you but you glare back harder and it scares her a lot.. also after she first met you, she thought you were terrifying and she kept saying she wore a lot of black and her nails are black and all of her makeup is black and wow her hair is so black" (m.p)
- may 6th: "i told diego to stop hanging out with you because no one touches my jennifer!! no one bothers my princess, okay?? pft your blog is so black when i click on it, there'll be nothing on the screen. i think it's cold because of your cold heart. oh wait you don't have one and i can't ask any of your friends because you dont have any! just joking jen, i mean this with the utmost respect" (c.g) & "you're tiny but you can totally fight someone" (c.b)
- may 7th: "you're too cool for me jen, you and your music taste" (j.s) & "karen keeps trying to hide you and she keeps calling you rude which is so funny because that's literally just you and she says you look angry all the time it's hilarious she's terrified of you" (a.v) & "everyone is so anti-jennifer today i know i am" (c.g)
- may 8th: "Highkey needs you to stay alive and it does get better I s2g" (c.b)
- may 9th: "you are so gorgeous i mean really wow" (h.c)
- may 10th: "it is okay i really appreciate you so much" (??)
- may 11th: "what a sleeping beauty jen is" (c.g) & "i prob sound selfish rn but u mean a whole lot to me and i cant imagine u gone so plz dont do anything stupid" (t.t) & "your depression is extremely valid but its also something you can overcome. that does sound terrible but it doesnt make you as a person terrible" (c.b)
- may 12th: "he was looking at you like he really adores you like you're his child" (q.t) & "i really appreciate you and i dont think i can see a world without you" (m.n) & "damn you wear black from head to toe that's scary" (l.l) & "your eyebrows look really good" (b.l)
- may 13th: "don't doubt yourself and if you can't be a genius just bullshit it and believe in yourself" (k.v) and "lmao you ditching school? you're a nerd tho" (k.c)
- may 14th: "of course my princess would want the first wagon ride lmao" (c.g) & "god from your burrito eating skills you obviously suck at sucking dick" (d.p)
- may 15th: "i have never solved a sudoku in my life and you're a nerd thats on puzzle 30 wow" (c.g) & "you are like the greatest person i've ever met" (c.b)
- may 16th: "the best for the best, i like you a lot too princess" (haz) & "i don't look as good as you do in falsies" (c.n)
- may 17th: "i love you though and i adore you. used to have a crush on you just thought id share. you probably intimidate him pft, you are a pretty cool asshole. sleep well angel (k.c) & "I mean not to get too weird lol but I get what people see in you. I've said this before but you're a nice (sometimes) funny smart pretty person. That appeals to a lot of people. You're just you haha full of contradictions. It's no problem, you're just a really cool person that I'm glad I've met and it's sad you don't completely see yourself that way" (c.b)
- may 18th: "why are you glaring at me weirdo? you're so dark" (c.g) & "its okay i fucking love you and ill be by your side at every concert and through everything because i love you sooooo much hes not worth" (t.t) & "jennifers bookshelves are pretty cool she reads a lot wow" (a.g)
- may 19th: "the things you do and say make me feel so much for you" (t.t) & "thank you for being alive" (g.n)
- may 20th: "wow jennifer is the true champ like do you know how much work putting on false lashes is and she looks so good" (c.n) & "you look like the type of person that shouldn't be messed with" (a.v) & "most people think you are scary but now that i know you and talk to you you're really not" (t.v) & "what do you mean your concert what are you gonna sacrifice a goat?" (c.g) & "your mental health is much more important than that. also those are different people that have their own things. you are you and youre doing what you can do which is a lot. not having a mental breakdown is good. having clear aspirations and wanting to achieve a lot is a good thing but just remember to chill" (c.b) & "you're exceptional in my eyes" (k.c) & "it's not bad to not get an award because it doesnt matter, the people who do are so boring which you arent because you do cool shit" (b.l)
- may 21st: "thank you though you sweet angel ily" (ky)
- may 22nd: "you don't even drink red bull you just put on your eyeliner to fly" (s.d) & "your eyeliner is so on point and your eyebrows are so on point you are just on point" (q.t) & "welcome back princess we miss you. pft i'm just trying to be friendly and you look so mean" (c.g)
- may 23rd: "we are so gay wow aren't we everyone's relationship goals" (t.t) & "wow y'all scared my straight friends" (k.c)
- may 24th: "youre also better than most people i know irl, you are the greatest! you always have so much to talk about its awesome, i think thats what at least you interesting." (??)
