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"So, when I'm lost in a crowd I hope that you'll pick me out. How I long to be found. The grass grew high, I laid down. Now I'm waiting for a hand, To lift me up, help me stand. I've been laying so low, Don't want to lay here no more.

Everything that happens Is supposed to be. And it's all predetermined can't change your destiny. Guess I'll just keep moving, someday maybe I'll get to where I'm going"

Nothing Gets Crossed Out

"Well, I guess that it's typical To cling to memories you'll never get back again"

Happy Birthday To Me (Feb.15)

"And now it all seems so familiar, Like pages turned on calendars. We get the same twelve months to fuck things up Year after year. And I can't believe how down I am, Like the well I'm being lowered in, now water stops, The bucket drops us farther and farther down. Well, I guess that you never knew me or at least not well enough"

"But you'll get that feeling back. You just need some time to drink . And so I'll fill my gut with that blood red wine until my insides swim and my veins unwind. I'll be lying there in that hot white air. Once that something is gone it might never reappear"

Vanishing Act

"The road has made a vacuum where our voices used to be. And you lay your head onto my shoulder, Pour like water over me. So, if I just exist for the next ten minutes of this drive, That would be fine.

The Movement of A Hand

"But, I do not recall all the words that were formed On those wire lips as they greeted me. A promise was made without thought as the temperature climbed. And I started to sink like the moon tends to do if you stare at it too long. Then you blink and it's gone."

The Awful Sweetness of Escaping Sweat

"Meaning is sometimes hard to spot. It begins with the flickering of cigarettes in the darkness of a dorm room somewhere in the suffocated mid-west"

I Watched You Taking Off

"Burned with reasons as to carry on. Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow But I swear that I would follow anything Just get me out of here."

"I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose. But, I know that that's impossible now"

"I give myself three days to feel better Or else I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff. 'cause if I can't learn to make myself feel better How can I expect anyone else to give a shit? And I scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere. Just get me past this dead and eternal snow. 'cause I swear that I'm dying, slowly but it's happening. And if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere, Just take me there. And Lie to me, say it's going to be alright."

If Winter Ends

"I can't breath with these words in my mouth. But, I'm not going to say them. Yeah, I've made that mistake before"

Contrast and Compare

"I find that life is easier when it is just a blur; With no details to confuse who or what or where I was. So, when the ending comes the full regret will seem obscure."

"If you close your eyes we will always be the way we were that night you crawled inside of me, And you slept in my blood the way you sleep now."

The Difference In The Shades

"There is nothing more I want than just one night that's free of doubt and sadness. One night that I can really feel."

Touch

"You said, "I'm done feeling like a skeleton No more sleep walking dead." You're going to wake from this coma, You're going to crawl from this bed you have made. And stop counting on that camera that hangs round your neck because it won't ever remember what you choose to forget. As you try to find some source of light, try to name one thing you like. You used to have such a longer list, And light you never had to look for it. But, now it's so easy to second guess everything you do. Until all you want is to finish this half empty glass before the ice melts away. This feeling always used to pass, but seems like it's every day, Seems like it's every night now."

A Line Allows Progress A Circle Does Not

"So I stand in the sun and I breathe with my lungs. Trying to spare me the weight of the truth. Saying everything you've ever seen was just a mirror and you've spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever, and now you are laying in a bathtub full of freezing water, wishing you were a ghost."

A Perfect Sonnet

"Why can't I let what happens happen? And just enjoy the time I spend. Oh how I wish it was so easy, nut when there is no point to anything it can get a bit confusing. Why is that I keep going?"

On My Way To Work

"If you could change your days arranging them in some sweet new sequence, Like any new arrangement is going to make a difference. Because it is the moment that you are living in and not the one that follows, that makes the mess you are cleaning in your head."

A New Arrangement

"Yeah, don't destroy yourself like those cowards do. Maybe the sun keeps coming up cause it's gotten used to you and your constant need for proof."

A Spindle, A Darkness, A Fever, And A Necklace

"Now I know a disease that these doctors can't treat. You contract on the day you accept all you see is a mirror and a mirror is all it can be. A reflection of something we're missing."

A Scale, A Mirror, And Those Indifferent Clocks

"And you're not really sure what you're doing this for, But you need something to fill up the days. A few more hours. "

Something Vague

"No matter how I may wish for a coffin so clean or these trees to undress all their leaves onto me. I put my face in the dirt and then finally I see, The sky that has been avoiding me."

When The Curious Girl Realizes She Is Under Glass

"Except we keep coming back to this meaning that I lack."

Haligh

"Sunrises, sunsets. You're hopeful then you regret. The circle never breaks."

