• Cartel
• Suicide girls
• Skulls
• William Beckett, again
• The L Word, again
• Writing in my journal
• Drawing/coloring in my journal
• Hello Kitty
• Thinking about my next tattoo
• Thinking about her, unfortunately

• The color. It's not the chick magnet red I wanted, but it's cute.
• The radio buttons on the steering wheel!!
• The radio.
• The cool purple light on the inside.
• The little mazda design on the steering wheel.
• That I can move the steering wheel up and down, back and forth.
• The lights.
• The trunk.
• Everything!!!!!

• My mom. I wish she wouldn't worry about me so much and I wish she could understand that it's not her fault. She has done everything I could ever ask for and more.
• My dad and my brother and sister for always inspiring me.
• My cousins. I wish that I could give them everything. They make me happy.
• Phuong Theresa for being an amazing BFF and listening to me when I talk and being patient when I can't.
• Nick for always encouraging me, even when I don't wanna hear it.
• Jackie & Kristina, the best roommates you could ever ask for. We've got a lot of crazy stories to tell, good and bad.
• Vanessa for taking the words right out of my mouth on so many occasions. And for giving me a bed to sleep in when I've really needed it.
• Old friends that have been there through ...

(rereading this after I wrote it, I realize I could have just put MONEY)

• I have to buy books & art supplies & gas and all my parents gave me is $250.
• Finally had a job I wanted and it fell through.
• I need to find a fucking job.
• The stupid school hasn't processed my loan stuff.
• I don't know what my Draping teacher is talking about.
• I have Algebra homework.
• The mere fact that I have to take this damn Algebra class.
• I have a long weekend and no plans, besides HW.
• I want to pierce something or get another tattoo because it will make me feel better but I don't have money.
• I wish I was at a show right now.
• Cafeteria food sucks and I also don't hav...

• Watch lots of movies.
• Read.
• Sew something pretty.
• Finish my jacket & other uncompleted projects.
• Get some community service hours.
• Go to the gym everyday again.
• Be happy. :]

(yeah this again, but its fun)

• Don't talk about my friends. I don't like yours either!
• I hate how cheap and dirty you made me feel.
• I can't stand him, you could do so much better.
• I'm disappointed at how easily your "love" can be bought.
• I'm really happy for you, but sometimes I'm a little jealous and scared that I will lose you to him. And I couldn't stand to lose you again.
• When you asked me what I was thinking and I said nothing, I was thinking that I might love you.
• I wish we still hung out. You're one of the coolest boys I've known, and I'm sorry I fucked it up.
• I feel guilty about not feeling guilty for what we did.

• Hold my hand
• Mess with my hair
• Make me laugh
• Tickle me
• Hug me tight
• Squeeze my hips
• Kiss me slowly
• Call me for no reason
• Notice something I'm wearing
• Tell me what they're thinking
• Listen to me

• Margarita Pizza
• "The boy"
• Shotgun
• Water droplet noise
• An American in Paris
• Cinematic Sunrise
• "Here in my Car"
• Indians downtown

• Sex and the City
• Counting down the days till Nick comes
• Lucky Charms
• Wanting more tattoos
• Thinking about summer
• Agyness Deyn

(not that I would get all of these)

• The Bayside bird
• Lightning bolt on my arm
• heart with a peace sign
• A Beatles song lyric
• A ring matching with someone
• An anklet
• A strawberry
• Small wings at the back of the neck
• A bow on the wrist

• Fashion designer
• Personal Stylist
• Costume Designer
• Actress
• Writer
• Editor for a fashion magazine
• Club owner
• Teacher
• Bum
• Trophy wife
• Groupie

• Dancing like a dumbass the entire drive there.
• The cool sea breeze driving over the bridge.
• Meeting hot guys from Trinity.
• Jumping in the freezing cold pool at 5 AM.
• Getting in the club for free.
• The guy that said "damn, I thought that was a horse".
• When Jackie dropped it low in the hot tub.
• Dancing by the pool.
• When that random guy gave Vanessa a ride on his motorcycle.
• Eating at that amazing sea food restaurant.
• Watching the sunset while talking on the phone with Nick.
• When the annoying girl with the fake boobs fell off her chair.

• Listening to The Killers very loudly in my car.
• The Kelly videos. http://www.youtube.com/user/liamkylesull...
• Rereading Twilight.
• Admiring my most recent tattoo.
• Counting down the days until spring break.
• Admiring a certain someone from afar.
• Hot chocolate.
• Will & Grace reruns.
• Checking mugglenet too much for movie updates.

