• long island ice tea, aeperol spirtz(s, plural), jaegermeister (chinese tea flashbacks), mojito, mango mint mojitos,
• film photography, slow camera in the moments, zero regard for instant feedback, papershoot, portra coloring, filters that make me feel like i'm on a cold beach listening to men i trust,
• cooking, the bear, experimenting with recipes and using the oven, baking old recipes and new ones, was the kewpie mayo a litle questionable on the chicken thighs? maybe. but it was good!

i can't believe that i'm not enough (not enough)/ and so long, no one will be here to save you and no one will be here to let you know / let you know / this is your world (this is your world) [ew by joji on nectar (2020)]

and if you don't love me now / you will never love me again [the chain by fleetwood mac on rumours (1977)]

but i'm in a rover / i won't feel a thing / ... / guess i've been awake / thinking bout our fate / fighting two devils / blood in my toothpaste / thought it would be nice [NITROUS by joji on nectar (2020)]

warm rain and thunder / days are getting darker / ... / hunnybee, hunnybee / there's no such thing / as sweeter as sting [hunnybee by unknown mortal orchestra on sex and food (2018)]

look, you wanna play golf or you wanna fuck around? — leona lansing / the newsroom

is it possible the greater glory belongs to me? — rebecca halliday / the newsroom

what are your choices when someone puts a gun to your head? you take the gun, or you pull out a bigger one. or, you call their bluff. or, you do any one of a hundred and forty six other things. — harvey spectre / suits /

i'm going to run the both of you off the road, into a wall. i'm going to kill you. — amy santiago / brooklyn nine nine / 3x19

i was fucking straight forward with you, now you're going to get machete'd to death — james may / the grand tour / bolivia special

i'm going to get shot. it'll probably be an air pistol to the buttocks. it won't b...

YEAR FIVE? YEAR FUCKING FIVE??? dawg i didn't even think i was going to make it this long. but on my run this morning (RUN?) i paused mid-stride and hit that "i'm growing up and i have to stop fucking around". every year i want to say that time snuck up on me with a cartoon hammer but now i know that i will never be able to write about the year until i really feel like it's about to end. this realization was brought to you by the soul-shattering revelation that real self awareness happens even when you're trying not to! i love growing up and wondering when i became the older people i used to think of! what do you mean this was the peak of adulthood!?

• FANDOMAPTHY: losing my religion on the internet

i haven't really engaged with any fandom. which is not a real sentence to me but. ...

you mean to tell me people really throw stuff from the ground into a metal bowl over a fire and it tastes GOOD?

chefs to watch

• j kenji lopez-alt - i am treating this man's recipes like prophecies of a good time!
• andrew rea - i will never attempt the turturkeykey in my life but i do love watching a bald man struggle to fit a turkey inside of. another turkey.
• jon yao - man keeps it simple. michelin starred restaurant in a strip mall? homages and love letters to home cooking from immigrant parents?
• eric sze - "authenticity means jack shit to me" SAY LESS KING. hits include bdsm chicken
• isaac toups - this man is so NOLA i feel like he does a line of cajun seasoning every morning to start his day
• ben & brent from primetime - theoretically i could butcher a whole pig. emotionally? imagine ...

jae, 20, she/her, philippines

• fuck it we ball
• i like screaming into the void and thinking about whether or not i'm being pretentious and whether or not writing that question down makes me pretentious regardless and so forth and so on. sisyphus' rock of pretention if you will...
• the new mcdonalds macbeth. the only burg...
• no algorithm no feed no updates if you've made it here you've done some good ol internet exploring. here is a shiny sticker and my undying undulating eternal love.
• there is no audience to perform for, there is no approval, no admiration to attain. there is no role worth playing. there is no one to convince. let it go.
• let it go.

• notion departure hall for all flights leaving, including thoughts/plans/projects/links -> brain organizer
• listography ordered thoughts
• notes (un)ordered thoughts
• are.na visual thoughts
• pinterest visual inspiration
• goodreads books database

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