nov 26 2022 ∞
jan 28 2023 +

I'm the girl that maybe in another life you could have loved.

I am:

  • Rose petals on a river.
  • A dandelion wish.
  • A darkwave song; a sad one, always a sad one.
  • A butterfly who just ripped her cocoon.
  • Made of roses, sadness and moonlight
jan 28 2023 ∞
jan 28 2023 +

This isn't a fairytale. I fell through the rabbit hole, straight through thick, endless darkness to a place of ashes. I'm not Alice. Just another sad girl drinking the poison the doctors offer me; searching for keys to doors nailed shut. Too many pills, too many tea-parties crushed. I'm not Alice, but we are all mad here, anyway.

oct 6 2022 ∞
oct 6 2022 +

It took fifteen stitches just to smile again. A permanent smile. A fake smile. They said “the past is in the past”, but what about the storm that never calms? What about the pain that never dulls? What about us?

nov 17 2022 ∞
nov 17 2022 +
  • "Other times, I look at my scars and see something else: a girl who was trying to cope with something horrible that she should never have had to live through at all." - Cheryl Rainfield
  • "Unrequited love is a terrible thing." - Patrick Jane (The Mentalist)
  • "We couldn't imagine the emptiness of a creature who put a razor to her wrists and opened her veins, the emptiness and the calm." ― Jeffrey Eugenides, The Virgin Suicides
  • "I am crying over the loss of something I never had. How ridiculous. Mourning something that never was – my dashed hopes, dashed dreams, and my soured expectations." - E.L. James
  • "Love is a terrifying thing. It’s not safe. Because when you love someone, you have to face the fact that you could lose them." - Suits
aug 1 2022 ∞
nov 22 2022 +
  • "I'm damaged / But somehow I've managed / This far" - Damaged, Assemblage 23
  • “You’ll never know / How I feel deep inside / You’ll never know the pain” - You’ll Never Know, Legacy Of Music
  • “And if I show you my dark side / Will you still hold me tonight?” - The Final Cut, Pink Floyd
  • "I think I saw you in my dreams, you were stitching up the seams on every broken promise that your body couldn't keep." - La dispute, Such small hands
sep 29 2022 ∞
nov 26 2022 +
  • Things I collect
      • Sad, beautiful things
      • Daydreams
      • Love letters from doomed lovers
  • Used to collect
      • Sea Shells
      • Comic Books
      • Napkins
      • Pens
      • Concert tickets
      • Raven & swan feathers
nov 17 2022 ∞
nov 17 2022 +
  • Poetry
  • Mystery
  • Fantasy
  • Biography & Memoirs
oct 24 2022 ∞
oct 24 2022 +
  • Stormy seas
  • The darkest sky
  • The distance between us
  • Lost/lonely people
  • Old memories
  • Torn books
  • Knowing that everything ends
  • Caged animals
dec 9 2022 ∞
dec 9 2022 +
  • Rose petals
  • Night escapes
  • Blutengel
  • Coffee
  • Futurepop
  • Theatre
  • Writing
  • Secret gardens
  • Aerial dancing
  • Vanilla
  • Pastel colours
  • Dandelion wishes
  • Filled notebooks
  • Bookshops
  • Butterflies
  • Beltane
  • Starlit whispers
  • Bloomed trees/flowers
  • Peach ice-tea
  • Dreamcatchers
  • Digital Culture / WebCoding
aug 1 2022 ∞
nov 26 2022 +
  • Toffee nut lattes
  • Cinnamon
  • Homemade lemon juice
  • Apples, Oranges, Peaches, Mangoes
  • Almond milk
  • Peach iced tea
  • Vanilla Crème brûlée
  • Chocolate chip cookies
nov 17 2022 ∞
nov 17 2022 +
  • Immortal boss
  • Existentialism
  • Sex
  • More sex
  • Jack having sex with everyone and everything
