we both know na its been really tiring the past few days, and sa totoo lang gusto ko lang maglabas ng pakiramdam dito, kaya nahulog tonf post na to xd ayon nga, sa totoo lang ikaw lang yung nakakapagpasaya at nakakabuo sakin lately. talking to u, parang nalilimutan at nawawala lahat ng problema ko. gumagaan pakiramdam ko bigla pag alam kong nandyan ka para sakin, at dahil saakin ka mismo :( sobrang mahal na mahal kita i hope u know that, kahit di na talaga sapat yung mga salita para maexpress ko gaano kamahal pa yan. u have no idea how much u mean to me and how much i need u :( sobrang sanay na talaga akong ikaw yung nandyan para sakin, natatakot na ako kapag nawala ka :( maski sinasabi natin sa isat isa na walang magbrebreak, may dulo naman ang lahat. sorry ang negative pero wala na talagang pumupuno aa utak ko kung di mga nakakaiyak na thoughts kaya sorrymasen xd ayon nga. pls Pls alam k...

so ayun mukhang mapapagaya ako sa teammate ko na may thread sa hating gabi tungkol sa mahal niya sa buhay pero wala akong pake ito nauwian ko at paninindigan ko. hshshs parang nung nakaraan lang nirisk ko lahat para sa lalaking ‘to. i risked everything ??? literally. i confessed abt what i truly felt kahit alam kong may consequences yon ++ alam kong maaring mabalewala nararamdaman ko, pero wala. i liked him so much i risked everything sobrang daming ups and downs,, legit. it hasn’t even been long pero andami nang nangyari. hshshs. it felt like i’ve known him for a long time— ganito ba soulmates?? chour. nangakong walang sukuan, walang iwanan. and di ko man lang sinabi pero i promise to give you the world bc u deserve it. bakit ang haba bigla n2 omg akala ko iiklian ko lang pERO AYON. ang bilis ng lahat,,, pero sigurado na talaga ako sayo. though there will be times talaga na sobran...

you might ask yourself why i'm suddenly posting a letter for you— which i used to only do when i felt terribly sad knowing our feelings will never be mutual (this was when we were still not dating, of course) in which i abruptly stopped because i felt my words weren't always enough to explain how happy you make me feel. and this letter is not an exception though. i will probably say the same thing on the next paragraphs. i am sorry i can not express my happiness and gratitude i strongly feel with you. but the truth is, being with you was the only time i've ever been happy. if there were corners of my mind that sort memories to happiest and saddest moments, i'd say that most of my moments with you were the happiest moments of my life. i treasure the days we stayed up until 6 am, mostly talking about random things and sometimes sleepiness slowly kicking in yet we still stayed up until my m...

one . hello :D happy birthday ulit, so ayon sa totoo lang anong gagawin ko sa fucking 8 posts ayoko naman mag lsm na 8 na mahahaba ano ako si monica chour siguro ilalapag ko nalang lahat ng mga nisulat ko before dati for you, or kaya song lyrics nalang talaga kasi tangina HBSHSBSHSBSH okay so :D una, thank you sa lahat !! like as in, alam kong sobrang difficult kong tao, alam akong basahin. sinasabi ko na sayo, huwag na. di mo na kailangan. i’ll tell you what i feel, i promise you that. okay? huwag ka na mag alala. i’m sorry din for the times na naging pasaway ako, madami dami yon pero alam mo na din kung ano tinutukoy ko :] huwag ka na magselos din ok alam kong mahirap yon pero alam mo ikaw lang naman talaga mahal ko :(( tignan mo minarkahan mk na ako :((( HSBBSBSBSBS i love you panget <3____<3 alam mo sabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi na kita aasarin pero anong gagawin ko ang cute cute m...

