you might ask yourself why i'm suddenly posting a letter for you— which i used to only do when i felt terribly sad knowing our feelings will never be mutual (this was when we were still not dating, of course) in which i abruptly stopped because i felt my words weren't always enough to explain how happy you make me feel. and this letter is not an exception though. i will probably say the same thing on the next paragraphs. i am sorry i can not express my happiness and gratitude i strongly feel with you. but the truth is, being with you was the only time i've ever been happy. if there were corners of my mind that sort memories to happiest and saddest moments, i'd say that most of my moments with you were the happiest moments of my life. i treasure the days we stayed up until 6 am, mostly talking about random things and sometimes sleepiness slowly kicking in yet we still stayed up until my mom's alarm goes off. do you remember when we had a talk early in the morning, on the first day of january— the very first morning spent with you after being official, the very first morning of a love i never thought i would have. knowing you were finally mine to say i love you with and to hug was enough for that day to be the warmest and one of the happiest !!!! wait teka ok so ayon nga ito na di na naman ako seryoso sa pagsasalita pero nevertheless !!!!!!!!!! alam ‘kong kahit ano pang language gamitin ko sa pagsusulat para sayo ay hindi padin ‘yon sapat para maparamdam lahat ng pagmamahal ‘ko sayo. honestly,,, the conversations we had were deleted since i deactivated, pero it’s lovely how i could still remember everything, i could still feel all the times i felt nervous,, happy,, kilig && everything else when we used to talk as strangers up to the present days. naalala ko namaman teammate ‘ko pag ginagawa ko mga thread pero shet:( ngayon ‘ko lang talaga ‘to naramdaman sa iisang tao and if i didn’t meet you, making stupid choices along the way i wouldn’t have known my heart was capable of loving someone this strong it has been only fourteen days since we started dating and ‘di man lang ako naniniwala sa tadhana (i do pero sometimes i think it’s bullshit) pero i believe na soulmates tayo dahil it feels like it’s been forever. it’s been different since you came into my life and hindi ‘ko man lang napansin na andaming nagbago dahil sayo. changes that i didn’t know i needed. changes i wouldn’t have thought my life could become better, and i could become happier. i never knew i’d be writing long ass paragraphs to someone without any occasion. pero nagawa ko lahat ng hindi ko inaakala na magagawa ko dahil sayo. it’s like an entire side of me opened up when you came and ikaw lang may access non, it’s so weird and comforting at the same time. since di ‘ko expect na sayo ko ‘to mararamdaman lahat and i find home in you andaming magsasabi na they’ll be there for you whenever you have problems pero i’ll be here for you in any way. hindi lang sa taas, hindi lang sa baba. i’ll be here for you the entire road,, and hanggang sa huli. hinding hindi kita iiwan kahit ano pang mangyari D: informed ka sna because of the way you make me feel i’ve written excerpts of stories i’ve never heard of. basta tangina paulit ulit na ‘ko joke di ko sure basta sana alam mong mahal na mahal kita T—T alam mo bang sA TUWING KASAMA MK KO SA TUWING KASAMA KOTA AMININ MO NA TAYONG DALAWA AY BAGAY okay nagkalat na ‘ko sorry aken di ko lang matiis eh peo last na ‘to ALAM MO MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA BABY WAG KA NANG MAG ALINLANGAN PA <33333333333333333