ok so i have intense daddy issues and it's fucking my life up and i m just sO tired of being like this bUT at the same time i m still acting like this and fuck fuck this shit i am also fat and ugly and i just want to stop existing for a while just a while FUCK

shit i do that rly defines me as someone with daddy issues as found on google:

be insecure --> rly just the basis of everything actly

push the boy i like to another girl

bc better i push than i try and keep and he leaves bc he finds out other girls r better right

drop the boi at the first sign of trouble :'~) fuck

get jealous

tryna bask in the attention of other boys bc the boy i like doesnt give a shit about me and i need attention bc im an attention whore

get possessive and clingy real fast real intensely :'~)

and i dont freaking have enough female friends fuck how do i make female friends

feel inferior to everyone

fears getting dropped every single second

fears fucking shit up

fears dragging the boi down

fears not being adequate enough for the boy

fears being unwanted

ok ya i should probably put this under a list of fears instead bc man this reads weird man

fears i have every fucking day:

ok well im tired and i have a headache so another day mayb

BYE

(23 Aug 2018)

hodaym the amount of self hate just bc of a little stupidity and a boy who wasnt suitable like daymmmmmmmm update: i am better now i love myself more now i think