hi, hi panget:(( wala lang surprise talaga dapat ‘tong feed na ‘to kaso masyado akong madaldal eh HSHSHSHS so ayon. soft hours ko nanaman, andami kong gustong sabihin sayo harap harapan at hindi sa letter na ganito pero honestly nahihiya ako HSHSHSHSHSHSH alam kong hindi kapanipaniwala yon pero what do i do :(( whenever i talk to you bumibilis pag takbo ng puso ko and i get frustrated. parang dati lang, it hasn’t changed eh. andon padin yung pakiramdam ng pagkacrush ko sayo hays <33 the both of us haven’t been in our bests lately, halata naman. and thank you sobra for staying, you know i’m not the best girlfriend and hindi ko magawa yung maayos minsan, pero you choose to stay maski na. i love you so much, hindi ko alam kung ilang beses kong uulit ulitin yan para lang maramdaman mo yung pagmamahal ko sayo ng sagad. i don’t knkw how many times gusto kong umiyak sa pagod, pero hin...

maybe you’ve expected this already, me writing to you after a day filled with exhaustion. there’s something about you— no, it’s you that makes me forget all the tiredness i feel inside of my system. whenever i think about you, my heart riles up and my mind starts to set on flames.

and that’s what i think love is, honestly.

being with you feels like i’m the protagonist of a sitcom, even quoting one of my favorite shows that i told you about awhile ago. “and it seems like leonard makes penny think more deeply about the world.” perhaps that made me tear up, just because it reminded me of the both of us.

you’ve made me feel so much, emotions that i never even knew existed. even in the field of languages, you taught and gave me meaning of words that i never heard o...

so ayon, mukhang nadagdagan na ulit yung letters after ilang days :p alam mo naman siguro na soft hours ko kasi palagi ko naman shinashare sayo HSHHDHSHS alam mo, ramdam ko talaga kasi yung kanta na gotta find you :( maybe bc that song is nostalgic for me, and isa rin yun sa firsts ko sayo. you don’t know how much you complete me, sa totoo lang :( alam kong sinasabi ko most of the time na mahal kita pero hindi lang talaga yun yon. you’re someone na i need, hindi lang dahil gusto ko. you make me become a better person, halata naman diba? you bring out the best of me sa lahat ng bagay, ikaw nagiging motivation at inspiration ko sa lahat. loving you, nahanap ko ang sarili ko lalo. pakiramdam ko kung wala ka, i’d be a mess at baka namatay na akong hindi masaya. at this point nawalan na ako ng words sa pagsusulat ko sayo, gaano kita kamahal at how thankful i am na nakilala kita.

hi 11:11 na, no? :D pakiramdam ko hindi mo ieexpect na letter isusulat ko sayo sa gabing ‘to dahil sa bet pero wala, naisip ko and i find it vv cute :p sa aking 11:11, hindi ko alam paano ko to uumpisahan sa totoo lang pero alam mo yung pakiramdam na minsan may mga bagay na masaya ka na talaga, and you’re already contented kung ano meron ka and sa tingin mo sobra na yon? yes. that pero it gets better. the happiness and the love i feel for you keeps growing patagal lang ng patagal na nakakasama kita, i don’t know if it’s a bad thing or hindi sa totoo lang. basta ang alam ko lang ay minamahal kita.

some things change along the way, hindi ko alam kung yun ba ay mas nagiging comfortable tayo sa isa’t isa, or kaya mas nagiging open na tayo sa isa’t isa about what we feel talaga sa mga certain situations. yan yung tinutukoy kong hindi ko aakalain na mas sasaya pa pala ako sayo. yo...

hi daddy :( happy sixth!!!!! kalahating taon na tayo at alam kong mas tatagal pa tayo!!!! medyo rushed tong letter pero sa totoo lang palagi na naman kita nasusulatan, di ko alam paano ko ipapakita o ipaparamdam sayo talaga ahakajka pero alam mo naman na yon. diba? na mahal na maahl kita higit pa sa sobra :D kahit na palagi tayong nagtatalo at nagpipikunan, ikaw lang talaga gusto ko at pipiliin ko. sorry wala akong prepared na excerpt for you today, alam ko namang special day natin huhuhu andami konf pinlano gawin kaso sa totoo lang :D andami kong inuna asikasuhin tapos mamaya birthday pala ni kuya ahajajs bawi nalang ako daddy :( promise yan hehehe!!!! ngayon ay 10:18 at di ka nagreply sabi ko lang pspspsps panget mo talaga!!!

