ella, marcella

    • she / her
    • bisexual
    • 21 and counting
      • taurus sun
      • aries moon
      • cancer rising
    • enfp
      • 4w5
    • cabin 10
    • neurodivergent
    • moonchild ☾
    • cat-oriented


"Where we go Where we are What we wanna say"

oct 25 2020 ∞
dec 25 2022 +
    • ateez
    • alice in wonderland
    • masquerades
    • the addams family
    • orange juice
    • calico cat
    • enfp people
    • phone cases
    • red objects
    • found family trope
    • opposites attract
    • fanfiction
    • yunsan
    • mineiro accent
    • scorpios
jun 22 2022 ∞
jan 6 2023 +

<3 atz messages on 🪐, (un)finished mangas, fanarts, the moon, big and round eyes and noses, kdramas, cats, fresh cold water, chilly breeze in summer, country music, urban landscapes, my friends, daydreams, having the same dream again and again but never quite remembering it, cafuné, warm blackets in winter, songs i've yet to know, sleeping, tasks-free days, mobile games, make people laugh, soft hands, cloudy days, oversized t-shirts, petrichor, orange juice, greek mythology, universe related quotes, pink, heart-shaped patterns, golden jewelry, strawberry-themed stuff, immortal beings, cursive handwriting, retractable red pen, romance! but only when it’s fictional , red objects, monochromatic color scheme.

</3 intrusive thoughts, lack of sleeping pills, guilt, ignorance, sloppiness, being ignored, math, self doubt, wet socks, hot drinks, emotional dependency, speed, sour envy, adrenaline, rudeness, dog growl, m...

aug 10 2021 ∞
dec 19 2022 +
    • a animal: calico cat ;
    • a band: ateez ;
    • a body part: eyes ;
    • a book: the song of achilles ;
    • a character: richard campbell gansey III ;
    • a color: fb145b (pink) ;
    • a place: bedroom ;
    • a day of the week: saturday ;
    • a drink: orange juice ;
    • a flower: lily of the valley ;
    • a food: bolinho de chuva ;
    • a fruit: melon ;
    • a hobby: reading ;
    • a holiday: christmas ;
    • a ice cream flavor: vanilla ;
    • a kind of weather: warm under the blue sky ;
    • a language: korean ;
    • a word: singular ;
    • a month: december ;
    • a movie: the perks of being a wallflower ;
apr 15 2021 ∞
dec 25 2022 +

i don’t know if i will have the time to write any more letters because i might be too busy trying to participate. so, if this does end up being the last letter, i just want you to know that I was in a bad place before i started high school. and you helped me. even if you didn’t know what I was talking about. or know someone who’s gone through it. it made me not feel alone. because i know there are people who say all of these things don’t happen. and there are people who forget what it’s like to be 16 when they turn 17. i know these will all be stories someday. and our pictures will become old photographs. and we’ll all become somebody’s mom or dad. but right now, these moments are not stories. this is happening. i am here. and i am looking at her. and she is so beautiful. i can see it. this one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. you are alive. and as you stand up ...__we are infinite.__

may 26 2022 ∞
dec 25 2022 +

“name one hero who was happy."

i considered. heracles went mad and killed his family; theseus lost his bride and father; jason's children and new wife were murdered by his old; bellerophon killed the chimera but was crippled by the fall from pegasus' back.

"you can't." he was sitting up now, leaning forward.

"i can't."

"i know. they never let you be famous AND happy." he lifted an eyebrow.

"i'll tell you a secret."

"tell me." I loved it when he was like this.

"im going to be the first." he took my palm and held it to his. "swear it."

"why me?"

"because you're the reason. swear it."

"i swear it," i said, lost in the high color of his cheeks, the flame in his eyes.

jun 9 2022 ∞
dec 25 2022 +