big and small things that put me on the mend

• being alone
• chocolate pudding from tartine
• cooking a big fancy meal for myself
• staying in my pajamas
• re-reading a favorite book in one sitting
• cigarettes
• eavesdropping
• going for a walk in north beach (where there's no chance of running into anyone i know)
• the mona lisa restaurant in north beach by myself (the waiters there always tell me i'm beautiful and bring me something special free when i go there alone)
• re-watching favorite sappy movies
• not answering my phone
• watching tourists in and around union square
• cupcakes
• looooooong showers
• buying new art supplies
• haircuts
• drinking a full pot of coffee
• endless journaling
• good long cries