• finish ffxv
• start over tgcf
• start over 19 days
• finish my main OC designs

• FFVX : Chapter 2
• NIER:AUTOMATA VER1.1A : EP 3 04:14

I am fully aware it isn't good to wish for things like this but I kind of wished I enjoyed being a loner more ?? Although that makes no sense because I'm not a loner at all lol,, I'm just the floater friend with loads of friends both online and offline,, but that's my issue !!!!

I want to give everyone attention and then by the time I have time to myself I am too exhausted to focus on myself hnn.. I wish I knew how to be alone but I know I should appreciate what I have before I loose it all (college lol)... Although I know I'll probably have a friend group in college too & then serious work erg

~ log

i literally just got a lot of socmed for the purpose of posting a lot again but i really feel like deleting everything once again... idk i don't want to blow up i think so if i do then i will delete everything...

i get too anxious ab it...

it would also kind of be cool to live on just one platform i guess.. maybe,, idk i'll see what i do

~ log

just crammed more than i did for the ACT and SAT for a certificate in editing oh my ... LOL..

tbf i find editing on adobe pr more fun than.. well... math.... and stuff

hoping i get the certificate tomorrow

~ log

i seriously believe that the brushes you use and the program can affect your art greatly... i draw way better on clip studio and also with my drawing laptop eueu... i thought i forgot how to draw it's only because i was using my wacom i haven't used since like 2018

~ log

major artblock !!!!! D:

so i thought it would be a good idea (spoiler: it is not) to stop drawing for like... half a month after doing something i deemed amazing......... NOW I CANT DRAW !@!!!!!!!! AH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have things i /want/ to draw but just.. cant.......... idk my hand isn't hand-ing ughh

hopefully i get out of this soon !

edit #1: i'm just gonna do like 100 gesture drawings.. or something ;w;..

edit #2: what if i just do what those tiktok ppl do and repeat "i can draw" like a million times lolo

~ log

in all honestly, i used to want to be a computer science major since i find making things with code really cool... but i ended up leaving that as a side hobby like i did with my art and guitar since whenever i'm taught something by a teacher i loose my spirit in it... if that makes sense ?

anyhow... biology is super duper cool and i've been into that stuff since like forever lolo... it just wasn't something i was super into... in-fact i do suck at it but i still find it fun!... it wouldn't be an easy hobby for me so i guess that's why i'm okay with majoring in it ! it would be a bit odd to buy a bunch of chemicals and what-not just for fun...

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in regards to the computer science... one day i plan to make an actual site, but listography is really cool too from what i've seen and done on here... it's like a ...

ordered from most recent to oldest

• vii. Loner Floater Friend
• vi. peepoo anxiety
• v. art wip & short talk
• iv. cram cram
• iii. draw
• ii. artblock.
• i. why i'm majoring in biology...

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