- how shy i am.
- that i have almost no friends.
- that all the friends i make grow out of me or move away or both.
- that i can't play guitar.
- that i don't have any idea what i want to do.
- that i can't be perfect for brandon. i'm not charming or smart or pretty enough and all i want to be is perfect for him.
- i can't write.
- i don't read anymore.
- i can't go to the library.
- i didn't get a letter from hogwarts.
- i hate that i hate myself.
- i'm a hypocrite.
- i can't be what anyone wants me to be.
- i'm scared of everything.
- i'm incredibly awkward.
- i can't play barre chords.
- i don't have any real talents.
- i can't keep money.
- i don't have a job.
- i'm pretty fucking useless.
- i'm not smart.
- i'm not artsy either.
- i hate that being straight edge drives a wedge between me and other people.
- i also hate that i'm a fucking hypocrite and can't keep promises i make to myself.
- i'm not good at anything. not even things that don't matter.
- that i didn't go see my uncle. and all the other things i feel guilty about with him dying.
- that i can't draw.
- i'm still not skinny enough.
- i hate my hair.
- i'm mean.
- i lie about my feelings a lot.
- everything?
oct 14 2010 ∞
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