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'Don't wake me because I'm dreaming of Angels on the moon.'
With deep words only just grasped by the tough skin at my finger tips and pulled through my lips I try to inspire myself and those around me. Forever looking for a way to say something in the opposite way to simplistic, I want creativity. Though from time to time, I lack the motivation. I'm in love with elves, pixies and imps and just th...

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  • Sitting in bed and feeling like something bad is going to happen or is happening and I have no control in stopping it from happening.
  • Having to make decisions.
  • Walking around a corner hoping no one else will be coming around from the other side.
  • Being late and thinking I am going to miss my bus.
  • Being alone with someone you used to have feelings for and still do a little bit, with that awkward silence.
  • People talking quietly around me.
  • When someone says they need to talk.
  • When people are late.
  • Hearing noises in the walls.
  • Council Garbage trucks.
  • Lawn Mowers
nov 2 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +
  • Exhaustion.
    • Because I didn't get any amount of sleep last night, I was over heated, feeling sick and upset and angry and my brother was up all night too and I could hear him.
  • Loneliness.
    • Because I sat alone all of today.
    • Except at lunch but even then around my friends (which i feel i'm drifting from as sad as that makes me) I felt alone, then I had to go somewhere because i was out of uniform and no one went with me so I just sat alone again, while he was with his friends laughing and having fun.
  • Angry.
    • Because of people on networking sites, like Facebook. The start arguements which are uneeded and have no idea on how to act...
sep 29 2011 ∞
apr 11 2012 +
  • Everyday we are changing, it happens without us even realising and there is nothing we can do about it.
    • If we tried to stop changing, we wouldn't be us, we'd be a past us and we would have to watch others pass us by while we stand still in time and it would drive us mad.
  • Being alone creates this longing for another person's company.
  • After first falling in love and then being torn from it, you crave that love again and seek it out everywhere.
    • Although sometimes where we convince ourselves it is it is not actually there at all.
  • You get too comfortable with someone and there is no longer that fear of losing them, and everything becomes familiar and t...
sep 26 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +
  • The feeling of really wanting to jump into a pointless fight on facebook and own everyone and tell them to shut up and get over it because it is that pointless... but instead decide it is better to stay out of it.
  • Lumpy mash potato :(
  • When people are blind to being hyporitical and contradicting.
  • Narrow mindness.
  • Physical, verbal and sexual abuse, the idea of it and that it happens to so many people, makes me sad and angry.
  • People who always have to be right and are stubborn and just whinge and complain about something they can just get on with.
  • Feeling adgitated.
  • Panic attacks
  • text/messaging acronyms, such as OMG or ROFL or u, 2, ur or LMAO, though lol is on...
aug 10 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +
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So as much as I do tend to suck in writing things about myself, I will have a bit more of a go because personally, I don't like my page looking bare, it is sort of some ocd i have, i like things cluttered and filled. Whatever comes to mind I will write, maybe, if I can bring myself to do so:

