when i was 15, i was orphaned by a heinous choice my mother had made--to kill our father the day before their divorce was set to be finalized in courts. this caused a massive schism in my family, and set me up for a world of complications because of this. to be brief, i've struggled with depression and anxiety, as well as varying levels of PTSD, autism and other nuances as a result of this traumatic experience. i am also a sexual abuse survivor. in an unfortunate turn of events, this has eventually all left me disabled. i've tried my best to find my way through life since this experience, but i've struggled every step of the way for just over a decade now. i'm still coming to terms with my story, and actively finding ways to thrive and survive despite my mental complications.