- may 25th: "you probably made him even more crazier for you" (k.c) & "your blog aesthetic is on point and also i’m really glad that even though our conversations are so on and off we haven’t /completely/ lost touch" (anu)
- may 26th: "you know from freshman year to now everything abt her changed to black except her skin which got paler bc she doesnt go outside. the only time she goes outside is to go to concerts and theyre at night (j.n)
- may 27th: "you can never look stupid human; thank u human w the nice eyeliner skills" (a.g) & "you know whats good news?? thats youre alive and well and youre pushing thru bipolar disorder and depression, another thing is that i love you soooo much and ive noticed that youve been having mood swings and i just wanna let you kno that im here for you if you need anything and that ill never leave u bc im clingy af and ik you are too! please stay here forever bc i need someone to fangirl to me about fuck boys and matty like i know you have mood swings but i cant help but feel hurt af bc virgos are hella sensitive LOL but its okay because i love you and we r meant to be. and also i wanna say that dylan is a fuckboy and he makes you have moods swings idk if you noticed but :-( and you are so beautiful inside an out and i dont know how you cant see it!! you are such a cute lil nerd and you love books and films and you inspire me to watch more movies and read more bc i want to understand u, i want to understand what you love so we can love them together!! you r so great" (t.t)
- may 28th: "hey dude please stop cutting. dont cut anymore yeah? everyone in this table cares about you and shows great concern for you even if it may not seem like it, so dont cut!" (j.n) & "bad. bad. dont cut dude think about the last time you cut, do you still feel the same? probably not so remember this good feeling" (k.v)
- may 29th: "its cute how jennifer is wearing a shirt that says punch me in the throat while listening to a cute song" (k.b) & "chau says shes scared of you" (m.n) & "youre like the fish from nemo his name is scar..? youre scary but so nice hah" (a.v) & "YOURE SO WEIRD IVE MISSED THIS" (t.v)
- may 30th: "awesome! im proud of you, i wish you the best" (l.t)
- may 31st: "i dont want to clean you up because thats what makes you pretty" (k.c) & "i'm sure you dont need another pestering parent but i want you to be the best you can girl" (n.m)
- june 1st: "see you've only met like .02 of the entire world's population and there's so many more people out there as well as things so keep that in mind" (k.c)
- june 2nd: "you look so pretty today??" (t.v) & "you are jennifer le and i love you" (q.t)
- june 3rd: "i'm h and you're really pretty" (h.p) & "i value our friendship so much like sometimes i'm sad and then i'm like well at least i'm friends with jennifer le and that makes me slightly happy again" (q.t) & "thank you. honestly, talking to you makes me feel so much better bc no one ever understands anything and i'll be here to listen and try my best to help you bc i dont like the idea of you cutting either" (l.v)
- june 4th: "yes exactly!!! so please stay alive jennifer i need you here okay who else will i anal kick boys with?? IT WOULDN'T BE THE SAME YOU'RE JENNIFER THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, i'm more disappointed by the fact that i wasn't there for you when you needed somebody than the fact that you cut. and you're not a terrible person.. if you were, i wouldn't even bother talking to you pfft i only associate with the best, y'know. you are breathing and you are alive. its cliche as hella but the atoms that are inside you are the same atoms as the ones that make up the stars and you are very very much real. you're one of the most beautiful human beings i've ever gotten the honor to love and i'll repeat it to you for as long as it takes until those words are imprinted on the inside of your mind. another persons trash is anothers treasure?!?! and you are my treasure jen. but he still loved you before he lost his memories and i'm sure he loved you just as much after. you look like you're mean and can kick ass but you're actually the nicest person ever tbh" (q.t)
- june 5th: "dude you look like youre having a terrible day like youre more sad than usual are you ok do you need a hug" (k.c)
- june 6th: "i'm glad you're alive. i don't get why you wouldn't be on it either???? you're so funny and smart and amazing and it's their loss lmfao o well" (q.t) & "i dont think you're okay and you obviously aren't but that doesn't mean you can take it out on yourself. keep pushing, the people who love you will stay. im staying by you bc i love you, its not your fault. i dont want you dead, none of this shit is your fault. a chemical imbalance isnt your fault, its in your dna. although you did nothing to cause it you can try and not let it effect you. if you die you'll kill me do you understand? in that way, yes i love you. youre so beautiful and i think youre beautiful in your own way. you dont have to love me back but i care for you so irrationally and unconditonally so if you destroy yourself ill be destroyed too. i love and care about you and theres nothing you can do about it. im not gonna let you push me away. dont you think i wouldve been gone already, dont you know that ive already figured you out? ive made a decision to stay so im not leaving. im here to be your friend because im in it for you. i understand if youre scared but you dont understand that im here. you dont have to be scared, you really dont. our friendship is stable on my end, i havent let go." (k.c) & "but youre taking hard classes that half the school isnt doing so youre better than them" (l.t) & "i knew you were gonna send me your cactus stickers, i know you so well its scary" (t.t)
- june 7th: "your feelings are meaningful whether or not they come from a disorder. those are the sorts of things that won’t bother you in 10 years, maybe not even in 1 or 2. don’t equate what you consider shortcomings to who you are. please don’t do anything you’ll be out of the house for college in a short time and you won’t have to spend as much time with your family and you still have the rest of your life and i promise you that at some point you won’t just be surviving and trying to heal but you will never be able to reach that point if you give up." (a) & "I really do worry for you and I wasn't throwing it at your face i m just hoping that you will find something a way of dealing with the emotions in a way that isn't harming you. Not that I don't care about you but I don't even know what I should say jen, Ive told you to find another fucking outlet.How do you think I feel? I can't do shit for you and if I keep hearing that your cutting despite me trying to be of self I just feel ignored. I know it's not easy to just deal with it but its destructive and it'll end in self destruction, and I don't want that." (n.m) & "its not your fault you dont need to apolosgize for it.. jennifer im sory its hard to stop doing it but please dont hurt you rself please" (m.p) & "You're going to be a junior next year right?. That means there's just one more year after that. You've made it 15 years so I believe you can make the home stretch. It's sad hearing you have to go through this kind of thing. You really don't deserve it and it's frustrating. What your dad did is so messed up, I almost can't believe that wow. It's no problem, i mean every word" (c.b)
- june 8th: "i am really your friend. you know i would always pick up your calls even if its at 3 or 4. my gramma calls me but i dont pick up LOL BUT I PICK UP WHEN ITS YOU BECAUSE YOURE IMPORTANT TO ME AND YOU MATTER SO MUCH TO ME. u r not a waste of space or time bc u r perfect n cute n girly but emo as fuck and dark as hell sometimes and i love that about you bc ur different. u can do so much better jen you deserve sooooo much more, who needs d? AND U R A PIECE OF SHIT BUT UR MY PIECE OF SHIT" (t.t) & "looks like jane acts like daria" (a.v)
- june 9th: "i enjoy texting you in ways i dont really feel for a lot of people, you're an interesting and smart person, i like that" (c.b)
- june 10th: "it's no problem and its not like it makes you a bad person its just a bad manifestation of your mental illness" (c.b)
- june 11th: "i always round up grades for people who deserve it" (k.b) & "you dont like a lot of people do you?" (k.m) & "eyelashes on fire jen!!! she tries to be tmblr aesthetic so she tries to follow gods way aka you" (a.g)
- june 12th: "nice to meet you jennifer all you have to do is ask pretty baby" (r.g)
- june 13th: "spending ten hours with you was so bomb" (j.s)
- june 14th: "im sorry boo but youre better than that" (?)