  • My favourite colour has been blue for the longest amount of time in my life. It shortly has evolved into more earthy colours like a dark murkey green, sounds gross but looks lovely on.
  • I love long skirts worn with cropped tops and I adore ponchos.
  • I am originally English, born and raised around the Grimsby/Cleethorps area, but to be precise i was brought up in North/South Somercotes about 20 mins from Grimsby. I moved to Australia in 2006 August when I was eleven.
aug 8 2011 ∞
apr 11 2012 +
  • The sound of car tyres driving along a wet road.
  • A cat's purr.
  • His fingers drawing patterns on your spine and shoulders.
  • The feel of sleeping in your own bed after being away.
  • Seeing your hometown on the road sign when coming back from a long car trip.
  • Rain on the roof.
  • The beginning of thunder during the middle of a dark, silent night.
  • That feeling of another warm body sleeping next to your own.
  • Smiling without effort.
  • Feeling pretty and great on the inside.
  • Having that plan B to fall back on.
  • Having no worries for at least one day.
  • Sleeping with the perfect pillow.
  • His smell.
  • Feeling inspired.
aug 8 2011 ∞
apr 11 2012 +
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dec 12 2013 ∞
dec 12 2013 +
  • If I was a month, I'd be August, because I love the word and it reminds me of Autumn (Europe seasons)
  • If I was a day of the week, I'd be Saturday, I could be really boring or really exciting!
  • If I was a time of day, I'd be around six/seven o'clock on a summer's evening when the sun is in the right place of the sky to make everything look golden.
  • If I was an animal of the sea, I'd be a Orca.
  • If I was a direction, I'd be nowhere.
  • If I was a planet, I'd be Pluto, because I'm still not classed the same.
  • If I was a piece of furniture, I'd be the floor, everyone walks over me.
  • If I was a sin, I'd be lust.
  • If I was a liquid, I'd be acid.
  • If I was a gemstone, I'd be Jade.
  • If I was a tree, I'd be a weeping willow.
  • If I was a bird, I'd be a pure white peacock.
  • If I was a tool, I'd be useless.
oct 21 2011 ∞
apr 11 2012 +
  • Books are the ultimate Dumpees: put them down and they’ll wait for you forever; pay attention to them and they always love you back.
  • When adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail
  • You can love someone so much...But you can never love people as much as you can miss them
sep 30 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +
  • My knees always go a purple colour when I'm cold.
  • I'm easy to walk all over and let people do it way too often.
  • I am difficult to motivate or to keep motivated.
  • I sometimes make life difficult for myself on purpose.
  • I can be a hyporcrite.
  • I'm not always around.
  • I drift from people easily, but I'm just as easy to pull back.
  • I always hid from my feelings because I thought they were wrong of me, but they always creep back up on me and that makes it worse because I feel like I failed to stay happy.
  • Bad things always seem to find their way to me.
  • I'm equally as pesimistic as I am optimistic.
sep 26 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +
  • Sadness
    • From feeling not good enough
    • From being told you're boring and there is nothing you can do about it.
  • Dread
    • Of knowing one day things come to an end.
  • Disappointment
    • Because you know you probably can't change that outcome.
  • Loneliness
    • Because you are alone most of the time, even around people.
    • By missing but not being missed
  • Nostalgia
    • because happy memories make us sad
sep 19 2011 ∞
apr 11 2012 +
  • Lesson You've Learned Over The Past Year
    • You can only make yourself happy, in the end, you are all you can rely on.
  • Nicknames People Have Given You
    • Lib lib
    • Vibes
  • Of Your Favorite Teachers & What They Taught
    • I don't like my art teacher, but I like art.
    • My psychology teacher.
    • My year 8 + 9 english teacher.
  • Of Your Favorite Articles Of Clothing
    • My long green skirt.
    • My black ankle boot heels.
    • Little black lacy dress.
    • Gold flip flops.
oct 23 2011 ∞
apr 11 2012 +
  • I'm feeling:
    • Lonely and non-existent
      • Because I miss what I've become so used to, and he never looks at me.
      • and I thought we were going to be okay with this because we managed to talk and laugh for a bit.
      • and I thought we could be on the way to being friends.
      • But it is like he has this hate for me or can't stand to look/see/be near me.
    • Sad
      • Because I was almost in tears at the end of the day.
      • And the right people don't seem to notice or care.
    • Frustrated
oct 19 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +
  • though it isn't your fault
  • but..
  • they are probably a nice person really
  • I don't have anything against you/them/him/her
  • I screwed up
  • it is equally our fault.

Just generally anything about other people and who they are. I always want to see the great in people even if it doesn't exist at all. Sometimes though I have to realize, it is all their fault or they are just horrible people.

oct 2 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +
  • Wolves
  • Chickens
  • Domestic dogs
    • Huskies
    • German Shepherds
    • Pugs
    • Staffies
    • Boxers
    • Kelpies
    • Aus Cattle Dogs
    • Border collies
  • Cheetahs
  • Black Leopards
  • Horses/ponies
    • Shire
    • Arabian
    • Thouroughbred
    • Fella Bella
    • Those tiny minature horses
aug 12 2011 ∞
apr 11 2012 +

I would have no fucking idea, what do girls do?

  • Tumblr
  • Wish to look like that one girl who looks pretty effortless though probably has been photoshopped in that image but you would never have known because everyone is perfect except ourselves.
  • Listen to depressing as fuck music and convince themselves that they have some mental issue and that they can relate to the song. "I'm so lonely and depressed too celine dion!" (i wish i had a humourous sense of humour)
  • Chill out naked in front of the webcam, take photos, then delete them.
  • Probably not doing anything, just on the computer because their life 'offers nothing else to do with their time' then wonder why school is so stressful and hard.

I actually have no fucking idea and this ...

aug 8 2011 ∞
feb 7 2012 +