  • Jack having sex with Ianto
  • Naked hide and seek
  • Weapons
  • Alien tech
  • Retcon
  • Did I say sex?
nov 17 2022 ∞
nov 17 2022 +
  • rosedreams.net (always open ~ opened August 2002)
  • eirene.photography and eirene.site (Autumn 2022)
  • winter-flower.net (June 2004-2008)
  • burning-rose.net (2004-2008) reclaimed in 2022, redirects to rosedreams.net
  • icecherry.net (opened: 8/1/2003 - closed: 9/1/2004)
  • faery-poets.com (opened: April 2003 - closed: February 2004)
  • wicked-moraitis.com (opened: 11/2003 - closed: 9/2004) - was redirecting to wicked-ib.winter-flower.net until 29/5/2005.
oct 24 2022 ∞
nov 22 2022 +
  • "I am the ghost of an infamous suicide, My own blue razor rusting at my throat." ― Sylvia Plath
  • "The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night." ― Friedrich Nietzsche
  • "Did you really want to die?" "No one commits suicide because they want to die." "Then why do they do it?" "Because they want to stop the pain."― Tiffanie DeBartolo
  • "- I didn't try to kill myself. - What were you trying to do? - I was trying to make the shit stop." - Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted
jan 28 2023 ∞
jan 28 2023 +
  • Patrick J. Adams
  • Arthur Darvill
  • James McAvoy
  • Simon Baker
  • Andrew Garfield
  • David Tennant
nov 17 2022 ∞
nov 17 2022 +
  • Fear is a superpower.
  • Bananas are good (always bring a banana to a party – also, good source of potassium!)
  • Monsters are real.
  • The British Royal Family are werewolves.
  • Time is a big ball of wibbly wobbly… time-y wimey… stuff…
  • Bow-ties are cool.
  • Captain Jack Harkness = sex
  • Everybody’s important.
  • We're all stories in the end.
  • Survival is a choice.
  • The human race survives
  • The earth is defended.
  • People never really stop loving books.
  • Loving the Doctor is like loving the stars themselves.
  • What matters the most is the here and now.
  • Premonition is not weird, it’s remember...
nov 26 2022 ∞
nov 26 2022 +
  • I'm held together with leftover hope
  • tomorrow's not promised, it never was
  • I'm trailing your voice
  • the stars flicker
  • I tiptoe on my dreams
  • rose petals float on time-rivers
  • my tears are hushed
  • pain makes good art (I should know)
  • I will not go out with just a whimper
nov 22 2022 ∞
nov 22 2022 +
  • Evanescence (8 December 2022)
  • Within Temptation (8 December 2022)
  • Rolling Stones (23 July 2022)
  • Iron Maiden (16 July 2022)
  • Muse (29 June 2022)
  • Blutengel (13 May 2022)
  • Solitary Experiments (13 May 2022)
  • Dive (13 May 2022)
  • Ashbury Heights (13 May 2022)
dec 7 2022 ∞
dec 10 2022 +
nov 26 2022 ∞
feb 17 2023 +
nov 26 2022 ∞
nov 26 2022 +
  • I wish we met in a different timeline.
  • I wish we were happy, the way we will never be here.
  • I wish you could understand.
  • I wish I could tell you.
aug 1 2022 ∞
aug 1 2022 +
  • England
  • Cyprus
  • Greece
  • Austria
  • France
  • Germany
  • Spain
  • Italy
  • Sweden
  • Denmark
  • Finland
  • Bulgaria
  • Switzerland
  • Israel
  • China
nov 17 2022 ∞
nov 17 2022 +
  • Aesthetic Perfection
  • Angels & Agony
  • Ashbury Heights
  • Blutengel
  • Bruderschaft
  • Cold in May
  • De/Vision
  • Diary of Dreams
  • Edge of Dawn
  • Frozen Plasma
  • IAMX
  • Icon of Coil
  • Legacy of music
  • Lights of Euphoria
  • Mental Discipline
  • Mesh
  • Neuroticfish
  • Pride and Fall
  • Ruined Conflict
  • Seabound
  • Solar Fake
nov 17 2022 ∞
apr 22 2023 +