- june 15th: "Its alright love you cant help it so dont let it make you feel bad about yourself because youre amazing!!!" (ma) & "thats real deep i hear you out!! be strong!! im in the same boat as you are" (anon)
- june 16th: "i know what you mean so dont feel down" (l.v) & "well whatever happens im here" (anon) & "as long as your doing things u like i think its time well spent. be proud of urself bc thats a big accomplishment still, ur surviving and thts amazing + good riddance to that fuvkboy" (b)
- june 17th: "you deserve the best ok. pls smile forever you deserve happiness. no self destruct or i will come down there" (l) & "have a little confidence you are fantastic" (c.b)
- june 18th: "going into psych sounds gr8 wanting to help people is an amazing trait and u can do it no matter how hurt you are! one day you’ll look back and be proud trust me(-:" (b)
- june 19th: "i do love you, boys can suck my ass" (c.n) & "one step at a time jen! so whatever you do in life, if your idea doesn't work out, try another one, keep trying" (y)
- june 20th: "everyone is an individual case. we prohibit ourselves too much. What's the point of youth or living of we keep hiding parts of ourselves. theres extremely shit days and then decent days. Hold onto small moments that made you feel life is alright haha thats what i do. just know that i am always rooting for you" (y)
- june 21st: "this sounds gay but i love you. im sorry im tipsy you're a good kid" (c.s)
- june 22nd: "but if you died there would be no one like you on earth and thts a really big loss (anon) & "stay strong love. make it two weeks then three. you can do it! just take it one day at a time. i know its hard but i believe in you" (v) & "gurl i totally feel you when you say no one is on your side…dont feel bad about yourself, its okay to feel betrayed dont hate yourself, and most of all, dont waste time hating on bitches that are unworthy of your grace. having a ‘good friend’ turn their back on you shouldn’t put you down: we’re living beings because we all matter and if one doesnt think you matter, then fuck them, there are better people out there. think of it this way, there are billions of people on earth, 2-3 rats is nothing - dont waste your time on fucktards that dont give no shits about how you feel, you of all people deserve better!!! perhaps closing yourself off for a few days may even help, try meditation (?) idk….but i’m always here and i always have time. but yes gurl you need to sleep, listen to music, dream happy things, never hate yourself youre only human. yeah i think a break from everything is best hmmm to gather your thoughts, re-evaluate your life and friends and yeahh delete shit from your life that is keeping you down! no worries man i suck at making people feel better!!" (j)
- june 23rd: "dont cut yourself its not worth it" (anon)
- june 24th: "killing yourself isnt an act of bravery jen. its the easy way out.the people who really love you will always find a way back to you. what if theyre just not meant to be with you?? that theyre life lessons and you should just avoid trashy people like them.but the part abt wanting to have bpd pisses me off like??? shes just a grade a binch.stop talking to her, delete her off, she's an ugly hoe n you can do better." (q.t)
- june 25th: DON'T JUMP OFF ANY ROOFS!!! your eyeliner may have wings but you can't fly okay and i still need you alive!! if youre not alive how can you experience any more chipotle dates with me huh?? theres so much to do that you havent done yet. just stay alive for a little longer baby okay and i mean like 100 years longer. its okay, you can ask me for attention and i'll give you it, free of charge!!" (q.t)
- june 26th: "I think about you a lot more than you think I do and I really miss you and I know I suck because I do anything and I hope you can forgive me. hopefully you still consider me a friend even though I'm a really shitty one. I really have no excuse I realize that I can't be so busy to not talk to you" (s.m)
- june 27th: "i actually rly miss u and ur hugs :-(( life is constantly boring w/o ur nervous laughter over me complimenting you. i rly hope u can find something out there that can keep you clean for the rest of your life jen bc you deserve it so much. u r a wonderful human bean and i hope u realize u mean so much 2 me! i will never leave you :-// jen realize that i love you a lot and ofc imma think highly of you, ur one of my favorite ppl on earth :-)) and im pretty sure it will happen jen ^__^ ya just gotta let time play out !!" (t.t)
- june 28th: "ur pretty cool AND FK DYLAN not even fking worth just think jen, in 5 yrs he wont matter!! i will get u a buttplug on ur 18th bday. dude cactuses r so u bc they r dangerous on the outside but mushy on the inside. so i am concluding that im talking to a cactus rn. (t.t)
- june 29th: "night market? wowow, it sounds like you have so much fun now my life is so boring compared to yours hahaha" (s. m)
- june 30th: "you might never be fully mentally stable but that doesn't mean everything is hopeless for you" (m.k)
- july 1st: "yes you will graduate i believe in you" (l.t)
- july 2nd: "you can be 100% in or out. just like with a lot of things nothing can be 100% guaranteed you know. like you can become an architect but people might not like your style or whatever you know. it's what you like. start meaning more to yourself vs. trying to mean more to people who don't care. wow social life wowza good 4 you fam" (k.c)
- july 3rd: "you're doing really well i see a lot of improvement, you'll do well in the future" (l)
- july 4th: "you're a cactus but they have needles for defense!! you deserve to hear cute things" (l)
- july 5th: "Omg no you are a strong individual and I could be wrong but you don't seem lazy you just seem like you have trouble with motivation?" (c.b)
- july 6th: "i like watching movies with you you're cool" (b.l) & "you are not boring!!!" (m.k) & "your selfies are bomb i'd reblog them all 100 times each if i could ;-) also fuck ap scores!!!!! you studied your ass off for it!!! n if you didnt get the score you did't want ap scores dont change your value as a person and they dont define who you are! you did your best and you should be proud of yrself. like damn let alone take ap classes too and passing them hey! dan ma gets high scores bc he has no life and hes literally a 2d character! you have so much on you and youre both tryna handle all of these things at one time and you still managed to get thru exams!! so fuck it!!!! proud of you either way" (q.t)
- july 7th: "dont compare yrself to trash, he is shit! you caught me... god actually sent me down here as your guardian angel" (q.t) & "my jen jen, baby, you are the cutest cutie pie to ever exist and you cannot fight me on this :___) i miss you!!" (g) & "I LUH YOUUUUOWOWO" (haz)
