12/27/2025

• i've been meaning to write a lot more these days. it's something i enjoy doing, but i always find myself wanting to write a lot more often than i actually sit down and write. i will lay awake at 4 am and think to myself, i want to write. in the morning i will write. but the morning comes, i don't write.
• i am actually writing something right now. i will be secretive with it because it is maybe embarrassing, but i'm enjoying it. why i neglect my passions, i may never know! i'm horrible for it!
• last night i went out with friends and we explored a trail. it was a good ways out of the way of town, it was nice. cold. there's so much snow this year, i feel as though my ankles are always full of snow. haha. but okay, outside, yes. after we finished our adventuring, we drove around and listened to 2010s pop. i had a lot of fun singing along with my friends.
• we also seen two wolves, very cool.

1/4/26

• happy new year!
• today was a good day, i'd say. i spent the day out with friends, and we spent a lot of time playing cards.
• i'm coming to terms with the fact that i don't like drinking anymore. even one beer will upset my stomach something fierce. it's probably for the best considering i never even liked being drunk to begin with. silver linings.

1/8/26

• i've been so tired lately, and i can't figure out why. i sleep and i sleep and i am still so tired.
• i think i'll try to get better with photography.

1/10/26

• yesterday i found myself very dazed. maybe not the right word. i was very out of it, i suppose. laying in my bed, i felt as though i were a bleeding out animal. these feelings are always strange and perspective shifting.