- I miss you. I feel stupid cos I don't know why I don't hear from you anymore, I don't know if something happened to you or if this is your way of ditching me.
- I guess I just feel lonely and I've been going out late and just crying while walking around. I guess my mom got pissed off at me so she threw out a bunch of my shit and I threw my own hissy fit and now my room is covered with broken glass and whatnot. I'm too tired to clean it up. Well if things get really bad I can always go sleep at the internet cafe. I'm trying not to play the shitty passive aggressive game of "let's see how much we can hurt each other" with my mom but we're both pros at it so ha ha it's hard.
- I've been sniffing way too much ketamine. I got really high and sick and I thought I was going to vomit out my soul. It was interesting. A really nice distraction. Everything looked like a flip book animation. I'm sad so I've been having crazy bad k holes. Usually when I k hole I just kinda sit there and daze out and I'm just like, "bruh I'm fuckin high" but apparently I've been crying and crying while I'm in a k hole and afterwards when I sober up I don't really remember what happened but I'm still crying and I came home late last night doing the walk of shame- make up half off, eyelashes in my pocket and only one contact in.
- I dreamt about you that night. It felt so fucking real. I woke up and reality hadn't sunk in yet. I felt fine. My heart dropped once it did.
jan 7 2015 ∞
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