Honestly, I don't even know what to write. There's so many things I want to say, but as soon as I try to write one of those down .. I miserably fail. Actually, it's always Jongin's fault.

I've been following this cutie pie since the beginning and I find out different sides of him everyday still now. I'm not good at showing my feelings, that's why I can't even express what I feel for him; it's not something cheesy and lovely and cute like "Kim Jongin, you're my whole life. I can't live without you." No. It's definitely something different.

He's a perfect idiot, a dumb, a playful kid who likes to joke around and to tease people with his never-ending-hotness; he's lazy as hell (but I feel him) and he would eat chicken for his whole life; he probably hasn't understood yet that puppies aren't actually children and that he can't go around hitting his members whenever he likes to.

But he's beautiful. Of course I don't really know him, but I always see this aura around him, that makes him shine. I mean, I can't even take my eyes off of him sometimes and I just find myself staring at a stupid screen thinking he's the most beautiful creature on Earth. Outside as much as inside.

He's shy, so shy he burns out laughing when someone makes compliments to him; he has this big and warm heart, so that he is incredibly caring about the others; he is sensitive and would easily cry, even though he doesn't like people see him this way; he's determined, because he's now living his biggest dream and strong, because he always puts so much effort in everything he does.

And I honestly like this side of him so much.

Kai is my biggest inspiration and strenght. When Kim Jongin needs to escape from this world, Kai starts dancing, in order to take all those bad thoughts away.

Kai has charisma and isn't afraid of showing who he really is; he's full of passion and music flows inside of him. I like saying "he is an extension of music", because this is so damn true and you just have to look at him on a stage to agree with this.

Watching him dancing makes me cry because of many reasons. When he dances, he finds his true self and this makes me truly happy; I am proud, so proud of him, because this is dream and he's living it. And once again, that gives me the strenght I need to keep holding on because I'm desperately searching for something I like doing with the same passion he has for dance.

He is amazing. Kai is amazing. Kim Jongin is amazing. And he deserves that the whole world notice him.

He deserves to be happy; he deserves the best and all the luck of this world. He actually deserves the world; the sun, the moon, the stars and even moore, if it is possible.

So~ I didn't expect to write this much, haha! But well, I hate Kim Jongin 24/7 and I'm not even that big artist or creative person (Kris ok, I know you are); so this is the littlest thing I could do for him.

This is my wish for his 20th / 21st birthday (omg, is he really turning 21 in Korea? ;;;), hoping he has spent a wonderful and memorable day.

Happy birthday, cutie monkey~~~ well, yes, I love you. ♥

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