i wish i was suggestible. i just love not being present and being completely out of my brain. i wanna be tied up and muzzled constantly so i dont have to talk or have responsibilities. i wanna be able to squirm and not do anything about it. i wanna be a little drunk and let go of my pride for a second to whine and squeak and whimper. i wanna be taken advantage of. i wanna be dismissed and shushed and cooed over. i wanna have my hair and tail scritched while i'm tied up. i wanna rut and try to stimulate myself and not be able to, and have to have help. i wanna be blindfolded and not even be able to see what's about to happen, and just settle comfortably into the darkness with the gag/muzzle too. i wanna not think and not be me for a second. if i could get, like, an entire day where i just dont have to be a person and dont have to be me and just get off and get pets. this would be stellar.