• The Beatles
• No Doubt (YAY!!!!)
• A Perfect Circle
• Tegan & Sara
• Blink 182
• Brand New (i'm doomed to never see them)
• Bright Eyes
• Death Cab for Cutie
• Eisley
• Incubus
• The Killers (I could die happy)

• The crazy long bus rides home freshman year with Sylvia, Hannah, and Jeysel.
• Skipping class with Vanessa.
• Stalking boys during B lunch with Vanessa.
• Sleepovers with Sylvia, eating junk food and playing DDR.
• Couch Chat!
• The Thriller dance at competition.
• Going to see Mean Girls for April's birthday with a ton of people.
• The Magical Wall and all the magic that happened there.
• Drawing with sidewalk chalk all over the wall.
• Theater 3 with April, John, Vika and Allison.
• "Alice in Wonderland"
• My 16th surprise birthday party Phuong & Nichole threw me.
• Skipping class to hang out with Doug and ...

• Girls that give Fashion majors a bad name.
• Studying for tests.
• When people don't do the things they say they will.
• Being a poor college student who will have to spend the rest of her life paying off ridiculous student loans.
• Girls that change their voices/entire personalities when around the guy they like.
• Girls that talk about their boyfriends all the time.
• Stop signs.
• When people ask me for advice.
• Being so indecisive.
• The obnoxious 12 to 17 year old girls at concerts that are only there because they think the lead singer of the band is hot and only know the singles.
• My erratic mood swings.

• Megan Fox lol
• Moulin Rouge
• Harry Potter
• Counting down till July
• Forgive Durden
• Lady (madame) Gaga
• Kuromi
• Twitter (oh no!)
• Thinking/worrying about Senior Collection
• Getting drunk haha
• Being a bum/enjoying my summer

• Generally, I despise all men to whom I feel superior, and all women to whom I don't.
• I love the awkwardness of falling in love.
• Please find comfort in knowing that 'Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt...'
• I've loved you since this picture was taken.
• No one knows the real me.
• I'm ready to lose everything because I've found the people worth failing with.
• When i'm not hating you for not sharing my secret, I'd like to think that you think it is far too special a secret to share.
• I have a secret inside me. It hurts like hell, and I want to let it out. But I don't know what it is.
• I want my face to be infallibly carved wi...

• Sigur Rós
• The song "Saeglopur" by Sigur Rós
• Tegan and Sara
• The William Beckett Blog
• Barack Obama and his charismatic-ness
• Rereading Deathly Hallows
• Ellen Page and everything about her
• Staying up way too late
• Sleeping in late
• Not having class till 1:30
• Mozzarella sticks
• Counting down the days till my bday/new car
• Getting stoked for High School Musical 3
• Getting stoked for The L Word season 5 on DVD
• Watching my fav movies
• Not thinking about her (as much)

(not that it takes very much to make me cry lol)

• Titanic (haha)
• A Walk to Remember
• LotR: Return of the King (shut up)
• Requiem for a Dream
• Forrest Gump (i'm serious lol)
• Artificial Intelligence
• What Dreams May Come

• The L Word cause its addicting.
• Shane from the L Word cause shes hot.
• Bananas for breakfast.
• The snooze button.
• Spacing out during class to doodle. :[
• Afternoon naps.
• The Jonas Brothers.
• The Sounds.
• Counting down the days till warped tour!!
• Being depressed about my poorness.

• breakfast foods
• the natural smell of a boy
• chocolate
• my cabbage patch doll
• "Paris" perfume
• clean laundry
• food smells that match the taste
• wine
• green apples
• that after rain smell
• new car
• frosting

• Hes coming to visit me in May!
• He came to visit me and we had an amazing time.
• He compliments me on the little things.
• He tickles me.
• He talks too much, and too loud.
• He sends me good movies!
• He doesn't smother me.
• He understands I need to take breaks from people every once in a while.
• He has his v-card.
• He has my v-card.
• He has the most contagious laugh I have ever heard.
• He lives across the country and yet I have had more fun with him than with some of the people I see everyday.
• He listens to me complain without feeling like he needs to comfort me.
• He always knows when something is wrong just by the sound of my voice, even when I...

(here is my attempt at being positive on a daily basis)

• April 1- Paramore playing "We were born for this" and thinking this is exactly what I live for. =]
• April 2- Catching up on my mugglecast episodes all day long.
• April 3- "He looks like a womanizer" says Jackie.
• April 4- The delicious shrimp I had for lunch.
• April 5- Sony Cybershot !
• April 6- Picnic in Brackenridge Park
• April 7- "You can always use a DILDO!" says Jackie, very loudly in the middle of the street.
• April 8- Finding my old mix cds.
• April 9- Bayside and the amazing happiness their music fills me with.
• April 10- Phuong Theresa & Rich visiting me randomly!

• Textiles
• Pattern 1
• Fashion Illustration 2
• Math for Retail Buying
• College Algebra
• Acting in Everyday Life (just for fun)

Thats two more math classes than I would like. :[

• I have too much homework/stuff to do.
• I don't get to sit around leisure reading like I've been doing all semester.
• My desire for alcohol seems to have vanished.
• I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow.
• I feel like i'm being ignored and left out and I don't understand what I did wrong.
• It's not May.

