- I'm feeling:
- Lonely and non-existent
- Because I miss what I've become so used to, and he never looks at me.
- and I thought we were going to be okay with this because we managed to talk and laugh for a bit.
- and I thought we could be on the way to being friends.
- But it is like he has this hate for me or can't stand to look/see/be near me.
- Sad
- Because I was almost in tears at the end of the day.
- And the right people don't seem to notice or care.
- Frustrated
- Because I want to talk about it, but I don't think I should because I don't want to seem like I'm hanging onto something that is no longer there.
- Because he still makes me so angry, upset, unwanted and I know I want him, but I don't think I should.
- What happened today?
- It was nice an hot so we all sat out in the sun.
- I had a double art lesson.
- I haven't eaten much.
- Went for a really long walk in the sun with my dog.
- What made me happy?
- That I'm getting a nice tan on my legs.
- I got paid.
- Not too much really.
- What I wish for
- That we could talk, about anything, I miss you.
- To meet new people.
- To have a fling with a gorgeous boy, preferable around the age of 18.
oct 19 2011 ∞
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