• Eirene (Ειρήνη/イリニ).
• she/her
• INFP-T
• Rosedreams.net or eirene.site

I'm the girl that maybe in another life you could have loved.

I am:

• Rose petals on a river.
• A dandelion wish.
• A darkwave song; a sad one, always a sad one.
• A butterfly who just ripped her cocoon.
• Made of roses, sadness and moonlight

This isn't a fairytale. I fell through the rabbit hole, straight through thick, endless darkness to a place of ashes. I'm not Alice. Just another sad girl drinking the poison the doctors offer me; searching for keys to doors nailed shut. Too many pills, too many tea-parties crushed. I'm not Alice, but we are all mad here, anyway.

It took fifteen stitches just to smile again. A permanent smile. A fake smile. They said “the past is in the past”, but what about the storm that never calms? What about the pain that never dulls? What about us?

• "Other times, I look at my scars and see something else: a girl who was trying to cope with something horrible that she should never have had to live through at all." - Cheryl Rainfield
• "Unrequited love is a terrible thing." - Patrick Jane (The Mentalist)
• "We couldn't imagine the emptiness of a creature who put a razor to her wrists and opened her veins, the emptiness and the calm." ― Jeffrey Eugenides, The Virgin Suicides
• "I am crying over the loss of something I never had. How ridiculous. Mourning something that never was – my dashed hopes, dashed dreams, and my soured expectations." - E.L. James
• "Love is a terrifying thing. It’s not safe. Because when you love someone, you have to face the fact that you could lose them." - Suits

• "I'm damaged / But somehow I've managed / This far" - Damaged, Assemblage 23
• “You’ll never know / How I feel deep inside / You’ll never know the pain” - You’ll Never Know, Legacy Of Music
• “And if I show you my dark side / Will you still hold me tonight?” - The Final Cut, Pink Floyd
• "I think I saw you in my dreams, you were stitching up the seams on every broken promise that your body couldn't keep." - La dispute, Such small hands

• Law and Order SVU: Rafael Barba's Speech - Enough is Enough...

"Don't say something next time. Say something NOW!"

• NO MORE excuses.
• Raul Esparza and Peter Scanavino - Domes...
• Raul Esparza - Consent

• Things I collect
  • Sad, beautiful things
  • Daydreams
  • Love letters from doomed lovers
• Used to collect
  • Sea Shells
  • Comic Books
  • Napkins
  • Pens
  • Concert tickets
  • Raven & swan feathers

• Poetry
• Mystery
• Fantasy
• Biography & Memoirs

• Stormy seas
• The darkest sky
• The distance between us
• Lost/lonely people
• Old memories
• Torn books
• Knowing that everything ends
• Caged animals

• Rose petals
• Night escapes
• Blutengel
• Coffee
• Futurepop
• Theatre
• Writing
• Secret gardens
• Aerial dancing
• Vanilla
• Pastel colours
• Dandelion wishes
• Filled notebooks
• Bookshops
• Butterflies
• Beltane
• Starlit whispers
• Bloomed trees/flowers
• Peach ice-tea
• Dreamcatchers
• Digital Culture / WebCoding

• Toffee nut lattes
• Cinnamon
• Homemade lemon juice
• Apples, Oranges, Peaches, Mangoes
• Almond milk
• Peach iced tea
• Vanilla Crème brûlée
• Chocolate chip cookies

• Immortal boss
• Existentialism
• Sex
• More sex
• Jack having sex with everyone and everything
• Jack having sex with Ianto
• Naked hide and seek
• Weapons
• Alien tech
• Retcon
• Did I say sex?

• rosedreams.net (always open ~ opened August 2002)
• eirene.photography and eirene.site (Autumn 2022)
• winter-flower.net (June 2004-2008)
• burning-rose.net (2004-2008) reclaimed in 2022, redirects to rosedreams.net
• icecherry.net (opened: 8/1/2003 - closed: 9/1/2004)
• faery-poets.com (opened: April 2003 - closed: February 2004)
• wicked-moraitis.com (opened: 11/2003 - closed: 9/2004) - was redirecting to wicked-ib.winter-flower.net until 29/5/2005.

• "I am the ghost of an infamous suicide, My own blue razor rusting at my throat." ― Sylvia Plath
• "The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night." ― Friedrich Nietzsche
• "Did you really want to die?" "No one commits suicide because they want to die." "Then why do they do it?" "Because they want to stop the pain."― Tiffanie DeBartolo
• "- I didn't try to kill myself. - What were you trying to do? - I was trying to make the shit stop." - Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted

• Patrick J. Adams
• Arthur Darvill
• James McAvoy
• Simon Baker
• Andrew Garfield
• David Tennant

• Fear is a superpower.
• Bananas are good (always bring a banana to a party – also, good source of potassium!)
• Monsters are real.
• The British Royal Family are werewolves.
• Time is a big ball of wibbly wobbly… time-y wimey… stuff…
• Bow-ties are cool.
• Captain Jack Harkness = sex
• Everybody’s important.
• We're all stories in the end.
• Survival is a choice.
• The human race survives
• The earth is defended.
• People never really stop loving books.
• Loving the Doctor is like loving the stars themselves.
• What matters the most is the here and now.
• Premonition is not weird, it’s remember...

• I'm held together with leftover hope
• tomorrow's not promised, it never was
• I'm trailing your voice
• the stars flicker
• I tiptoe on my dreams
• rose petals float on time-rivers
• my tears are hushed
• pain makes good art (I should know)
• I will not go out with just a whimper

• Futurepop
• EBM
• Darkwave
• Industrial
• Gothic
• Rock

• Evanescence (8 December 2022)
• Within Temptation (8 December 2022)
• Rolling Stones (23 July 2022)
• Iron Maiden (16 July 2022)
• Muse (29 June 2022)
• Blutengel (13 May 2022)
• Solitary Experiments (13 May 2022)
• Dive (13 May 2022)
• Ashbury Heights (13 May 2022)

• I wish we met in a different timeline.
• I wish we were happy, the way we will never be here.
• I wish you could understand.
• I wish I could tell you.

• England
• Cyprus
• Greece
• Austria
• France
• Germany
• Spain
• Italy
• Sweden
• Denmark
• Finland
• Bulgaria
• Switzerland
• Israel
• China

• Aesthetic Perfection
• Angels & Agony
• Ashbury Heights
• Blutengel
• Bruderschaft
• Cold in May
• De/Vision
• Diary of Dreams
• Edge of Dawn
• Frozen Plasma
• IAMX
• Icon of Coil
• Legacy of music
• Lights of Euphoria
• Mental Discipline
• Mesh
• Neuroticfish
• Pride and Fall
• Ruined Conflict
• Seabound
• Solar Fake