• Uneven numbers
• The letter y
• When my playlist doesn't have the name of the artist
• Thick socks
• Fake tans
• The last bit of cereal in the box
• Chapped lips
• Plain black band tee shirts
• Most Asian foods
• When my pictures aren't organized in folders
• When I can hear the other person someone is talking to on the phone because they're so loud
• Crowd surfers
• Awkward silences
• Melted cheese on my sandwiches, unless its a grilled cheese
• People who freak out when I say I don't eat burgers or drink soda

• Joseph Gordon-Levitt
• Jason Schwartzman
• Natalie Portman
• Elijah Wood
• Gael Garcia Bernal
• Emile Hirsch
• Jonathan Rhys-Meyers
• Ewan Mcgregor
• James Franco
• Michael Cera
• Claire Danes
• Kate Winslet
• Audrey Tatou
• Evan Rachel Wood
• Kirsten Dunst
• Zach Braff
• Rachel Bilson
• Jude Law
• Mark Wahlberg
• Naomi Watts
• Josh Hartnett

• Nick is coming to visit me in May!
• I'm going to Tennessee.
• Portus 2008 with Phuong!
• Road trip with Nichole.
• Warped Tour!
• I get to work and make money.
• I get to not work and lounge around instead.
• I get to live at the gym. :]

• Metro Station (work out jams)
• Motion City Soundtrack (best cd ever)
• Bayside (old school)
• Olympia (driving music)
• The Postal Service (best love songs ever)
• Kimya Dawson (thanks Juno soundtrack)
• Eisley (lost & found)
• Jonas Brothers (guilty pleasure)

• She wears ghetto eyeliner.
• She says fool, with an emphasis on the l.
• She calls people "bitch snapz".
• She's from Laredo.
• She wears purple sweat pants.
• She sticks her tongue out and says "ahhhh".
• She wears her bun really high.
• She always sings the rap part in songs.
• She wants to throw stuff when shes angry.
• She gets low at the club.
• She isn't really ghetto.

• Halloween costume or make it? Uhura?
• Hooker boots
• Pipe
• Petticoats for 3-4 dresses
• More fabric
• "The Purity Myth"
• "Listen Up!"
• The L Word Season 3
• Birthday dress or make it?
• Bag for school

• Phuong being amazing in general. Getting bird tattoos. Randomly visiting me. Planning her birthday party. Obsessing over Twilight. Crying. Laughing. Being my BFF.
• Nick being hilarious and awesome and gay. Him coming to visit me in May. Listening to me bitch about everything and never getting tired of me. Being my diary that talks back.
• Nessa being my twin and taking the words out of my mouth. Having a room for me in her house. Telling me what I need to hear, not just what I want to hear.
• Monique being beautiful. Telling it like it is. Remembering whats really important.
• Spring Break in Padre with my roommates.
• All the crazy stuff my roommates and I did, just enjoying our "college experience".
• The Academy Is. How amazing they're music...

(I tried to put these in chronological order)

• Monique crawling up the stairs on my 18th birthday.
• Sylvia's bachlorette party at the Bonham.
• Vanessa's 20th.
• Texas Vodka.
• All those ridiculous Thursday nights at Antro.
• Always being hung over/drunk in Apparel on Fridays.
• That random Halloween party with Vanessa last year.
• Phuong's Halloween party last year.
• My birthday last year, so drunk I got lost at Posh.
• That night Crystal's friend got us vodka from some guy.
• The super bowl party, with Jackie walking into walls.

• The Kooks
• Teddy Geiger
• Ugly Betty
• The Smashing Pumpkins
• The song "The Test" by the Academy Is
• Christopher Gorham and his adorable geekness on Ugly Betty
• Living off honey nut cheerios & fruit
• Being really organized all of a sudden
• My awesomely comfy body pillow
• Looking on urbanoutfitters.com at stuff I can't buy
• Stride sweet berry flavored gum
• Daydreaming about her

• Doubting myself so much. "The only person that can diminish you is yourself".
• Dwelling on all the bad stuff.
• Being so lost in my own thoughts & not opening up to anyone.
• No more random hook ups. Ever.
• Complaining.
• Settling.
• Being more productive. Write more, sew more, draw more.
• Working out every day again.
• Trying new things, duh.
• Smiling more.
• Saying what i'm feeling when i'm feeling it, and not later.
• Picking out all my flaws.
• Comparing myself to other people.
• Feeling like i'm not good enough.
• Being more responsible about my money.