- july 8th: "you look cute have a good night cya" (??) & "YOUR BDAY IS TOMORROW AND WE ARE GOING TO BE SKYPING AND I WILL GET TO HEAR ALL ABOUT HOW’VE YOU BEEN AND WOW IM SO FUCKING EXCITED more dick stories please and thank you wink wonk you’re so old wow (our bdays are kinda close nice we are meant to be) you have a wonderful blog, i love it to bits,,,, i look forward to seeing you on my dash~ i especially love your band and quotes reblogs, they’re all so beautiful and ahhh and your music taste and TV SHOW AND MOVIE PREFERENCES ARE ABSOLUTELY FLAWLESS MARRY ME RN (all i wish for in life is that you bby be happy and content with your life, i hate seeing you upset and down because you deserve to live a happy life full of non idiotic peers who make you feel less of what you are!!! please remember how much u mean to me and this world okay I LOVE YOU!)" (g) & " I love you too. xx" (j) & "I love bookworms! Sweet, intelligent individuals with a zeal for learning, reading, and dispensing knowledge are my weakness!" (twt) & "of course i remember, you're my princess" (h) & "ur makeup game is killin it jfc good job" (t.d) & "Today my son turns 16, and like every dad I was freaking out cause I was sure it was today but I was so scared to be wrong. you're 16 in Chicago already, happy birthday! I'm sorry I can't do much for you but I really really care for you!" (n.m) & "I’m not sure where to start but you’re a cool person and I’m glad I’ve met you. You’re someone who likes movies as much as me but like books even more than me which is so nice to see and you know how to keep a text conversation going unlike a lot of people (Including me tbh). Also text me whatever time about whatever; It’s the opposite of a problem for me lol If I’m up late I’d want to talk to someone. Oh and be more comfortable with yourself, you’re super hardcore and you will do so many amazing things in your life! It’s July 9th here in Virginia so happy birthday you big nerd! I hope you like my gift and have a great day" (c.b)
- july 9th: "Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! <3 im so glad i met you and thanks for being here for me :) for letting me vent to you and just listening to the annoying things I have to say sometimes. Thanks for being an awesome friend and I love you lots!!! I hope you enjoy your bday" (l.v) & "my son deserves so much" (n.m) & "also happy birthday little jenjen!!!" (s.m) & "happy birthday jennitals~ miss ya and your thick eyeliner + falsies" (c.n) & "HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU PRECIOUS ANGEL I LOVE YOU SOSOSO MUCH HAVE A FANTASTIC DAY I MISS YOU AND YOUR FANTASTIC EYELINER" (ky) & "HAPPY SWEET 16 MY BABY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AMAZING BIRTHDAY (AND YEAR) BC U DESERVE THE BEST" (mae) & "happy birthday @jenjenjpg!! life is a piece of shit BUT you made it thru 16 yrs & im so grateful for that!! i love you times a million!!! i dont think i tell you i love you enough... yr an important person to me & id be so sad if s/t bad were to ever happen to you. so i hope today (n every other day) everything goes your way bc you deserve happiness and nice things, like yr own noah shaw!! you'll go on to do great things, i just know it. i love you so so so incredibly much my angel!!!" (q.t) & "HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOO I LOVE U SO MUCH AND I HOPE U HAVE A RAD ASF DAY BC U DESERVE ALL THE HAPPINESS YOU CAN GET. you're so happy its cute" (t.t) & "i think its pretty cool that you read that much not sad at all" (m.k)
- july 10th: "you are america captain!!!" (father) & "i'm sure you definitely made your grandpa proud! congrats, im proud. alsO HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENJEN MY GLORIOUS CUPCAKE PARTY HARD " (anu) & "wow i didnt know you had the courage to do so good job" (t.t) & "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAUGHTER!!!! SHE'S TURNING 12 TODAY!!!!!!!!!" (m) & "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILYSM HAHA UR SO FUNNY AND I LUV IT WHEN WE TALK I HOPE U HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAY AND U HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SOUL" (a.g) & "i love how you keep track that number is amazing be glad!! you are the realest film hoe of them all" (c.b)
- july 11th: "I wish you many more birthdays to come (((: I hope ur life is going great n that ur taking good care of urself !! xx yourself is the one u should be thanking b !!! u put in the work n now u have the results !!! also wow that's really wonderful to hear!! I'm glad I can say the same about myself too!! let's keep it upppp" (p)
- july 12th: "keep trying to stay focused on something like ur photoshop stuff or reading even if its not enough jus something to keep u busy, jus as long as it takes ur mind off of things even if its only for a lil bit. oh no babe !!! are you taking proper care of your wounds?? please make sure you keep them clean n covered, I'm v sure I know jus how ur feeling since I've been through it myself too many times, it doesn't mean you can't get back to where u were before tho n I'm here to support u 100%" (p)
- july 13th: "you're so cute i love you sm" (t.t)
- july 14th: "screams im excited to hug u sm. and no thats one of the reasons why i luv u. i just wanna see u n luv you with all my heart bc i miss you (t.t)
- july 15th: "me and jen have friendship bracelets but not regular ones, sherlock & watson ones ;-) 11:11 more dates with jen hey that is not average. ur welcome dude we should do this more often! yeah it really isnt but as long as youre feeling okay and happy most of the time by doing something you love then thats good. bc i rly dont know you know? and im trying really hard to help so if i offend you in any way i rly dont mean it and i apologize b4 hand. ive never experienced this before so im trying really hard to understand where youre coming from and im sorry if i come off ignorant. well maybe you can find something that makes you feel better long term idk what to say bc i dont know what can make u happy for a long time. it's not your fault" (t.t)
- july 16th: "yoU R so adorable wish you lived here we would be inseparable" (s.m) * "Y OU TRASHY WHITE MAN LOVING FUCK!! bc avg americans are gross n ugly n unappealing n ur the opposite" (q.t)
- july 17th: "you mean so much to me you dumbass" (t.t)
- july 18th: "satan was prob like ah yes jennifer and quynhanh theyre perfect for each other" (q.t)
- july 19th: "I think she's just defending the culture because some people don't respect it?? Pretty sure she doesn't have bad intentions" (c.l) & "when someone at school is a quiet af BUT ONLINE THEYRE A TRENDY FAMOUS LITTLE SHIT OMFG" (?)