"Everybody knows that it is all about the things that get stuck inside of your head,"

Sunrise, Sunset

"Well, I say come for the week. You can sleep in my bed. And pass through my life like a dream through my head. It will... it will be easy. I'll make it easy."

A Song To Pass The Time

"And though I know that my actions are impossible to justify they seem adequate to fill up my time. But, if I could talk to myself like I was someone else, well then maybe I could take your advice, and I wouldn't act like such an asshole all the time."

Going For The Gold

"Now, I sing and drink and sleep on floors and try hard not to be annoyed by all these people worrying about me. So, when I'm suffering through some awful drive you occasionally cross my mind. It's my hidden hope that you are still among them, Well are you?"

Oh, You Are The Roots..

"Like Snow, Like Gold"

No Lies, Just Love

"I will send you the world green and blue in a box through the mail. You can open it up, hold it right in your hand and be glad that it's there, and be glad that you're there."

Kathy With A K's Song

"You were the blue of the sky, You came after the storm, You were the switch on the wall, In the dark of the hall, I'm still fumbling for."

Messenger Bird's Song

"Well, the future spills its intangibles, an unknown set of variables. A path that spliten infinitely up ahead. So, tell me what's the use to pick and choose From what you should or shouldn't do? That's time spent better sleeping in your bed or wide awake in a shopping mall, trying clothes on from off of the wall. Yeah, anything to entertain yourself. 'Cause a costume can be comfortable, It can make you feel more beautiful, It can even make you look like someone else. But it's still you, so there's nothing you can do. Like a bad habit, the one you couldn't kick, there it always is. And it's nothing that no doctor's gonna fix"

We Are Free Men

"So that's fine, yeah come by we'll take the afternoon off. We can kiss and undress or if you want just talk. Cause I've got nothing real, just empty space to fill. And you're my girl I like your style just imagine all the time we could kill."

"I accept I won't cling to what I had in the past. But, life's a slippery slope, regret's the steepest hill. Hope for the best, plan for the worst and maybe wind up somewhere in the middle.

And I'm not saying that I know what I want. But, I know what I don't, don't want to rot in my room and never know what could have been, Believe what everyone else tells me is true."

Loose Leaves

"If I could act like this was my real life and not some cage where I've been placed, then, I could tell you the truth like I used to and not be afraid of sounding fake. Now all that anyone is listening for are the mistakes. In a house, by myself, I hear the ice start to melt and watch rooftops weep for the sunlight. And I know what must change. Fuck my face. Fuck my name. They are brief and false advertisements for a soul I don't have. Something true I have lacked and spent my whole life trying to make up for."

False Advertising

"You are the reoccurring kind. You never really leave my mind."

You Will? You Will.

"You write such pretty words, but life's no story book. Love's an excuse to get hurt, And to hurt."

Lover I Don't Have To Love

"Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying, I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad, then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company through those days so long and black."

Bowl Of Oranges

"My compass spins. The wilderness remains."

Make War

"And I know you have a heavy heart; I can feel it when we kiss."

"But what was normal in the evening, by the morning seems insane."

Lua

"It was grass stained jeans and incompletes and a girl from class to touch. But, you think about yourself too much and you ruin who you love. Well, all these claims at consciousness, My stray dog freedom ."

Gold Mine Gutted

"Now I do as I please and lie through my teeth someone might get hurt, but it won't be me. I should probably feel cheap but I just feel free... And a little bit empty. No, it isn't so hard to get close to me. there will be no arguments, We will always agree. And I'll try and be kind when I ask you to leave, we'll both take it easy. But if you stay too long inside my memory, I will trap you in a song tied to a melody, and I will keep you there so you can't bother me."

Take It Easy (Love Nothing)

"There is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live. And so I do what I do, and at least I exist. What could mean more than this?"

Hit The Switch

"I just got myself to blame, Leave everything up to fate. When there's choices I could make. And now my heart needs a polygraph, Always so eager to pack my bags, When I really wanna stay."

I Believe In Symmetry

"Its just one day I fell asleep, And all day all night I dreamed, I am the first one I deceive, If I can make myself believe, The rest is easy..."

Devil In The Details

"I wanna be the surgeon that cuts you open and fixes all of life's mistakes. I wanna be the house that you were raised in the only place that you feel safe. I wanna be your shower in the morning that wakes you up and makes you clean. I know I'm just the weather against your window as you sleep through a winter's dream."

Ship In A Bottle

"And in the caverns of tomorrow with just our flashlights and our love, We must plunge, we must plunge, we must plunge"

At The Bottom Of Everything

"I got no plans and too much time. I feel too restless to unwind. I'm always lost in thought as I walk a block to my favourite neon sign."

We Are Nowhere And It's Now

may 16 2012 ∞
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