susunod ko na sasabihin ay alam kong paulit ulit na ako pero please wag ka magsawa sakin :( alam kong sasabihin mo u wont pero i know u will some day, ikaw ba naman...

hi tangi happy fourth <333 alam mo, sa totoo lang akala ko ang mga relasyon ay palaging ups lang. saya saya, ganon? pero ang bobo ko naman kung ganon nasa isip ko. biro lang yon, alam kong may downs din sa relationships. ang hindi ko naexpect ay may magagawa ko yon, lalo’t na ikaw yung kasama ko malagpasan lahat ng downs na naranasan natin. it’ll keep coming pa, pero i trust us. mahal na mahal kita, daddy ko :( honestly, pakiramdam ko talagang hindi kita deserve most of the time. sobrang, sobra pa sa sobra ang pagkathankful ko kung sino man nagpala saating dalawa na magkatuluyan. kasi grabe, hindi ko ineexpect na may makikilala ako na tulad mo, pakiramdam ko hindi ko deserve. you’re so great, and if you don’t feel like you are, maniwala ka saakin when i say you’re doing more than enough. hindi lang kita boyfriend eh, you’re literally everything i asked for sa buhay. maybe i do...

nakikita mo ba gaano kita kamahal? sa loob ng dalawang araw, andaming naipon na mga salita na hindi ko maisabi sayo, kasi hindi ako makakuha ng oras, o ‘di ko lang talaga masabi sayo. sa loob ng dalawang araw, naakit mo nanaman puso ‘ko at minahal kita mas higit pa sa nakaraan. sabi mo sakin kanina, you felt like you’re failing your job as my boyfriend?? no. sobrang ekis. you should know, existence mo palang answered prayer ‘ko na yun. you being with me is already more than enough, dahil kakaiba talaga yung saya pag kasama mo yung mahal mo, at ikaw yun. you don’t know how many times i’ve felt thank you lord for sean”. sobrang gusto kong isigaw ‘yon minsan, kasi simula nung dumating ‘ka sa buhay ko kakaiba lahat. i’ve became speechless for my feelings, pero i knew that time na i’m ready to risk everything for you i knew to myself na ako na pinakatanga sa mundo kung sin...

happy third !!!!!!!!!!!! MOTMOTTTTT hehehe :DDD check mo ulit lahat ng posts may mahahanap ka at wala happy april fools chos HSHSHSHHS i’m sorry palagi akong busy sa upa :’c alam kong minsan napakaattitude ko na ang importante ay mahal padin kita maski inis na inis na ako sa mundong ‘to yayyyy joke SHSHSHSHHDHD pero no joke, mahal na mahal kita alam mo na yan. thank you sa lahat :’c thank you kasi natitiis mo pang makasama ang isang alvera huhuhu i love you po :’( sorry sa mga times na napakatigas ng ulo ko, at masyado na akong nakakainis huhuhu thank you talaga dahil andiyan ka, at tinutulungan mo ko kahit hindi mo dapat ginagawa yon :’( i am so thankful na saakin ka, pls dont leave me dahil iiyak talaga ako no joke HSHHSSH hindi ko alam ang isusulat ko dito puwede bang paulit ulit nalang na i love you dahil ????? AYOKO NA MAGDRAMA :D ok ito talaga yon, break na tayo. de joke ...

so,,, 11:11 to my favorite boy i guess??? chOUR HSHDDJGDSJHD THREAD TO TUNGKOL sa pinaka mahal kong nilalang sa mundo, si sean angelo dela cuesta. siya yung klaseng nilalang na hindi dapat ni-lalang lamang. ano. HHSSHDJDH BASTA YON TANGINA. hindi ko alam bakit ‘ko to naisipan gawin. sa totoo lang. i don’t know ilan beses pa ‘ko gagawa ng mga thread,,, o kung ano pa ba just to show my affection towards him pero whatever i do i know na hindi yun magiging enough to show what i truly feel,, and everthing else. sobrang hindi niya alam kung kaano niya nabago yung buhay ko,,, literal. i could’ve just repressed what i felt entirely pero hindi !!!! he rlly came along and changed everything and made it all better tama ba yon Ma is that possible everything happened so quick,,,, even ako sa sarili ko hindi makapaniwala i found home inside another Home. jowa ‘ko na to pero kinikilig padin ak...

