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mai, marcella

    • she / her
    • bisexual
    • 21 and counting
      • taurus sun
      • aries moon
      • cancer rising
    • enfp
      • 4w5
    • cabin 3
    • neurodivergent
    • moonchild ☾
    • cat-oriented


"Where we go Where we are What we wanna say"

oct 25 2020 ∞
jun 11 2022 +
    • alice in wonderland (and all those beautiful book versions)
    • the addams family
    • orange juice
    • draculaura
    • enfp characters (and also real people)
    • found family trope ateez fanfiction
jun 22 2022 ∞
jun 22 2022 +

<3 finished mangas, fanarts, the moon, eyes and noses, kdramas, cats, fresh cold water, fall breeze, urban landscapes, my friends, one night daydreams, the same dream again and again, cafuné, woosanyungi, warm blackets in winter, yoo jimin, songs i've yet to know, sleeping, tasks free days, ji changmin, mobile games, make people laugh, kind eyes, playful smiles, soft hands, haku shota, cloudy days, oversized t-shirts, petrichor, orange juice, greek mythology, pink, heart-shaped stuff, golden jewelry, strawberry-themed stuff, vampires, cursive handwriting, romance! but only when it’s fictional , red ballpen, monochromatic color scheme.

</3 intrusive thoughts, lack of sleeping pills, guilt, ignorance, sloppiness, being ignored, math, self doubt, wet socks, hot drinks, emotional dependency, speed, sour envy, adrenaline, rudeness, most dogs, mood swings, seafood, absence of basic emotions, loneliness.

aug 10 2021 ∞
jun 12 2022 +
    • a animal: cat ;
    • a band: ateez ;
    • a body part: eyes and nose ;
    • a book: the song of achilles ;
    • a character: gansey III ;
    • a color: pink ;
    • a place: the beach, during the night ;
    • a day of the week: saturday ;
    • a drink: orange juice ;
    • a flower: daisy ;
    • a food: bolinho de chuva ;
    • a fruit: melon ;
    • a hobby: entertain people ;
    • a holiday: christmas ;
    • a ice cream flavor: vanilla ;
    • a kind of weather: warm under the blue sky ;
    • a language: korean ;
    • a month: december ;
    • a movie: hsm 3 ;
    • a music genre: kpop ;
apr 15 2021 ∞
jun 9 2022 +
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i don’t know if i will have the time to write any more letters because i might be too busy trying to participate. so, if this does end up being the last letter, i just want you to know that I was in a bad place before i started high school. and you helped me. even if you didn’t know what I was talking about. or know someone who’s gone through it. it made me not feel alone. because i know there are people who say all of these things don’t happen. and there are people who forget what it’s like to be 16 when they turn 17. i know these will all be stories someday. and our pictures will become old photographs. and we’ll all become somebody’s mom or dad. but right now, these moments are not stories. this is happening. i am here. and i am looking at her. and she is so beautiful. i can see it. this one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. you are alive. and as you stand up ...__we are infinite.__

may 26 2022 ∞
jun 9 2022 +

“name one hero who was happy."

i considered. heracles went mad and killed his family; theseus lost his bride and father; jason's children and new wife were murdered by his old; bellerophon killed the chimera but was crippled by the fall from pegasus' back.

"you can't." he was sitting up now, leaning forward.

"i can't."

"i know. they never let you be famous AND happy." he lifted an eyebrow.

"i'll tell you a secret."

"tell me." I loved it when he was like this.

"im going to be the first." he took my palm and held it to his. "swear it."

"why me?"

"because you're the reason. swear it."

"i swear it," i said, lost in the high color of his cheeks, the flame in his eyes.

jun 9 2022 ∞
jun 9 2022 +