- july 20th: "had the best time of my life with you ya shit" (t)
- july 21st: "you literally have a drawing of you on ig im so jealous? jen im your number one fan" (d.p) & "jen youre my fav blog and a bottom bitch" (q.t)
- july 22nd: "im sorry for not being there when i needed you, please reply asap so i know you're okay" (p)
- july 23rd: "you could be like soso! you're cute and small and asian and gay" (c.b)
- july 24th: "happy late birthday, hopefully you'll be happier this year" (m.p)
- july 25th: "its okay to be not okay with talking to other people" (m.k)
- july 26th: "nah you're really interesting" (j.p)
- july 27th: "did you get ravenclaw because youre really smart" (b.l)
- july 28th: "i think you should be doing film work because you'd be really good at it, major in film please" (m.k)
- july 29th: "i know how it feels but don't feel that way. you'll find the right person thatll take care of you and make you feel happy, you just need to wait my friend" (anon)
- july 30th: "you do look like sulli though like legit i was like holy shit is she a sulli doppelganger??" (h)
- july 31st: "I miss you and your funny remarks like you would cuss and it would just make me smile lmao. SUPER FREAKNG PROUD OF YOU JEN!! Be proud of what you like, never be ashamed!! If those are the things you enjoy, then enjoy the heck out of them. Turn them into careers. Make the best out of you! (l.n)
- august 1st: "im just a noodle you are actually amazing and pretty and all around great" (l) & "please don't cut anymore. i cant imagine seeing you cut yourself because it just hurts just thinking that you do. i just want to be corny and say that im very thankful that you have not given up and that you are here at this point in time. i am thankful that i got to become your friend. i think you are a wonderful person don't ever stop believing in yourself" (j) & "im real and my love for you is very real" (s.m)
- august 2nd: "oh my god lol JENNAWEENIEEEE. the lord blessed me with you a very long time ago. thanks for showing me perks i say this every time but that movie is my everything and i have no one other than you to thank for that. idk what the fuck goes on in your mind half the time because you’re crazy but it’s okay i still love you anyways, i think you also got me into american horror story wow you’re pretty awesome to actually get me to watch shit. anways, we need to catch up i miss you dork. i love you" (s.h)
- august 3rd: "u made a huge ass impact on my life & i dont think u realize that jen" (t.t)
- august 4th: "here you go sweetie" (CHRISTOFER FUCKING DREW)
- august 5th: "after seeing your ppst abt film geeks it made me want to watch all the classics i haven't seen with you. i was thinking in person, like having popcorn together, aome real father&son moments" (n.m)
- august 6th: "I miss you:( i used to be your secret santa" (??) & "jjenjen i loveyou ok i will be your new dad hello my child i am your new dad and i care abou tyou very much okay" (l) & "babe you have two more years work hard and study your ass off and get into a college far away from your shitty dad hes a piece of shit oh my god what kind of parent" (q.t) & "never think that if you have too much good stuff that something bad will inevitably happen. things happen because timing is always off. you deserve to be happy, be in school for you so you can be independent of yourself. hugs you tightly!! its hard to get to the top but that doesnt mean you cant get there and dont think there is anything wrong with not being at the top. you really are like my kid and i love you to bits. but also make sure to relax i wouldnt want you to get sick from too much stress or something of the sort. im sorry you cant go i know you like them a lot" (n.m) & "thats good hold on to that just do your best to graduate and you can have your life back and you dont have to put up with his shit anymore" (h)
- august 7th: "stay strong qt. love you always jen. i wish i was there with you so i could at least do something. i’m only able to wish you for the best !!!! love you jenjen! :(((((( im so sad reading this like jen you deserve so much better than this i swear to god….. i feel so useless right now ugh. i hope you’ll be fine…. pls try to be fine" (haz)
- august 8th: "have a good day and thank you for keeping this blog in such great quality like we knew you would" (j)
- august 9th: "jennifer: curly hair, the color black, tea cups, ball gowns, foreplay, skiing on a mountain, oriental food" (b)
- august 10th: "dude you are totally material for a sitcom. i was having a conversation a few weeks ago with a friend about how some people are extras, supporting cast, or the main characters in their own lives. you are a main character type of person. lmao but with your description "a little asexual asian" i imagined a little chinese lady hanging out with cats" (c.b)
- august 11th: "that's good. you're doing what takes most people awhile to learn how to do and thats preparation enough for anything" (anon)
- august 12th: "breathe homegirl i am in the same position as you. just breath. sometimes you just gotta push yourself and be okay with no resting no matter how tired you are. but remember its all temporary! make the best out of everything, good luck!" (anon)
- august 13th: "good for you for joining it, i wish you all the luck my love and i know you’ll do great regardless of the circumstances, you’re a tough and smart cookie im sure you will get through it!! don tyou worry about me ok, i will always be here when you get back so dont stress about talking 24/7, i know youre there and im always here love you loads" (g)
- august 14th: "when i first met you i thought you were really cool and i was kind of intimidated? i mean you are still really cool now" (n.h)
- august 15th: "you don't even need to prove them wrong. just do what makes you happy because that's all that matters. you can do this and i believe in you" (n.m)
- august 16th: "bc it sounds terrible :( if you need to talk i'm here! take care" (t)
