so many reminders

• thank You
• i seem to forget, constantly

• go to blacks beach
• go to the glider ports
• eat at oscars
• go to balboa park and play at all the museums
• go to mexico
• go to mt. soledad
• play at salvation mountain
• go to all my classes in any quarter
  • almost though
• undie run
  • not trying to either
• go to the salk institute
• bear garden
  • missed the last one too
• go to the carlsbad flower fields
• visit the 'fallen star' part of the stuart art collection

• understanding
• rebuking
• correcting
• validating
• knowing
• sharing
• loving
• plus some

• i have a tendency to double book my days, events, and people
• i have accepted mediocrity in my everyday life and habits

prioritize them priorities

by:

• not going out to every single event
• staying home
• taking care of what i need to get done
• stop over analyzing and over thinking
• aka, stop brooding
• adhering to the boundaries i've made for myself
• giving myself that grace i've already received
• staying healthy and assertive
• good communication on all ends
• it's okay. i'm really not going to miss out on much.

really, out of the overflows of my heart. i am so privileged and thankful.

Saturday:

• daytime: black tea with strawberry

Monday:

• evening: americano

Tuesday

• morning: drip, iced, black
• evening: korean instant

Wednesday

• morning: korean instant
• evening: hazelnut latte
• evening: drip, black with honey

Thursday

• morning: black
• daytime: iced

oh no..

• regular menstrual cycles
• shane's safety

Either cause it's healthy or cause I'm not loving myself enough.

• floss
• practice Korean
• 50 squats
• 10 pushups
• run a mile (not happening)
• read
• eat breakfast
• take a d

• a working stove
• people who challenge me
• people who bring the best out of me
• the prophetic and the prophetic culture
• banchan to eat for lunch
• being able to pay my own bills
• independence
• utter dependence on Jesus

• if you base your relationship with God on an experience, you can be deceived
• but if you read the Bible, memorize it, study it, and you dont have an experience, you are already deceived

know the Author, not just the book my friends

• teach me

• be healthy
  • physically
• be healthy
  • spiritually
• be healthy
  • relationally
• be healthy
  • happy teeth
• be healthy
  • with school
• be healthy
  • with $$$

now.. to finish with finals first

• in everything!
• Holy Spirit connects everything, oh man.

Old Testament:

• prosperity
• healthy
• sound mind
• wholeness of being

New Testament:

• security
• safety
• prosperity
• felicity

cool~

for everything. i don't even know where to begin, but to name a few:

• for You.
• my relationship with the Father, Son, & Holy Spirit
• family
  • blood
  • spiritual
• Yogurt & Julius
• health
• friends
• acquaintances
• education
• home
• internet access
• nice weather
• beautiful nature
• food and nourishment
• access every single spiritual gift

in my childlike faith, i have:

• the gift of joy
• rest and peace

confirmation a jillion times, holla!

• received
• give

• go
• grow

• Jesus Christ

• tint car windows
• leather seats in car
• gas moneys
• school books
• new snowboard + gear
• possibly for the extra cost of getting a single room next year
• buying freshmen food
• going out in the summerr~
• digital camera
• i might need a new laptop soon ... uh oh
• shoppings
• recreational activities!
• save up so i dont become a broke a$$

i used to play the B-flat clarinet.

• i used to be pretty good
• i was the first chair in all of california in middle school
• but thats just tooting my own horn
• i actually really really suck(ed)
• i still cant proficiently read bass clef
• i super suck at music and theory and anything that regards real thinking

i used to play the E-flat clarinet too

• but that was only sometimes

B-FLAT:

• Buffet Crampon R13
• Charles Bay medium ligature
• Vandoren M15 mouthpiece
  • it may have been the M13 .. i cant really...

this list can probably coincide with --------> one, but oh well!

• sleeping in
• clean air
• open minded people
• animals
• being skinny
• getting grades that reflect the effort i put in
• good company
• nature
• money
  • im trying not to
• my faith
• momma's cooking
• KC
• random adventures in the middle of the night
• bursts of spontaneity
• achieving goals

• love
• joy
• peace
• patience
• kindness
• goodness
• faithfulness
• gentleness
• self-control

• start sleeping earlier
• start sleeping in general
• get my game together please
• pray and praise daily
• stop being a glutton
• gym everyday, this freshman 15 deal is not working well for me
• be proactive
• study everyday for 4 hours
• listen to good music again
• grow out nails/stop biting nails
• thank the Lord for what He's given me

i got all 4 of my wisdom teeth pulled out last week and had no grid for what entailed afterwards.. craving:

• sushi
• thai food
• indian food
• phils
• vallartas or any other mexican joint

• captives
• prisoners

You have set me free! only You can set them free.

