Friday, May 23, 2025

• I have officially lost 10% of my weight today. I'm 19% of the way to my goal. How many days has it been? I checked. 81 days. It has been 81 days of tracking and injections. I feel good. I think I'm doing okay. I think I need to get back to the gym now that the scale is moving more to my satisfaction. I'm happy.
• I won't be making it to 300 by my birthday (a personal goal) but ya' know what? That's okay. I'm going to get there!

Monday, April 28, 2025

• I had a moment last night where it really hit me. All I think I really want from life is to be a mother but there's something about making J a father that makes me feel like it would complete everything. Mind you, we've been together for years. He wants kids. Like four of them and I wan...

—— M A R C H

• Monday, March 24, 2025
  • 22 minutes treadmill (18.5min / km; slow pace)
    • I was just getting over the flu and this walk kicked my ass. It was my first time at the gym in about 4 years. Crazy.
• Thursday, March 27, 2025
  • 30 minutes treadmill (15min / km; leisurely pace)
    • I was so relieved. Seriously, after Monday I thought I was in way worse shape than I am. But "leisurely pace"? BS.
• Saturday, March 29, 2025
  • 32 minutes treadmill (15mins / km)
• Sunday, March 30, 2025

Non-Scale Victories (NSV) are the little things that you notice that make it worth it and show you that a difference is being made. It can be with how you feel, your health, old clothes fitting, etc.

April 27, 2025

• Dad said, "Now today I can tell you're losing weight." He was the first to notice but then he also noticed there wasn't much of a change for a while there.

April 21, 2025

• I am wearing a ring. I never wear rings since I have quite fat fingers but I guess I can wear a 9 on my ring finger.
• A client didn't recognize me today. She said I looked different and good.

April 15, 2025

• K & C commented that I looked different. Then C asked if I had lost weight and I t..._Okay, it's not exactly a NSV but I wanted..._

Did they notice my weight loss? Yeah, they did!

Here's when:

April 15, 2025

• K & C at work commented that I looked different. Then C asked if I had lost weight and I told her I had. K asked how much I'd lost. I told them 20lbs. They were so happy for me. It's nice when people are rooting for you.

April 21, 2025

• A client didn't recognize me today. She said I looked different and good. She was impressed.

April 27, 2025

• Dad said, "Now today I can tell you're losing weight." He was the first to notice but then he also noticed there wasn't much of a change for a while there.

• 🗹360lb — 53.2BMI — Severe Obesity (Class 3 Obesity); size 26/28
  • Started weight loss journey on March 3, 2025
    • 🗹 359
    • 🗹 358
    • 🗹 357
    • 🗹 356
    • 🗹 355
    • 🗹 354
    • 🗹 353
    • 🗹 352
    • 🗹 351
• 🗹 350lbs — 51.7BMI — Severe Obesity (Class 3 Obesity)
  • 🗹 349
  • 🗹 348

Quotes from 'skinnytok' that stick with me:

• "eat small, be small / eat big, be big"
• "Just because there's a certain time on the clock doesn't mean it's time to eat."
• "Why is food the most important part of your day?"
• "Hungry to bed, hungry to rise, makes a girl a smaller size."
• "To waste, or to the waist?"
• "Being hungry isn't an emergency."
• "You are not a dog, why are you rewarding yourself with food?"
• "What you eat in private you wear in public."
• "You don’t need a cheat day, you’ve been living a cheat life!"
• "Stop choosing comfort over commitment."
• "No time to workout? Check your screen time."

Here's how my weight is going. Please note that I weigh myself first thing in the morning after peeing. For the sake of record keeping ☆ will indicate I was menstruating. On days that I took my tirzepatide 💉 will be used.

M A R C H

• March 3, 2025 : 360lb
• March 4, 2025 : 359.2lb
• March 5, 2025 : 357lb
• March 8, 2025 : 354.6lb
• March 9, 2025 : 354.8lb
• March 10, 2025 : 355.8lb 💉2.5mg
• March 11, 2025 : 355.6lb
• March 12, 2025 : 357.2lb
• March 13, 2025 : 354.8lb
• March 14, 2025 : 354.2lb
• March 15, 2025 : 352.4lb
• March 16, 2025 : 352.2lb 💉2.5mg
• March 17, 2025 : 352.4lb
• March 18, 2025 : 351.2lb

I have started a weight loss journey on Monday, March 3, 2025 at 360lb exactly. Then on Monday, March 10, 2025, I added a compound tirzepatide thanks to my doctor. I was weighing in at a whopping 355.6lb.

Changes I am making:

• More Protein
  • I am working to get up to 125g of protein each day. I have not succeeded thus far in making this goal everyday. I am going to be looking into more meals or snacks to boost that.

Why am I making these changes?

• I want to feel pretty.
  • I'm stoked to see how my face card upgrades.
• I want to find nice clothes and look good.

I've decided to create some goals and rewards for myself. I'm starting this list at 339.4lb so there will not be any retroactive rewards.

🗹 330lb

• This is where I tend to give up and I am not doing that this time. I refuse to give up. This one is a big one for me. It will be 30lbs lost.
  • Reward: New Bag! (Honestly, I already ordered it and I should be below 330lb by the time it gets here.)
• It took me about a week longer to get here than I thought it would but I did it!

315lb

• I am so close to being out of the 300s. I want to reward myself with something that makes me feel good.

I love dresses. I currently wear a 26/28 and the options are...dismal and I don't want to look like I should be playing bingo with the gals at the nursing home (I'm 35). Also, why do they not have sleeves? I have fat arms, I can't just be flailing those things about.

I can't wait to be able to really shop for dresses I love. Here are my favorites:

• Vaeda Midi Dress from Baltic Born
  • I love the olive and cream colors.
• Margaux Sweater Dress from Baltic Born
  • Definitely in the cream. Black is okay but I just don't care for it here.