hi, another letter, yes? bakit hindi. i don’t run out of words to tell you na i love you. pero this isn’t just a sweet letter. i think you’re sleeping na, and i’m glad you are. tonight, brought me alot of emotions. andami kong naramdaman towards leo and ate khione, andami ko ding nalaman na i wish never happened tonight, or ever. and if binasa mo to, you’ll probably know what happened na. hindi naman natin maiiwasan na may umalis, ‘no? hahaha :( nakakalungkot talaga siya, sobra. pero wala na naman tayong magagawa, since we all know para din to sa kinabuti ng taong umaalis, and for us na to accept it and move on. everyone comes and go, expected pero we could never prepare ourselves for someone’s departure once the day comes. and mukhang tonight, was that night and no one expected it. you know i love you, sobra. more than the word love itself pa. if you need time to process all...

hey, good morning. alam kong ang weird at unexpected ulit nito pero for some reason gusto ko lang talaga magsulat ngayon, i was looking thru my dms and nakita ko ganito huling conversation natin sa luma mong account. bobo ka na nawala mo yon pero it’s cute :( i find it so cute na maski we’re four months in already, actually 105 days na tayo today :D ayon though antagal na natin slight it’s still there?? the way you speak, nakakakilig padin and i doubt maaalis yung feelings na yon any sooner. i love you so much :( sobrang grateful ko to have someone like you, and i’m really grateful na mahal na mahal kita at napasayo ako. narealize ko lang na ang seryoso pakinggan nung letter na ‘to pero no joke :( ito talaga yung gusto ko sabihin sayo the past few days, i couldn’t bring myself to say it siguro kasi idk di ko maisip yung words?? for some reason this morning it came to me. i hope...

sabi ko next month pa ako magddrama pero ito na ulit tayo, nagsusulat sa aking notes habang di ako makatulog ): wala namang rason or occasion bakit ko to sinusulat, gusto ko lang ulit iparamdam sayo kung gaano kita kamahal dahil my life would suck without u, no joke yan so siguro most of my words here are from pink’s true love kasi ang cute talaga nh kantang yon and that would be me @ you :( ikaw na ikaw yon para sakin promise huhu i love you

simulan natin sa minsan gusto kitang sapakin??? biro JESHJSHSJSHSJSHS i’ve never met someone na kaya akong pikunin nang sobra sobra promise yan :( yung tipong konti nalang mapapasabog ka nalang :D pero grabe, at the same time gusto kitang yakapin at di ka na pakawalan ;; sobrang iba yung pagmamahal ko sayo compared to the rest and u deserve it. u deserve d best type of love <3

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i'm sorry if you got stuck up with a girl like me. i'm pretty sure i'm the girl you don't even dream about. i'm probably the available channel that you turned to at 3 am when you can't sleep. i'm probably the book in the corner because your favorite one got missing. you probably chose me because i was the only one left.

i know you'll soon leave like the passing rain and typhoon, leaving me ruined, in a state of calamity. i know you won't stay long forever in my arms. i know you wouldn't be able to resist my stupidness, so you’ll have to leave me. how unfortunate of me.

but you make me feel lovely, so stay a little bit longer. please shower me with your i love you's, please shower me with your love. please don't leave any sooner 'cause you're the oxygen i breathe, and i think i could die without your touch. so please, bare with my stupidness for awhile...