• i carry favor
• i attract favor
• i am favorited

there we go, jeane

• don't water down the Gospel, Jeane
• don't settle for less, Jeane
• don't compromise the Truth to satisfy the status quo, Jeane

i have a tendency to overuse, rather than underuse, products

• toothpaste
• pasta sauce
• contact solution
• primer
• shampoo
• conditioner
• napkins
• coffee grinds
• face mask

I've been asking Jesus to teach me how to pray and he's been giving me people to pray for

• 할머니
• 고모
• 아빠
• 세인
• J
• J
• J
• H
• K
• J
• O
• N
• S
• T
• family

• genuine laugher
• my sense of humor

• hegemonic masculinity
• hegemonic femininity

where is that fine line?

• prostitutes
• tax collectors
• drug addicts
• new age hippies
• religious
• depressed
• oppressed

i want to Love them; teach me, oh Lord. i want to hang out with them and be friends with them and love them and laugh with them and eat with them and love on them and honor them

• them old collar bones.

• wash the cats
• possibly clean out pond
• yard watering
• 20$ unlimited yoga
• washington trips

• people (now) :)
• animals
• the outdoors
• nature
• You
• people who are passionate about what they do
• people who have fun
• people who make mistakes
• alot of things
• weird and amiable
• real
• healthy
• getting my paper done in an hour after i say "if i work really hard, i can finish this in 2 hours"

• passport
• updated glasses
• nkjv
• sozo

• you are SAINTS
  • NOT sinners

With love, there we have it family. This is truth for all those who believe and know Truth.

• love
  • 1 John 4:8
• life
  • John 14:6
• light
  • 1 John 1:5

just to be simple; hehehe

• 12
• 27

• confidence
• authority

so determine it, settle it, decide it.

• finding a home church
• back to working
• losing all the weight i gained in college, plus some
• studying chemistry
• dont lose sight of love in the best possible thing in the world
• maybe summer school via walk-ins
• harbor study guide in acts ch. 1-5
• picking up the clarinet
• permit. license. drive. no failing please

i had all these goals winter quarter but i failed almost all of them. HAH except maybe 1 or 2 of them, which is still good. the goal: be as emaciated yet healthy as possible failed miserably. in fact, i gained 20 pounds. but in a lot of senses, i am so much more hopeful and optimistic than i used to be.

NEW GOALS~

• be genuinely nicer and graceful to the boys of 707
  • in fact, all boys that im quite abusive to
• study efficiently
  • and effectively
• must lose 20 pounds
  • together... yeah i hate numbers
• get my act and future together

i need to work to get rid of all of these pet peeves but ...

• when people yawn without covering their mouths
  • and make unnecessary sounds with that
• when people cough without covering their mouths
  • im not in a hurry to get sick myself
  • i simply think its gross
• when people sit on my clothe
• when people borrow my belongings and dont return them
• when my or others jean pockets are sticking out
• extreme cases of PDA
• when my already bad skin breaks out even more
• when people make alot of (unecessary) noise while chewing or eating

im not saying all of these into one super male is ideal but i look at these qualities. His...

• intelligence
• wit
• sense of humor
• height
• maturity
• insights
• responsibility
• preferences
• goals
• ambition
• sarcasm
• degree of meanness
• hands
• what kinds of books he reads
• passions
• love to learn
• style
• faith & trust

• Yogurt
  • siamese mix/ color point short hair
  • apple head
  • seal lynx point siamese
  • neutered and fat at ~12 pounds
  • sweet only at night, when he wants it
  • hates my father with a passion
  • hates being held
  • does a bangbang trick and rolls over
  • has a predictable pattern of hissing and meowing
  • personality changes almost 180 degrees from bringing him home
  • could be compared to a boyfriend
    • sweet at night
    • comes to you when he wants
    • etc, i just cant think of anything else at the moment
  • hates most people and strangers

• restoration
• reconciliation

wasn't sick the whole quarter cause of built up immunity, but with all my business, my body couldn't hold anymore! thankful for:

• that my paper was due while i was just getting sick
• 20 hours of sleep
• ginger+lemon tea
• grace
• so.much.grace.wow
• the long weekend
• having a single during the long weekend
• still being able to taste and enjoy food
• Daddy-Daughter time while sick

• the first thing that would cross my mind as i woke up -consciously or unconsciously- "fuck. fuck. fuck. shit. shit. shit."
• the first thing that crosses my mind now as i wake up -consciously or unconsciously- singing praises to my God, waking up with thanks and adoration

for the day will come.

