• the sparkles of mica in the concrete, and how they look like little shards of stardust
  • the way the 2:40pm sunlight always disperses and creates a rainbow on that one road sign as i walk home every day
  • the way lovers hold each other: one’s arms wrapped around the other’s neck, from behind, lovingly, gently, comfortingly... the other melting into them . . .
  • the way bright white lights fade to a glitched rainbow at the edges ... chromatic aberration, in real life
  • how people that obviously love each other constantly trade teases and lighthearted insults, but you always see them following each other around and texting each other for help on assignments or homework - despite being able to contact literally anyone else... they are so obviously in love. it doesn’t matter what kind
oct 21 2021 ∞
dec 9 2023 +

self-reflection sunday

  • bugs
  • commitment
    • it’s really more that i’m afraid of overexerting myself. i’m so scared of running out of energy and overcommitting and letting everyone down
  • letting everyone down
    • i feel like the second someone says something positive about me, i locked myself into a position to keep making them feel that way about me, or else i’ve inherently disappointed them and broken their perception of me, and they wish i could’ve been what they imagined.
  • disappointment
    • scared of both being a disappointment, and being disappointed. i’m even scared o...
dec 10 2023 ∞
dec 30 2023 +

#. a lot of these are collected from all over the place. i just enjoy* pretty words and i can’t help myself but create a list of words i want to use. i have a bad memory

in a way, trying to gather up a word database to use in my writing!

  • swashbuckling
  • lovely
  • ephemeral
  • divine
  • enchanting
  • yearn
  • ethereal
  • serendipity
  • endearing
  • drift
  • autumnal
  • dazzling
  • darling
  • catharsis
feb 7 2022 ∞
feb 24 2024 +

or something of the sort. many jotted down from books like caleb’s crossing


basic words

  • bespoke
  • misliked
  • curtly
  • rightly (“i do not rightly know”)
  • aught
  • countenance (composure?)
  • “easy grace”
  • beckoned
  • ardent
aug 13 2023 ∞
dec 17 2023 +

#. or: me reading words i already know, and feeling like they were too mundane for my “vibey words” list, but not wanting to forget them. figured i may as well start a list!

  • it’s a (adj.) thing (referring to vocal things specifically — like “then he laughs. it’s a piercing and bitter thing…”)
  • betray (as in, to unintentionally show/reveal)
  • drawing a breath
  • stark
  • impassively
  • noncommittal (hum)
  • without intonation / tonelessly / flatly
  • permeated
  • wryly
  • regards (verb)
  • assesses (verb)
  • in lieu of
  • halts
  • ruefully
aug 25 2022 ∞
feb 29 2024 +

thoughts & ideas that float by

  • do you ever wonder who lived in your room before you?
    • can you find traces of their soul, still hidden in the cracks of the doorframe or the peeling sticker-residue on the back wall or the broken ruby-gold bracelet stashed the top shelf of the closet?
    • do you ever wonder who will live in the room after you?
    • what will you leave behind?
    • will they wonder about you, too?
  • my soul aches to be another.
    • what would it be like to be a flower? a tree, a pebble, a faraway star?
    • since i was little i always wondered what life would be like if i had been born something else. why, of all things, was i born human?
sep 24 2022 ∞
feb 26 2024 +
  • happiness is in the moment, the little things.
  • life is momentary and ephemeral
  • treat others how you would like to be treated
  • small acts of kindness can mean a lot
  • lift someone up, not bring them down
  • make the world a brighter place whenever you can
  • romanticize your life. the world is beautiful
  • always follow your heart
  • if you have the opportunity to help, take it.
  • think before you act or speak
  • have gratitude for all your blessings
  • stop looking for more; embrace what you have right now
may 21 2022 ∞
may 21 2022 +