hi seansean hEHE. alam kong sabi ‘ko matutulog na ako at di ako tatakas sorry nalang ,, pero gusto ko lang talaga makapaglabas ng mga nararamdaman ‘ko and since andami mong ginagawa tapos pagod ka pa ,, di ko nalang muna sinabi. sorry in advance and i love you you don’t know how unexpected you are to me. sa totoo lang ,, i talked to ate khione about being nsa at one point kasi sabi ko i ‘m not looking for a relationship ,, and i don’t think i ‘d end up actually liking somebody. when you came to me, wala akong inexpect na mangyayari satin since ?? ewan ko akala ko talaga platonic lang lahat. and then sobrang naging close tayo kahit ininbox mo ‘ko noon. hatdog k :D it was funny to me nga kasi it almost seemed like most of our friends were close with the both of us as well ,, parang two in one lang na kape and at that point wala pa din akong nararamdaman sayo ‘non. kasi yun ng...

hi tangi, good morning :DD. alam mo kakagising ‘ko lang kanina kaya di ka dapat magagalit sa oras na ginawa ‘ko to :P yun lang naman sa ngayon hehehe, i love you sobra sobra tangi !!!! i hope you get the rest you deserve ++ much more because kailangan mo yun. laban lang okay so ‘yon na nga. hello ulit :D i know it hasn’t been easy for us the past few days, andaming nangyari. syempre obvious statement na yung madaming nangyari pero what i’m trying to say is, i’m sorry na i made it harder for you to deal with certain things. you could’ve just left me naman eh. i would understand you. pero you didn’t— you chose to stay with me kahit alam na nating dalawa na i’m not an easy person to deal with. i’m sorry tangi, sorry talaga. i’m trying to get my act right and i love you so much for being willing to help me. i don’t know what i’ve done to be able to have someone like...

no occasion gusto ko lang maglabas ng damdamin, siguro? nothing negative, gusto ko lang maglabas ng napakadaming pagmamahal. you’re sleeping na yata, it’s currently 5am. di ako makatulog as usual, listening to hsm :D walang bago, gusto ko lang sabihin na mahal na mahal kita. you don’t know how much i’m thankful to have you in my life, sobrang nagpapasalamat ako na meron akong sean angelo sa aking buhay. ang cringey aaaa hindi ako sanay pero grabe talaga, grabe yung pagmamahal na nararamdaman ko sayo. i haven’t been the best, andami ko pang katangahan na ginagawa, i know that. i’m sorry. sobrang, hindi ko alam minsan ano ikikilos ko kasi hindi na ako familiar sa mga nararamdaman ko. ang malinaw lang saakin ay mahal na kita, at ikaw lang talaga. you don’t know how happy you make me, sobrang saya ko sayo. i know palagi ko nang sinasabi sayo yon, pero hindi ko padin talaga naeexp...

it’s one of those nights, tonight. i listen to love songs, type into my phone’s notes as i stare on the dim screen thinking about you. honestly? i didn’t think i’d be writing again— it’s been so long since i last wrote an excerpt. maybe because i was used to writing about the saddest moments in my life, making my own darkness my muse and topic.

but this isn’t about that. i’m writing because i finally feel happy. everyday i get to smile, have fluttering butterflies inside of my soul and feel weightless whenever i talk to you. you don’t know how much you mean to me, and how you make everything else so beautiful in my eyes. you made me look at the world in a different perspective, and you made it so much better.

you brought change into my life that i didn’t even know i needed. scratch that— you were the change in my life that i d...

Sometimes I hate every single stupid word you say Sometimes I wanna slap you in your whole face (whoa oh oh) There's no one quite like you, you push all my buttons down I know life would suck without you (whoa oh oh) At the same time, I wanna hug you I wanna wrap my hands around your neck You're an asshole but I love you And you make me so mad, I ask myself Why I'm still here, or where could I go You're the only love I've ever known But I hate you, I really hate you So much I think it must be True love, true love It must be true love Nothin' else can break my heart like True love, true love It must be true love No one else can break my heart like you Whoa oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Whoa oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh Just once tried to wrap your little brain around my feelings Just once please try no to be so mean (whoa oh oh) Repeat after me now R-O-M-A-N-C-E-E...