i openly discuss mental health nonsense from time to time, and occasionally (but not always) may bring up mention of my trauma or other complications i've faced. as such, this space, or any space i may be present, should be prefaced with a content warning as follows: death, rape, sexual abuse, murder, mental illness, family dysfunction.

that said, i won't always or easily discuss these things, and often tend to try to not.

ITIIITIATIIHYLIHYL

when i was 15, i was orphaned by a heinous choice my mother had made--to kill our father the day before their divorce was set to be finalized in courts. this caused a massive schism in my family, and set me up for a world of complications because of this. to be brief, i've struggled with depression and anxiety, as well as varying levels of PTSD, autism and other nuances as a result of this traumatic experience. i am also a sexual abuse survivor. in an unfortunate turn of events, this has eventually all left me disabled. i've tried my best to find my way through life since this experience, but i've struggled every step of the way for just over a decade now. i'm still coming to terms with my story, and actively finding ways to thrive and survive despite my mental complications.

• Quen/Q//DJ/Felweed (pref)
• 33 (contrary to popular belief, one cannot stay "forever young" by never updating their age every few years. XD)
• FL
• disabled
• queer (they)
• survivor
• i enjoy photography, writing, video games, and many snuggles with my pets!
• ITIIITIATIIHYLIHYL

i don't know who needs this right now but i just want to remind you of a few things real fast:

• you are loved.
• your life is important.
• you are a survivor.
• your story matters.
• you've got this!

you are more than the physical or mental ailments that complicate your life. you are an exceptional bean and more than capable of tackling what you wish. you are not alone in this. believe in me who believes in you! keep pushing on, you courageous badass, you.

• be financially secure enough to support my closest friends
• write a short story or book
• hike a mountain
• compose a musical track
• visit italy and/or the Alps.

• twitter: i've stopped using social media
• battle.net: Felweed#1462
• disco: felweedxo

the biggest means of support one could show is just compassion and lending an honest attempt at understanding my story, where i come from, and how it has complicated my life in such a fashion. an ear, company while trying to tackle an important task, helping me assess a situation with clearer eyes/perspective so i have a better understanding, things of the like are super supportive and go a long way to help neurospicy folk.

whereas the worst things you could do would be like, telling me it's all in my head or downplaying my experience/story because its incongruent with either your expected world view or incomplete perception of me.

unfortunato, i can't work normal jobs due to my disabilities, and have yet to figure out my niche or purpose in this world, i can barely contribute to the survival of my menagerie and routinely fast myself...