SUMMER 2010

• whatever it is that I am doing with all of these pinecones...
• I have 8 boxes and 11 special people that I need to make them for...and I'm selfish so I wanna keep one of the boxes for myself...find a solution/complete time boxes.
• buy banjo strings/restring/practice more
• packpackpack
• sew space skirt
• mendmendmend
• patchpatchpatch
• BUY SOCKS
• BUY PANTS
• finish/develop/scan film
• learn macrame
• find Inkle loom
• WEAVE LYKE A MOFO
• find dead bugs/whatever
• work on dried flower book/field guide wha...

• vegan
• graduated high school
• got into college
• college student
• banjo/ukulele/guitar playing abilities
• long fucking hair
• clean police record
• baking abilities
• have had a job
• have relatively good self control
• decent photography skills
• recycle hardcore
• compost hardcore
• try to be a good person by not using ableist, racist, sexist, or homophobic terms
• don't and won't ever do coke/meth/heroine

• Unconsciousness
  • The Early Years
• Childhood
  • observing small things and being alone and being sick all the time
• Pre-Teen Years
  • confusion and frustration and being sick and being awkward
• Early Teens
  • unending unhappiness
• The Lost Years
  • in high school when I was really depressed and stopped functioning and stopped sleeping and stopped talking
• Later Teens

• the worst thing in the world is waking up drunk and knowing you've left and that I am completely alone here

• my cat's snoring
• waking up in the middle of the night and feeling Moonlight near my feet at the end of the bed
• tumbleweeds
• all the families everywhere
• my own bathroom
• QUEEN BED
  • my bed in particular
  • the windchimes on my bedframe (NO BEDFRAME AT COLLEGE=NO MAGIC CHIMING IN THE NIGHT)
• television...
• DVR
• INTERNET RELIABILITY
• space
• light
• I can't put people on this list

• "Going to California"

Led Zeppelin

• "Blue Skies"

Noah and the Whale

• "If You Want to Sing Out"

Cat Stevens

• "These Days"

Nico

• "New York City"

The Jesus and Mary Chain

• "Don't Think Twice, It's Alright"

Bob Dylan

• be more accountable
• keep room relatively clean
• do laundry regularly
• shower more
• call parents more often/be nicer to them
• start going to sleep before 3 am every day
• learn more about sleep so I'll be able to sleep better
• learn how to turn down my friends
• smoke less weed
• drink more?
  • no that's stupid
• finish the reading on time and come to class with ideas to discuss
• turn in all assignments on time
• make things easier for myself
• never miss class because that's just stupid and I'm totally capable of going
• spend less time dicking around on the int...

• ...you admit to your cousin over the phone that you're a stoner.
• ...the girl you're crushing on has a crush on you but has a boyfriend.
  • 3:<
• calling your older fucker of a cousin "assnugget" on the facebook in response to birthday wishes
  • HEH HEH HEH

in my apartment complex:

• pizza
• Wrigleyville
• Shmee
• YourMom
• DUSTY
• BubbaHome
• FUCKYOU
• piratejo
• Gypsygirls
• SmokeMonster
• FancyHorse
• jollyrancher
• El_Douche_Bag

at Evergreen:

• ShagNasty
• Pussy Galore

• go to a psychic
  • with Charlotte
  • "Mrs. Lee" with Amanda and Nolan
• go/take a nap on a roof (with Charlotte)
• revisit the sewer with Amanda and Lina
• aquarium with Maya
• sleepover at Maya's
• sleepover with Charlotte
  • all nighter + sunrise
  • go to sleep early and wake up early to see the sunrise
  • sunrise at beach
• hot air balloon
• have a bonfire/picnic with my favorite people (refer to private list)
• significantly difficult bike ride with Nolan and Jared
• sneak out of the house
• write notes to no(every)body and tie them...

• Defiance Ohio/Your Heart Breaks/KIMYA DAWSON show at the Olympia library
  • just, how did that even happen?
• when Mitra loses her hairband it means free hair for everybody in the mosh pit!
• Alexa told me I was a cutie.
  • I feel like people actually like me.
    • I'm kinda okay with who I am right now.
      • I kinda like the person I am right now.
        • WHOAH WHOAH WUT.
• I am in love with Olympia.
• Snow is kind of the most beautiful thing in the world.
  • So much magic.

• that greying gold glint
• golden summer skin
• golden honey hair
• yellow crayons
• old, yellowing construction paper
• sunlight
• warmth
• golden day
• golden bus
• golden sun moths
• golden dust
• golden shafts of light
• my mother's little hoop earrings
• the golden wasp that flutters, fits, fizzes around the garage
• golden thread