AT THE END OF THE DAY...

• no one gives a shit about your hair
• not one of the boys who interest you will be gay
  • not one of the boys who interest you will have come out of the closet
• October 28th 2011 was the gayest night of your life
• you are neither beautiful on the outside nor the inside
• you're never going to have six pack abs so
• your mother is never going to understand your sense of fashion
• I still can't understand why The Catcher in the Rye is still as hyped and significant as people make it out to be. Seriously it pisses me off. Sure, it's funny, I'll give it that. But why people call it their favorite or go insane, suicidal, or whatever, is beyond me.

• cali overcast
• floral patterns
• kitty clocks
• opus 23
• pretending to yawn
• road-trips
• sailboats
• small, leather watches
• stripes
• strutting to the beat
• talking and yawning simultaneously
• tucked-in shirts
• wes andy

• french toast
  • An egg
  • Cinnamon
  • Powdered Sugar
  • Milk

Crack egg into bowl. Shake cinnamon into bowl, covering up the yoke almost completely. Pour a second of milk, heat pan (grease; medium high), dip bread into mix and place on pan. Flip until toasted on each side, lightly butter one side, powder it with sugar (optional).

• a serious romantic relationship with the boy of my dreams
• cowboy boots
• failure in eyesight / (wear glasses)
• Juan Pablo Garcia-Arriola
• ✔ long hair (as of Feb 2012)
• sleeveless button-up white see-through shirt (nitty gritty)
• vintage (mens) swimsuit
  • or this one
• white angora sweater

(AS OF AUGUST 2011)

• Annie Clark
• Aubrey Beardsley
• Christopher Owen ('s long hair)
  • he sings to me and only me
• Italian style (1960s)
• Japanese art/anime
  • Belladonna of Sadness (1973)

(AS OF SEPTEMBER 2011)

• vintage (mens) swimsuits
• Woody Allen

(AS OF OCTOBER 2011)

• Egon Schiele

(AS OF MAY 2012)

• Jean Cocteau art (naughty naughty drawings)

• Breakfast of Champions Kurt Vonnegut
• Death in Venice Thomas Mann
• Everything Is Illuminated Jonathan Safran Foer
• Franny and Zooey J.D. Salinger
• Gore Vidal The City and the Pillar
• House of Leaves Mark Z. Danielewski
• Kafka on the Shore Murakami
• Leaves of Grass Walt Whitman
• Les Enfants Terribles Jean Cocteau
• One Hundred Years of Solitude Gabriel Marquez
• Post Office Charles Bukowski
• The Fountainhead Ayn Rand
• The Virgin Suicides Jeffrey Eugenides
• White Nights Fyodor Dostoyevsky

• adams apples
• armpits
• arms
• backs
  • wide
• beauty marks on the face
• beauty marks on the torso
• bushy eyebrows
• clavicles
• deep voices
• firm handshakes
• full laugh
• hairy legs
• happy trails
• knees
• nice hands
  • long fingers
  • round palms
• veins

• being organized
• dedicated songs
• finally thinking of a word I couldn't think of earlier
• good morning texts
• inability to stop smiling
• silent laughs
• the relief after having diarrhea
  • not having diarrhea
• thinking a word isn't going to fit in a crossword and then finding out it really does.
• understanding a math problem
• when black skater swag looks into my eyes
• when my feet stick to the hot shower floor

• Can you be someone I want you to be?
• I am so passionate for things I can't achieve on my own.
  • create-less
• I don't know who you are but I love you already
• I like the way he talks to me. His mouth so close, his heart so far. His stance, right in front, caving me in. His stare, locked. It's hard to tell if he knows the feelings he gives me. Does he know what he does to me. Does he know how I burn.
• I pretend to not care but I always do. I always do.
• I pretend to not care but I really do. I really do.
• I wait for you to contact me, to see if you really care. I can not ever help myself. I give in and contact you first. You're hard to love.
• I wish I could be all these things that p...

• babe / bb / beach bab(e)/y
• foo / foofoo
• (lil) bro / brobro
• scooby