• June 1- Sea Island.
• June 2- New phone!!
• June 3- Obama wins!
• June 4- Team Edward shirts!
• June 5- The adorable dress I bought.
• June 6- Sex & the City baby. ;]
• June 7- Drinking with mexicans.
• June 8- Six Flags with Nessa!
• June 9- Velvet Goldmine in bed. <3
• June 10- Making Phuong watch Sex & the City.
• June 11- Lunch with my new friend.
• June 12- The awesome distraction that the hot guy in class provided.
• June 13- The Incredible Hulk.
• June 14- Grandma's 80th & dancing silly with the cousins.
• June 15- My cousin Yosandy.
• June 16- Nick's drunken phone call.
• June 17- Talking about boys with Stephanie.

(not saying I don't do some of these myself)

• Make me feel like my feelings/worries/concerns are stupid or irrational, even if they are.
• Complain a lot.
• Talk about their significant others all the time.
• Feel sorry for themselves.
• Don't do the things they say they will.
• Flake out on plans/aren't dependable.
• Be overly dramatic and make a big deal out of nothing.
• Ask me for relationship advice, as if I'm experienced or something.
• Tell me not to cry.
• Get offended easily.
• Relate my problems to their own, instead of just listening.
• Beat around the bush.
• Lecture me. I have parents k thanks.

• May 1- Hanging out with Vanessa Jean all day long. :]
• May 2- Chillin with the neighbors.
• May 3- "Three Days of Rain"
• May 4- Dinner.
• May 5- The "Twilight" trailer.
• May 6- My nice long nap.
• May 7- Being done with fashion show production!!
• May 8- Pizza with the roomies.
• May 9- Being done with school!!
• May 10- How cool my room is starting to look.
• May 11- My mom's face when I got her really pretty flowers.
• May 12- Gossip Girl!!
• May 13- Spending the day with Phuongy T.
• May 14- Ice cream with Monique
• May 15- Getting my hair did.
• May 16- The awesome nail polish I bought.

• "Hold your head high heavy hearts." -The Academy Is...
• "The past is only the future with the lights on" - Plus 44
• "Waste all your time with me. I know I'm a mess right now, but don't give up, believe." - Armor for Sleep
• "I hate myself for loving you like this, and I hate myself for hating myself just enough to love you. " - Bayside
• "The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most. So i'll bit my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know". - Bayside
• "If you hear this and you think you're ready, then meet me in Montauk where we'll write out in the sand, Here lies the destiny of two hurt souls afraid to be cured again. That could be our epitaph." - Bayside
• "I'm all torn at the seams just like you ...

• Psychology of Clothing consultant project
• Fashion Show Production group notebook
• Fashion Illustration final project
• Jacket for Apparel 2
• Study like crazy for Costume History final

:[

• Procrastinating. (I'm getting much better about this!!)
• Complaining so much.
• Snacking between meals.
• Focusing on my flaws.
• Focusing on other people's flaws.

(things to do before I die)

• Live in a foreign country.
• Travel. A lot.
• Write a book.
• Inspire someone.
• Fall in love.
• Run a marathon.
• Design a collection.
• Have my own store.
• Be a groupie.
• Learn to play an instrument.
• Learn 2 more languages.

• writing papers
• tests
• school, in general
• not being taken seriously
• boys that don't get the hint
• a slow computer
• ignorance
• girls that need guys to be happy
• being emotional
• society's standards of beauty
• people who don't vote
• people who don't like harry potter without reading it
• people who don't read
• people who don't watch movies
• forgetfulness
• never finding a pen when i need one
• losing things

(besides party)

• Write my Costume History research paper.
• Catch up on my sketchbook for Fashion Illustration.
• Start my fabric design project.
• Work out.
• Start tackling my massive movies to see list.
• Go to the library and get some leisure reading books.
• Finish making my quilt.
• Find a good home for our Labrador puppy we can't keep. :[
• Decorate my fashion doll centerpiece for the show.
• Take someone to go eat at W.D. Deli.
• Get bubble tea from Thong's Thai!

• Not having to worry about money.
• Having friends to do sober things with.
• Spending a weekend watching movies.
• Spending a weekend sewing something that isn't for school.
• Theater, theater, theater.
• Nichole.
• Having a Harry Potter book to look forward to.
• Spending time with my cousins.
• Friends from SAC. Mostly just one.
• When boys weren't always trying to get laid. Or at least, when I was naive enough to not think so.

• I listen to excessive amounts of Dido and Bright Eyes.
• I ignore phone calls for no reason.
• All I want to do is sleep.
• I do homework.
• I don't pay attention when people are talking to me.
• I watch movies like Amelie and Eternal Sunshine.
• I call Vanessa.
• I start living in my sweat pants.
• My room is extra messy.
• I talk even less than usual.

• A long hot shower.
• To not have to study.
• To sleep until Spring Break.
• A phone call to distract me.
• A new dress.
• Someone to hold my hand.