• pimps
• jons
• corrupt policemen
• power hungry politicians
• victims alike
• buyers

meet your Maker. He loves you.

belly up tavern, solana beach, ca

• tingsek
• yuna
• allen stone

swooned. allen stone, that white soul!

• the wingtip
• the height
• the heart
• the ambition
• the brain
• the willingness
• the respect
• the character

out of appreciation

• friends who study til dawn with me
• people who pray for me

• a home
• a Home
• fans and ac
• inspirations and inspirational people
• brothers and sisters
• energy saving lightbulbs
• people who enjoy spending time with me
• a good relationship with my mother
• favor
• the Kenya Team shifting atmospheres, loving on prostitutes, widows, and orphans
• renewal of the mind
• quench of the Spirit
• satisfaction of continual, complete, endless LOVE
• sonship & friendship

i found myself complaining and thinking negatively a lot these days. realizing that ive become much more passive aggressive than before. so decided to spend some time giving Thanks

• a working body
• work
• being a full time student
• San Diego
• healthy grieving processes
• dreams
• Dreams
• my naturally straight and healthy teeth
• not ever having cavities
• You
• YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU
• new surf board
• my spontaneous personality
• the bed that i am laying in
• Honda Insight
• genuine laughs

• SSII - law&culture
• trips over his own feet often
• stutters at times
• passionate and knowledgeable
• clear in explanations
• no breaks
• slightly boring
• wants to end class early

sickwidit

• nevermind, he doesn't end class early.
• we still don't take breaks
• who doesnt love 3 hour lectures..

• OT
• minus 20
• $$$
• A x4

• jesus
• a night's well rest

• today Jesus told me that He loves my laughs and the way i laugh
  • i asked, which one?
• He said, all of them, even your obnoxious loud ones
  • (the ones that i consider obnoxious -- my loud bursts of purposefully annoying ones HEHEHE :) )

i am NOT an orphan.

• soc department academic advising
  • schedule our rest of my college career
  • summer school at sd and fjc/mtsac
• porttriton asap
• email sg girls
• clean room
• check book

just a few self reminders:

• ✔ card$ & hour sheet$
• ✔ buy an agenda from the bookstore
• write letters
• buy clothes for S
• clean and organize stuff from last year
• ✔ make appointment on saturday 17th
• ✔ monday, week0 snorkeling adventure with J
• ✔ tuesday & thursday, 10am last chiro sesh
• ✔ lab safety for mpl 9/15 or 9/28
  • ✔ make appointment on blink2tritonlink

Matthew 10:8

• Heal - the sick
• Cleanse - the lepers
• Raise - the dead
• Cast Out - demons

• in the FULLNESS
• not just spurts

• lover
• leader

• hi i have changed
• hi i am changing
• hi i will be changing some more
• let the lists begin (again)

BANDS I SAW (whole sets, partial sets, some extremely satisfied, others not):

Friday, April 16:

• DJ Lance Rock (aka Yo Gabba Gabba!)
• As Tall As Lions
• Sleigh Bells
• Yeasayer
• She & Him
• Passion Pit
• Grizzly Bear
• LCD Soundsystem
• Little Dragon
• Jay Z
• Deadmau5

Saturday, April 17:

• Rx Bandits
• Portugal the Man
• Girls
• The Temper Trap
• Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

I really dont think ive had that many pets throughout my 18 years of life

Dogs:

• Skippy
  • dalmatian
  • probably had him when i was around ~3-4??
  • lived in west co. condominium
  • not smart at all
  • i think we kept him for a very very short period of time
  • a gift when already full grown
  • i just remember that he would poo in circles and once dropped his bone in his poo
• Sharp Tooth
  • korean jindo/ 진돗개
  • lived in west co. condominium
  • dad brought him home one late night
  • intelligent

• i really enjoy comfortable silence
• i could watch animal documentaries for hours and hours
• my favorite veggie is corn, potato comes close after
• i like doing errands with my mother
• im trying to be a better sister to shane
• call me a converted cat lady
• why yes, i am full of contradictions
• i think i have one of the worst sleeping patterns out of everyone i know
• i love it when people run their fingers through my hair
• i have never had a boyfriend in my 18 years of life
• i have only actually liked one guy ever before
  • but i have alot of crushes here and there
• im scared that im becoming an insomniac, ...

winter quarter '10:

• gradesgradesgrades
  • do more than just pass
  • 4-5 classes
  • study more than 2 hours a day
• better time management
  • sleep like a normal person consistently
  • no last minute shit
• become as emaciated, yet healthy, as possible
  • 114 pounds
• closer relationship to God
• $$$$$$$$$$$$
• hopefulness
  • realistic-pessimistic+optimistic+opportunist=me
  • ^ goal 2009 (still working on it)