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i do not want to air out my trauma or personal experiences bc they are my own business and i do not need to explain myself to anyone so i will only say this: i have a lot of trauma and am severely mwntally ill + psychologically impaired. i have been advised by my therapist to help the healing journey with fictional media.

i do not condone problematic / immoral things irl. i believe that they should be written about and have the right to exist even if you dont like it. it is because its fiction and cannot hurt real people that i am able to find comfort in my negative feelings and experiences. if problematic content is something that affects you / your reality then that is your issue, not mine. do not tell me how to cope or deal with my problems that you know nothing about. most people who consume problematic media are people who have been affected by those things so your judgement does nothing but harm them even more.

you might be asking yourself, "even if he has trauma, why would he indulge in this kind of morally reprehensible content?" if murder is so horrible in real life, why is it ok in games? if robbing, stealing, and killing is so horrible why is only okay for you to look at when it's "morally okay"? have you ever been killed? maybe robbed or stolen from? why is it ok in fiction but not reality? if you like murder you must support it in real life right? you dont. obviously you dont. dont place your judgement onto me just because you cant separate fiction from reality. people like you have never experienced a real problem before, thats why when you see a fictional one it becomes an issue for you, because the internet is your life. please go outside if you genuinely cannot separate fiction from reality or understand the nuances of censorship in fiction and fandom spaces. the content i indulge in is my own business. im not "fetishizing" anyones trauma im dealing with my OWN. "but why dont you do it in private" even if it was private you people would still find it disgusting. you just want mentally ill people to fit into your little box of what YOU think is ok and what isnt. genuinely go outside and talk to real people.

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tmi i have gone through a lot of traumatic events as a child that i do not really feel comfortable talking about in full detail. its something that still affects me to this day as i suffer from night terrors and ptsd from my trauma and somwthing im still struggling to come to terms with. in short i have suffered neglect and abuse, both physical and emotional, csa, cocsa, incest, and other traumatic things. please dont tell me how to deal with my problems i am already working with my therapist to cope with them. fiction helps me process those feelings and experiences in a way where i dont have to feel ashamed or guilt about it happening to me and i am actually doing a lot better these days regarding my trauma.