- august 17th: "i'm really sorry you're going through this, i'm sorry i stopped sending letters and i'm here if you ever want to talk about it. i’m sorry you’re going through something very difficult. just do the best you can" (a)
- august 18th: "Your parents are being so gross. You are the opposite of a failure if anything, you work so hard, you got into ocad and you're studying so much wtf??" (c.b) & "you know so many cool movies" (k.l) & "idc whoever says what but i know for sure that you are not a failure" (b.h) & "ummm live for me the fuck???" (t.d)
- august 19th: "I just want to say that I'm a firm believer in you; you're a fighter, and I promise all that fighting you've done will pay off in the end. Please don't think this is it for your life; there is a way out and you'll find it! Please, please, please don't do anything to hurt yourself. I feel so powerless that I can't do anything else for you, but I'm here to give you my words. The road is long and dreary, and it hurts, but the outcome, that happiness, will be worth it. You can definitely do it." (anon)
- august 20th: "youre mulan because mulan is literally so fierce" (c.l)
- august 21st: "no i need your support in my life so you gotta live" (a.g)
- august 22nd: "i don't reblog girls often but she is my favorite and i love her and she is mine, i'll always reblog your selfies jenjen" (j.c)
- august 23rd: "it's okay. good come to me and just vent your head out if you need to. i promise i don't mind. like all the things they don't like about you, i find that they're good things. you being a vegetarian, you being in ocad, and studying. you shouldn't be feeling like a failure" (l.v)
- august 24th: "jen you're so fun, i'm no fun, i cry. you've seen so many bands?? you're different but the good tangible different" (c.l)
- august 25th: "babe you have two more years work hard and study your ass of and get into a college far away from whats making you sad" (q.t)
- august 26th: "well you're my sunshine it'd be horrible if something happened to you" (n.m)
- august 27th: "it seems like a lot of work but i believe you can do it and that's the kind of stuff that looks great. but also you've been working hard on getting to ocad, don't give up" (c.b)
- august 28th: "honestly a lot of people in your position feel bad and guilty, it's the natural response. so don't feel bad for feeling bad either, it makes sense but i want you to know this isn't your fault" (c.b)
- august 29th: "i'm really happy that you're having fun in there. specially because you were kinda worried about your team" (n.m)
- august 30th: "at one point or another we all sometimes want to die, no matter the situation. but we have to realize life isn't easy but it can be beautiful. you and i are fortunate to be here living! stay strong! but if this is something you truly feel please don't, people love you and would die to see you go" (anon)
- august 31st: "how can it get better than what you said, i thought you sounded pretty intelligent" (c.l)& "holy crap your classes. can i have your brains? good luck!" (c.n)
- september 1st: "i like your sort of writing voice is the best way to put it" (c.b) & "ur cute i hope your day was bangin" (a)
- september 2nd: "you look like a determined child more than depressed" (t.t and b.h)
- september 3rd: "you look so cute with those eyelashes jennifer" (t.g) & "everyone loved your project you're literally the devil" (a.v)
- september 4th: "i noticed it but really? im glad that you're feeling much better. you're a wonderful girl who has a promising future ahead of her. you just need to grab it and make it yours" (b.n)
- september 5th: "you'd be wearing black sweats and black college jacket holding textbooks while blasting music. you heard it here folks, jennifer is god and is famous." (b.n) & "you are a qt dandelion; fashionable, bold dandelion (c.l)
- september 6th: "jen teach me how to selfie holy poop both of them are flawless" (k.l) & "you're always beautiful the way you are" (b.n) & "you just gotta trust yourself honestly" (a)
- september 7th: "cancel out negative thoughts with loving ones. you can do it. empower yourself and get to fully living this blessing we call life" (c.d)
- september 8th: "you're not dumb, you're so smart like i'm jealous. you are an intelligent person both sarcastically and literally. let loose" (b.n)
- september 9th: "the tests were fair and you're doing so well don't worry" (c.l)
- september 10th: "i'm sorry you feel like that. remember that things always turn out better in the end because it's true, they do. i'm very proud of you for that. just know that if you ever feel bad you can come to me and i'll try my best to help" (a)
- september 11th: "no i believe in you!! you're catching up really well. your score beat everyone!!" (k.l)
- september 12th: "jen: is always really smart" (c.b)
- september 13th: "he doesn't understand vintage things the way you do. you're so hip i wish i can be like you" (b.n) & "you are such a determined little turtle i love you" (t.t)
- september 14th: "your well being and happiness always has to be your number one priority. i know that having this much work can be tiring but at least try to make time for yourself." (a)
- september 15th: "hey sweet girl. that's depression, that's depression in the rawest and truest form and it sucks. there's not a thing we can do about it except try to stay positive. i'm so sorry you're dealing with it, it really really sucks" (a)
- september 16th: "Your opinions are very hard to change. You stick to your thoughts" (p.d) & "your sister won't be as great as you huh kiddo? it's nice to see that you're doing well. i remember you, you must be doing good" (j.a) & "you're in the academic decathlon? that's great! it was nice seeing you again" (mr.g) & "math isn't hard, life is hard. i remember you from the first class i ever taught here" (mr.s)
- september 17th": "you're pretty today, you're absolutely gorgeous" (p.d) & "you read a whole ton i guess that's why you're so smart" (k.h)
- september 18th: "you're so hot christin's phone overheated when we skyped" (s.t) "you don't need to change yourself" (n.h)
- september 19th: "i want to visit your bookshelves you read so much and that's interesting" (a.v)
