8th

• he kept texting me. pretty sure he is taking this harder than i am. i feel lighter about the whole thing. ofcourse i miss him. i still want him. that hasn't changed. i just cant do this dance with him anymore. i have nothing left to give to him if it continues the way it has. we talked for 2 hours last night. got absolutly nothing figured out. i told him i would delete him from fb and he can text/call me when he wants. but i dont think i'll answer. fuck i really hate this. i havent been on here in almost a year and i've read some of my lists. so many about him! if he only knew.

9th

• i am all congested and shit. lame. finally a day off and i'm by myself and lovin' it. yesterday sucked. totally worked 13 hours and then had to deal with him. i feel better about it all. anyway. going to the spot tonight for food and drinks. whit is leaving for folrida so we're having goodbye drinks.