• a better cage
• treats
• more toys!!
• little beds
• frozen peas
• playpen

• Sorry, baby
• Final Destinations: Bloodline
• 28 Years Later
• Death of a Unicorn
• Return to Silent Hill
• The Thing With Feathers

18/3/25

• septum smell is so much more prominent than you'd think.
• i can smell my dead skin

21/3/25

• my camera is so cute...
• there's a class nearby that's reading a story & the teacher is so loud HAHA
• the class is so quiet and everyone can hear my keyboard :(
• from anthony dropped new stuff!!! yay

22/3/25

• i realize i don't understand people! i knew this, but i'm reminded of it today especially
• there's no use in dwelling on what makes me sad, but i want to! if it's all i have left of something it makes me even sadder, though

• being indigenous mixed
• continue "promiscuity"
• dysmorphia & being butch
• my biological father
• sleep patterns (ff)
• weird relationship with sex
• write about your feelings more you Loser
• english project "how the internet affects real human connections"
• "i've changed since the last time you saw me"
• in another world
• nightmares
• warlock/van helsing (ff)

• Sexual Anorexia: Overcoming Sexual Self-Hatred, Patrick J. Carnes
• Men Who Hate Women, Laura Bates
• GRIT: a poetry collection, silas denver melvin
• My Friends, Hisham Matar
• Prophet Song, Paul Lynch
• Valencia, Michelle Tea
• Even Curses End, Catherine Garbinsky
• In the Heart of the Sea: The Tragedy of the Whaleship Essex, Nathaniel Philbrick
• Autopsy of an Ex-Teen Heartthrob, Jogia, Avan
• Those Empty Eyes, Donlea, Charlie
• Night Sky with Exit Wounds, Vuong, Ocean

• you love your piercings, you shouldnt take them out to please other people
• your weight increasing isnt a bad thing!! its what you wanted!!! muscle cant come out of nowhere
• youre not ugly!!!!!!! you dont look good on camera, but trust in the mirror
• your friends will still love you if youre difficult
• taking breaks is okay
• good things will come if you let them
• you arent a creep for liking people
• youre butch

• bask in domesticity one final time
• eat without shame
• journal at least a little
• listen to all my favourite songs
• maybe cut my hair a last time
• tell everyone i love them a lot

• angel fangs-
• lobes
• septum 14g (was 10g)
• snakebites

ranked by priority post paycheck

• rat cage
• rat stuff
• air purifier
• vacuum
• clothes
• monitor (or tv)

• people who use ai to do work
• white skies
• when the weather app calls for rain and then it doesnt rain
• my hair. pmo pmo pmo
• when plans get cancelled last minute

• This Is How You Lose the Time War, Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone (reread) 4/5
• Fake Accounts, Lauren Oyler 3.5/5
• LANNY, Max Porter 4.5/5
• Grief is the Thing with Feathers, Max Porter 3.5/5
• Beautiful Boy: A Father's Journey Through His Son's Addiction, David Sheff (reread) 4.5/5
• Tweak: Growing Up on Methamphetamines, Nic Sheff (reread) 3/5
• The Last Supper: A Summer in Italy, Rachel Cusk 2/5
• Shy, Max Porter 5/5
• Sexual Anorexia: Overcoming Sexual Self-Hatred, Patrick J. Carnes 4.5/5

• conversational
• everything i have reflects my personality
• full of fun facts
• i have an impact on the people around me
• i love so many things
• i try to compliment people a lot
• i love to write
• my general look is very approachable
• safe
• very family oriented

• "Let's admit, without apology, what we do to each other. We know who our enemies are. We know." War of the Foxes
• "I want to give you more but not everything. You don't need everything." War of the Foxes
• “You'd break your heart to make it bigger, so why not crack your skull when the mind swells.” War of the Foxes
• "Didn’t Sappho say her guts clutched up like this?" Love, Death, and the Changing of the Seasons
• "I feel more like a person than ever because I'm starting to hate myself" Open Throat
• "I'm not sure how to have a body again after losing it and my desire goes in all directions. slow and starved and wanting to connect. fuck" Open Throat
• "with my last breath I think the word please. let me start over" Open Throat
• "Sorry about the blood in your mouth. I wish it was mine. I couldn't get the boy t...__Crush__

• angel bites
• labret
• medusa

paracelsus setup

• anything soft
• bleach (odd)
• cinnamon
• fresh baked goods
• freshly washed floors
• lavendar
• sage
• smoke
• tree sap