- september 20th: "you literally wrote everything about everything how did you do that" (c.a) and "despite your insecurities, you still try your hardest to make people happy and you always try to put up a happy front and i think that is admirable" (s.t)
- september 21st: "she's a great friend and will succeed in everything in the future but it's just her parents. she may sound negative but really she'll be the most positive person in your life and when she talks about her sexuality, she's serious about it" (b.n)
- september 22nd: "you work hard don't you?" (l) & "i've never met anyone like you because you are unique" (s.t)
- september 23rd: "well you can't get along with everyone. there's nothing wrong with being a vegetarian" (a) & "i'm glad you're still living though" (c.b)
- september 24th: "it's stressing you out so just please try and balance it all out. you are very very welcome" (a) & "i hope your day is great and you are beautiful i love you friend" (c.m)
- september 25th: "you look so pale and tired you honestly look like you are about to collapse, get some sugar and caffeine in you and i don't say this to just anyone" (e.l)
- september 26th: "at least when he was clingy with you it was cute because you two are so alike and it is the cutest" (l.t)
- september 27th: "honestly how are you so on top of things and in ocad, like that's amazing, i wish i could be like you" (c.a)
- september 28th: "aw jennifer you look amazing!!" (t.g) & "he was just caring for you like we all do for you" (n.h) & "baby i know it sucks. it does. but you can do it" (a)
- september 29th: "you aren't telling me so i can fix your problem. you're telling me because it hurts and it bothers you. and that's okay. sometimes the only solutions come from venting and listening. there is no such thing as an easy solution to this type of problem and i wish i could help you. everything is going to be okay. one test isn't going to kill you, alright? you will be fine" (a)
- september 30th: "I CARE JEN IM HERE FOR YOU SO HARD I AM HERE AND I LITERALLY WANT TO HELP YOU THOUGH EVERYTHING SO HARD I LOVE YOU" (a) & "i'm sorry to hear that. i'm sorry that you have to go through it, i wish you didn't" (n)
- october 1st: "we all had to agree to letting a new member onto the team so we all care for you now, you're with us. we've said no to others before, you're like our little cactus of the team" (c.l)
- october 2nd: "thank you so much jen, i almost forgot how grateful i was to have you from all this space between us" (s.m) & "you go to concerts, you struggle yet you're doing fine, you stride for greatness, you can succeed, how is that not interesting" (b.n)
- october 3rd: "i could never see you giving up reading for anything lol" (c.b) & "you are so dedicated and cool?? you are so smart and your time management skills must be awesome" (a)
- october 4th: "if you win it'll be worth it, i'm rooting against my own school 100% you are steve, post serum jen now!" (c.b) & "but you can't die, there's a purpose for your existence" (p.d)
- october 5th: "watching 130 movies takes a lot of productivity and dedication so that's something in my book lmao and yeah you are such a cool unique person" (c.b)
- october 6th: "you are so dark i love it keep being this way" (d.a)
- october 7th: "oh you're in ocad? you must be working your little butt off, you can do this jen!" (t.g)
- october 8th: "jen, you are so easy to talk to and you make the world be okay. you make things okay because you're jenjen. you're the person that makes us understand that life sucks and its okay" (n.h)
- october 9th: "it's like they say, the most depressed people have the biggest smile on their face and that's jen" (s.t)
- october 10th: "don't put off your homework jen. drink lots of water. remind yourself that you can do whatever you're doing. i love you tons." (a.h)
- october 11th: "i feel like you're good at everything. bryn and i always talk about how smart and pretty you are like how bye" (m)
- october 12th: "red lipstick looks really nice on you, i can't pull that off" (l.v)
- october 13th: "ily you're amazing. you don't deserve a tenth of the amount of stress you have. i definitely believe in you, you're so bright" (c.b)
- october 14th: "no you're always super supportive of me when i need you to be so thank you. don't stress out, it's because you're quieter than usual. just don't be afraid to smile." (a.h)
- october 15th: "i think that's so admirable how you're so open with your mental health issues. i wish i could be like that, but it's really hard for me but it must have been so hard for you" (s.t)
- october 16th: "i'm so glad you're comfortable with him omg and he looks at you really lovingly im like same peter.... but honestly you look so terrifying and powerful like no joke before we started talking i see you in the halls or walking and im like NICE?? like you scream aesthetic and then i see you like laughing with your ocad people and im like awh!! so ur basically queen tbh. omg i'm always here so talk to me any time online or irl if you wanna talk or need someone to listen okay?? its honestly so funny seeing you together because he's heart eyes for you and you look slightly done but fond im like awh" (a.v)
- october 17th: "it just works with the aesthetic of my mental picture of you. it's like dark clothes/dark jeans or a skirt/winged eyeliner and eye bags just sort of work with it. just doing so is great and i know you'll do amazing because thats the kind of person you are" (c.b)
- october 18th: "i care about you jen and i'm so glad you did thank you so much for surviving, i know you'll live even more than you survive. and don't feel guilty. that's fine??? you're still improving like holy shit getting out of bed and now speaking like that?? i'm so proud jen you are unfolding in the most beautiful way possible and people are starting to see the universe inside you like wow?????? now you're more open and honest and you're just gonna keep getting better and i'm so happy jenjen omg? and you mean so much to me too like i cant even??? describe it in words omg" (a.v)
