why.. did you do that. genuine question. you had no reason to dodge wheels' request, but the second that you were told to think of something positive about yourself, your mind just went.. blank. like there wasn't a single redeeming quality about you.

which.. there's not,

but that's not the point.

worrying other people unnecessarily is shitty and fucking awful. you're not going to kill yourself or something. you're not doing so horribly that you're doing sh. it hasn't been like that in a long while, has it? probably thanks to your funny little distancing trick where you think in the third person, as though the events aren't really happening to YOU.

not that you have a great idea conceptually what YOU are anyway. you just like to wax poetic and make observations on shitty behaviors you have as though you're some omnipotent fuck who's not responsible, and meanwhile you need to keep up appearances in the real world. the one that's not fabricated in your head. your brain can do so much- not yours specifically, you're a fucking idiot, but just generally. humans are capable of a lot. you squander your potential in doing things like this, writing these longwinded rants. why don't you put this energy toward your creative projects? toward your social life, your relationships? toward your fucking LIFE ALTERING DECISIONS? COLLEGE? YOU STUPID FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT?

why are you like this

why are you like this

why are you like this

shut the fuck up

fuck you