- october 19th: "and your mix of aesthetics is an aesthetic itself its like my goals the jen aesthetic like N I C E but i think you're genuine it's in your eyes you feel with your heart and soul and you don't bullshit" (a.v)
- october 20th: "you look better in peter's clothes better than he does. you're so fun to be around honestly and you're so funny stop" (n.h)
- october 21st: "it just means you're a wonderful person because you chose to be kind to those you care about" (c.l) & "you're an easy person to be nice to. you're just so cool, you deserve a lot more. and by cool i meant like smart, interesting, nice, funny, unique, woke, strong" (c.b)
- october 22nd: "like do you still dislike me what do i do and i see you with your fire makeup and your outfits are cute af!! i'm praying for you jfc you can do this but don't sacrifice your health. you were so cute i'm crying i was like she hs nice eyes but she's scary??? my life moment was when you were like "ur ok i guess" (a.v)
- october 23rd: "i'm so proud of you for not acting upon it, and if you do, it's not your fault. there will be slips but i just hope to god you're okay in the end and there's so many more happy moments and less super bad moments of depression and i'm so happy that i can help you and you have things that make you happy and think twice about stupid things. i love your passion and honestly there is so much life and love and vitalit to you, there's no way you were mean to be anything less than the best and you already are jen and you're still improving too" (a.v)
- october 24th: "you're just a person but what a wonderful person you are honestly?? the world is so lucky to have you can you imagine how lucky your loved ones are to have you? like wow! and i'll always want to talk to you too" (a.v)
- october 25th: "you're the most passionate person i know but to talk to you, you need to know so many things" (p.d) & "honestly you are so so wise beyond your years and your knowledge now, they'll take years to catch up. omg that's just you and i love you!! you're so interesting like just looking at you im like :0!" (a.v)
- october 26th: "whoa your grades are my grade goals. i constantly am worried about you because i know school is overwhelming for you with your ap classes and that decathlon thing.i believe you can get straight a's you are so smart and capable of anything you set your mind to and you work so hard i know you can do this" (a)
- october 27th: "you're honestly so cool and interesting" (c.b) & "you study every night you're allowed to take a break. honey you work too hard, it is okay to chill" (a)
- october 28th: "you're not fragile at all omg like i wanna protect you at all costs but i know you'll destroy whatever challenge comes your way. you're a life ruiner and the cutest" (a.v)
- october 29th: "IT'S SO NICE TO MEET YOU I'M SO GLAD YOU SAID THIS TO ME" (JESSE FUCKING RUTHERFORD)
- october 30th: "you are art. that's what your makeup is, your paint. you are a canvas" (j.s)
- october 31st: "nah you're pretty deep and that's what you think but i see so much more like wow your eyes are so kind and sad and im like no"??? and your voice changes depending on the topic and when your mental illness hits really hard your aura changes and im like omg jen?? but you're so beautiful and interesting tbh (a.v)
- november 1st: "Youre good at managing and youre basically this cockroach that cant be killed by anything so it makes sense" (a.v)
- november 2nd: "i was having a bad morning and i heard you screaming fuck in the hallway and that literally made my day i love you" (l.n)
- november 3rd: "side note: it's amazing how youre really radical about these matters i've never seen someone so passionate" (p.d)
- november 4th: "you are super bright and any college would be lucky to have you in my opinion" (c.b)
- november 5th: "i believe in your and i'm praying for your mental and physical health tbh. i love your passion so much like i haven't heard you speak irl about this yet but what you say on twitter is so poignant and i love it and i feel all the passion and you do it all while being so kinda and cute i love it. IM CRYIN i think i was scared of you at first" (a.v)
- november 6th: "you can do his i promise!!! i know you'll end up well and i'm praying you do you deserve the best tbh" (a.v)
- november 7th: "you only seem like siblings but he highkey looks at you with love in his eyes when you aren't looking (a.v)
- november 8th: "please live i'm so glad but its okay to be sad its not your fault jen but know that you have people that care and love you including me!!! its cute how you guys dont know how to express feelings so you just hit each other" (a.v)
- november 9th: "i know how you feel and its a long way to go but youve made it so far already keep going okay? youll reach that place soon but dont give up and keep working hard im so proud but remember to take a break sometimes too!!" (a.v)
- november 10th: "you're the best thing that's happened to so many people tbh. i'm serious like youre such a gift and you deserve the universe but sometimes the earth doesnt deserve you because youre so great? like wow im so happy that i met you" (a.v)
- november 11th: "you're still you no matter what but i just hope you have more happy moments and if youre arent used to happiness i hope you feel confused yet at peace but i know everything will be worth it for you thank you for being alive honestly like i know there will always be your depression but i hope you stop getting usec to it" (a.v)
- november 12th: "like sometimes i'm really worried about your health and how """ok"""" you're handling all this ???? like one day i'm going to push you into a nice room with a nice warm bed and make you sleep for like 5 years just to make up for this like holy shit? i love you a lot jennifer sometimes i don't tell you that enough. but what constitutes as terrible??? you're a wonderful person in my eyes" (q.t) & "no it doesnt matter that you joined late you took initiative and asked" (s.t)
apr 2 2015 ∞
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